#adhd inattentive
“If you don’t understand this, it’s because you weren’t paying attention!” Bitch shut up and help me with this geometry problem
I’m really bad about getting off topic when discussing something or after being asked a question. It’s not as though I change the topic completely at a whim, but rather whatever is being talked about relates to something else and my ADHD sends me down a rabbit hole. I’m really bad about getting off topic when discussing something or after being asked a question. It’s not as though I change the topic completely at a whim, but rather whatever is being talked about relates to something else and my ADHD sends me down a rabbit hole
Exhausted before the day even begins.
Happy New Years! 2020 may have been a hard year, but it was a big year for me in terms of being diagnosed and finding the wonderful ADHD community. I felt so lost after my initial diagnosis, but I was so lucky to find people who understand and have been such great supports.
Thank you all for being a part of this and for sharing your experiences, cheering me on, and being a part of this community.
This is a very personal comic, even though it’s not very long and doesn’t have many details. There were many opportunities in my life where my ADHD should have been caught, but I felt like I had been failed several times by the same professionals I had sought help from. It all boiled down to the fact they thought they knew me better than I knew me and therefore what I had to say was not deemed important enough to listen to.
It wasn’t until I started seeing my current therapist that I was actually allowed to speak for myself. At first it seemed to only confirm my Generalized Anxiety Disorder, but the more I talked, the more she began to realize that there was something else going on. One day she politely asked me to stop for a moment and point blank asked me “Bri, have you ever heard of Inattentive ADHD?” I had not.
And it was then I began my true journey.
A messier comic for messy feelings.
Being undiagnosed most of my life was difficult. I was dealing with anxiety, adhd and trauma as a young child and I felt so alone and misunderstood. It wasn’t fair. I was only a child.
Another example of how “out of sight, out of mind” affects me. Unless it’s something I’m REALLY looking forward to, I often forget it’s even supposed to be arriving if it takes longer than a week or so.
#adhd and vague posting
ADHD and Obligations
Accommodation Plans/504 Plans
So, this is something that’s been somewhat bothering my for a while, and I wanted to see if anyone could relate. So this is basically a vent and y’all are welcome to scroll past. For starters, I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD primarily of the inattentive type since 4th grade. My ADHD has never been the type portrayed in popular media or what people have been led to believe ADHD is. That’s me medicated. My ADHD is fairly severe. I get 100% (double) time on just about every assessment. I am now a junior in high school, and this is still the case, and probably will be in college too. I’m 17 years old, and I go to a primarily white private school in the south. I only include this information due to the fact that my limited research, which could be wrong considering it was once Google search and a couple of clicks, has turned up that it’s more likely for rich, white students to get accommodation plans. So, I include that fact to attempt to support one of my claims made in here.
Now, here’s where my post actually begins. It kind of plays like a speech in my head, and forgive me if that’s annoying but it was the best way for me to format this in my brain.
When I was younger, there was a local restaurant with an elevated patio in the back. There were stairs to get on to the patio because extra parking for the restaurant was in the back. But, there wasn’t enough room for a wheelchair ramp. So, instead, there was a little elevator thing. Me being young, of course I wanted to go on it. But, whoever I was with, my mom more than likely, told me no, obviously. It wasn’t for me, I don’t need it, it’s not a ride, etc. And of course this was frustrating, but even at that young age I knew that was true. It wasn’t there for me to play on, it was there for people who had other struggles and needed help to get up on the patio. If I were to play on it, someone who needed it may not be able to get on the patio, and they wouldn’t be able to enjoy the food at the restaurant.
Now, this may seem unrelated, but I promise it is. In the 4th grade I was diagnosed with ADHD. I got extra time on my tests, and I got to take them in an isolated space because of my extra time. In all honesty, I don’t use my extended time much. Occasionally I do, and I’ll admit, it’s nice to have, especially when I forget to take my meds, or the meds don’t work very well and I can’t focus for a long period of time, but I need the isolation more than anything. This has continued throughout my schooling. I have to go through extensive testing every 3 years to keep my accommodations, which is fair. It would be ridiculous if I outgrew my ADHD but kept the extended time that I don’t need. For years, there were very few other students that had accommodation plans, but that began to change when I got into high school.
As I went through high school, more and more kids started to get accommodation plans. For things like ‘test anxiety,’ or other things that as far as I’m concerned, seemed a little far fetched. And maybe I’m making assumptions, but I’m fairly sure I’m not. Over the years, I have been told too many times how lucky I am to have extended time, and how these kids want extended time, etc. I don’t consider myself lucky, considering the struggles I go through to require an accommodation plan, and the amount of money and time that goes into getting and maintaining an accommodation plan. Now I know I am lucky because some people do need them and don’t have the resources to get one, but that’s not the concern here. These things make me believe that some of these kids don’t need their extended time. Yet, as time went on, and more of these students who didn’t really need these accommodations started popping up and showing up in the testing rooms for extended time. Now, I went from about 4 other students in my testing room to not a single desk empty.
As I stated before, I need the isolation more than the time. Now that there’s so many people with extended time, I’d be better off taking my exams with the rest of the class. But I need that isolation. They may or may not. They just wanted it. But now they’re impeding on my ability to get up on that patio because they wanted to play on the elevator. I needed that extra help to get up and enjoy the food, but they’re taking that away from me. Why do they get to enjoy something that they don’t need, but I can’t even get the bare necessities for success?
