#adhdawareness

biggest-gaudiest-patronuses:

that neurodivergent feel when you find that one fucking person who it doesn’t drain your battery to talk to. like a person with whom conversation is consistently fun and non-tiring and even sometimes relaxing/energizing which is of course absolutely insane as a concept

hi@melissa-s23, dis is u 

Being an adhd grimlin i often just parcour between subjects, have extreme hyperfixations and tend to speak a lot . I got used to people telling me to shut up of feeling like i was annoying them but that little blop of curly hair was the first one to tell me “please, continue talking, i love hearing you gush about the things you like” and it actually made me cry. 

(Repost from my Instagram since it will be helpful for you guys as well)

Long story short so you can choose to scroll past or read: I’m dealing with ADHD and I never knew I had it until now, at age 27. I’d like to spread more awareness about this condition since a LOT of people might be struggling with it without even knowing. It can give you the feeling you’re failing in everything you do and that there’s something wrong with you, while there is an explanation!

In the first 5 slides you can read what ADHD means and what types there are. I personally have inattentive ADHD, meaning that I’m physically not hyperactive but am only dealing with a brain that has trouble with certain things. I don’t always deal with all of the symptoms, though, and it depends on what situation I’m in and how I feel.

So many people around me have recently discovered (at a later age) they have ADHD because the pandemic is making the symptoms stand out more. When I look back I already had symptoms as a child, but they have never been noticed by anyone, ever. I’ve always been undereducated about ADHD and thought it was just something that simply ‘gives you too much energy’. School never taught me what it really means, unfortunately. But according to science it’s harder to recognise ADHD in women (slide 8) so I guess it was only a matter of time to discover it myself. A bit later than I would’ve wanted, but better late than never.

Now it all makes sense why I was so 'obsessed’ with everything related to the IT movies (and other movies/characters throughout my life) because it’s common for people with ADHD to hyperfocus on something they’re interested in (slide 6). No matter how much you’d like to focus on other things for a change, it’s pretty much impossible and the only way to deal with it is to just go with the flow. If it makes you happy and gives you positive outcomes, then don’t feel sorry. Personally the IT fandom in particular gave me the chance to develop myself in art, meeting new people, making friends, inspire and becoming inspired by people and even make me appreciate the horror genre.

The first time I was reading about Leonardo Da Vinci having ADHD (slide 7) it was almost as if I was reading about myself. I abandon my projects all the time whenever I find motivation in something new. It’s something you hardly can suppress and you feel terrible about all the projects that end up unfinished. Personally it makes me feel like I’m failing, thinking I’m not good enough or that I don’t deserve my talents. I wouldn’t be surprised if I’m also dealing with anxiety, since it’s common for adults with ADHD to deal with at least one other mental health condition. I’m scared to apply for a job, scared that I’m not talented enough and scared to disappoint people.

But thankfully I don’t feel alone in this anymore. The questions about my behavior traits finally have been answered and the ADHD community really makes you feel you matter. I still don’t know how to deal with it, though. The pandemic has definitely worsen my symptoms and I can easily say that I am the worst version of myself I’ve ever been. I am barely functioning because there is no daily rhythm (school, job, activities) I can hold on to.

If you recognise yourself in my story and the slides of information, remember that you’re not alone. I hope people can tell me their experiences and tips how to deal with ADHD.

Having Adult Adhd is HARD and it’s not talked about enough

apileofglitter:

chi-thewitch:

I want to read your experiences before being diagnosed with adhd? How did you realized? How did you feel?

Me:bitch . I have adhd and I need therapy and meds

Family member: bUt dO YoU waNt tO bE laBeLed???

Me, timidly: um…. no…..

Me, in my head: guess the internet’s my only safe place for mental health huh

i was diagnosed at 4. i had no idea until a school counselor accidentally broke the news when i was 17. assignments that took my friends an hour took me three. i almost never finished my tests. half of my homework was late. my mom tried to get me into assisted study hall and i refused. my counselor gave me countless planners and checklists and i could never keep them for longer than a week. my mom sent me in to get signatures from my teachers so i could prove i talked to them about my 0’s.

my twin sister had been in accelerated school programs since we were 9. i wanted to be like her so bad. i hated help, hated admitting i needed help, would rather fail than ask for help, because nobody else seemed to need it. i wanted to be able to do what everyone else was doing and i was desperate to prove it, because i didn’t know i had adhd and thought everyone else had just diagnosed me with stupid. my mom insists i knew. i didn’t.

fast forward to now, i’m a grown woman and i’m still finding out day-to-day more and more of my behaviors that are related to my adhd. i have the sense of self awareness i was denied for most of my childhood. i’m still stuck in the depression that stemmed from leaving my adhd untreated for so long. i’m experimenting with different medications and i’m doing well. but i still feel like i’m the only one in my life who understands how i work.

please tell your kids what’s happening inside their brains. talk to adults with adhd and ask them what their childhood was like. stop reading those adhd parenting books that were written in the 90’s. they’re not relevant anymore. i always wonder what my life would look like now if i didn’t burn out three years before i graduated high school, if i’d understood what was going on, if i had someone else who understood looking out for me.

i know i’m preaching to the choir here, but i needed to get that out there. it may have seemed like a minor issue when i was a kid but maybe if i had been treated properly i wouldn’t want to die today.

castiel-has-bees:

Next up on is it ADHD or a bad childhood: i hate touching people but desperately want to be held by someone!