Discharged from mental health services.

I am so mixed with emotions right now

I have been under mental health services since I was a young teen,

I have suffered trauma,

I have suffered loss,

I have been sectioned,

I have starved myself,

I have been in hospital hooked up to machines,

I have used emergency services endlessly,

I have seen multiple therapists,

I have cried myself to sleep,

I have spent a year in a specialist hospital,

I have pushed people away,

I have lived a life not worth living at times.

BUT….

Today I was discharged PROPERLY from mental health services

I had a CPA today where I was able to say I no longer need services. After 10 years of consistent input from services I can finally say I feel human again. I feel happy and content with myself.

I still have down days and I’m on medication but that’s part of life. I can handle what life throws at me and I have goals and plans I want to achieve.

I can see a career I know I will be good at and I am making plans towards that goal,

I am saving for a house,

I am volunteering,

I am getting fitter,

I am getting back into sport,

I am seeing friends,

I have a beautiful niece,

I have a good support network,

I enjoy learning,

I am growing,

I am surviving,

I have passion and motivation,

I am enjoying life

Looking back I am so grateful to those who stood by me. The people who picked me up, the people who never stopped loving me. The people who held me whilst I sobbed, who ran to me late at night, who sat in A&E with me, who put up with my misery, who called me to check I was okay.

I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH - I love you ❤️

I cannot believe all I have been through, I can say I am proud of what I’ve survived. I never thought I would see the day I say goodbye to services. I want to cry and smile all in one, so that’s what I’m going to do

To those suffering out there, please never give

Here’s to me