Anyways, that’s my rant thanks for reading peace out
Ok so I’ve found a way to describe what Neurodivergent Can’t Do Task Mode™ feels like to neurotypicals
So you know how you can’t make yourselfputyour hand down on a hot stovetop? There’s a part of your brainthatstops you from doing that? That’s what Neurodivergent Can’t Do Task Mode™ feels like
Even if we want to do it, there’s a barrier stopping us from doing it, and it’s really hard to override
Andwhydoesour brain see the task as a hot stovetop? Because when neurotypicals finish a task, they get serotonin, but we don’t get that satisfactionaftercompleting a task. A neurotypical wouldn’t get serotoninfromputting their hand on a hot stovetop, it would just hurt. When we can’t do a task, it’s because our brain knows that the taskwillhurt (metaphorically) and wants to avoid that.
It’snot that we’re choosing not to do the task, it’s that our brain is physically preventing us from doing it.
Neurotypicals can and should reblog but please don’t add anything
(Sorry/not sorry about the random bolding, it makes it easier for us to read)
> Neurotypicals can and should reblog but please don’t add anything
Implying you can stop me.
Honestly, if I wanted to know actual, helpful information on the matter, Tumblr is in hot competition for dead last on the list of places to get the information from; the majority of people here are running the self-diagnosed “uwu I’m neurodivergent” gambit.
You’re not gonna find it in many other places ;). I’m actually legitimately curious which are the alive first on the list of places for you.
Tumblr shouldn’t be glorified or anything, but any community where people can discuss something freely from their POV is a great informational source if you have the smarts to weed through it. It also happens to have a format that promotes an easy way to do so as well, in the form of reblogs and likes and tags. If you find a post with a large amount of notes, where people with an actual diagnosis confirm that information, it’s fairly easy to assume that it has a certain credibility.
I don’t usually respond to schnazz like this, but ADHD-wise, Tumblr and similar communities are great, and actually much better than many other sources. Why? Because “officially”, ADHD has mostly been associated and studied @ young boys. Adult ADHD is still not acknowledged in many parts of the world. Girls with ADHD go undiagnosed really often.
I’m female and I was diagnosed at 23. No one ever suspected ADHD (not even myself, even though I looked into it multiple times). You know why? Because it’s hardly ever documented. It looks different from “official sources”. I got diagnosed precisely thanks to Tumblr and similar communities, for sharing actual life experiences. Because I stumbled across posts similar to this, dug deeper, and realized that wow, it’s all accurate. All of it.
So I went, made a suggestion to my psychiatrist, who scheduled a meeting with me (and my mom, for confirmation of existing symptomatology during childhood years) and would you look at that. I got officially diagnosed and subsequently medicated. And I live a much better life thanks to it :).
When you see a long post that looks really interesting, but you don’t have the attention span to read it.
I need add /adhd study and motivation help !
Struggling keeping up with my classes and being motivated and GETTING the work done ! Also I suck at time management and need help becoming a morning person
The amount of times I say “forgot” in a day is probably astounding
I got a job and my adhd is absolutely kicking me in the butt. I keep assembling things the wrong way and don’t realize until I’m several steps in*, I will sometimes forget what I’m supposed to be doing next for a split second and just stand there weirdly, and then when my boss or other employees are giving me instruction I have to make such a conscious effort to pay attention and retain the words they are saying and sometimes I slip anyway and am like oh shoot shoot I was supposed to be listening ah! And then I’m also just constantly worried about not doing good enough or being a nuisance to everyone else or causing problems, and that has overwhelmed me a few times, but so far I have managed to keep a more positive attitude and I haven’t ended a work day wanting to quit yet. And sometimes it’s fun so that helps.
*im still able to fix it when I do it wrong so it’s not terrible just consumes more time
But also my boss and coworkers are all very good about it when I do something wrong and help me so that also probably has a big impact on why I am still doing ok
I got a job and my adhd is absolutely kicking me in the butt. I keep assembling things the wrong way and don’t realize until I’m several steps in*, I will sometimes forget what I’m supposed to be doing next for a split second and just stand there weirdly, and then when my boss or other employees are giving me instruction I have to make such a conscious effort to pay attention and retain the words they are saying and sometimes I slip anyway and am like oh shoot shoot I was supposed to be listening ah! And then I’m also just constantly worried about not doing good enough or being a nuisance to everyone else or causing problems, and that has overwhelmed me a few times, but so far I have managed to keep a more positive attitude and I haven’t ended a work day wanting to quit yet. And sometimes it’s fun so that helps.
*im still able to fix it when I do it wrong so it’s not terrible just consumes more time
Having Adult Adhd is HARD and it’s not talked about enough
Had my first adhd meds today and i feel
S l o w
My thoughts have just done 0.025x speed on youtube. I can focus on my artwork without having intrusive thoughts like ‘hey go hit your brother with a pillow while screaming an entire scene from a musical’ (i have done that before, it was the blueshit scene from tgwdlm)
I feel calmer and its strange. I’ve lived my whole life living on hyperspeed. Its so different. I dont know if i like it or not. It really helps my impulsivenessandattention span but it doesnt feel like me
Finished last day of school today before break!
Super happy with my results! All A’s and only 2 B’s in Humanities and HPE (screw HPE tho (volleyball still is cool tho))
I am an average A and B student but my parents have said nothing so far. Iinda want some validation
anyways i just bullshitted all my essays like i always do and pass with flying colours cause i am ’special’ ’gifted child’ who is ’wise beyond their years’ and super ’talented’. Mam thats just me masking 84% of the time and seeing the world differently to you.
Honestly i kinda feel like being neurodivergent is somehow cheating because i have an advantage. Idk just me overthinkingg
Heehoo didya like my rainbows? A lil razzle dazzle to this post (tumblr needs to add a purple)
Just made a bet with my friend.
See if i get distracted. (Very likely)
Dont distract me.
I’ll probably distract myself.
A LEATHER JACKET IS ON THE LINE
This is probably me getting distracted isn’t it.
I’m somewhere between here:
and here:
