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She was your first.
She was your first date, first love, the first one you wanted to build a home and have a family with.
She was your first.
She was the first to meet your family. She became part of your family. She was the first girl your mother loved for you.
Yes,she was your first in many things but she, too, was your first heartbreak.
She was the first one to build you up and break you down. She knew you as much as you know yourself.
She may be your first but she will never be me.
She will never be the one who would pick you up when you think that you would never get back up because she wasn’t even there when you needed her.
No matter what she does, she’ll never be able to love you as much as I do.
She’ll never know you more than I know you. She could never make you realize that you are worthy of every love one should give. She could never make you feel any happier and more contented.
My love, I know that I should never compare myself to her because there’s a reason why she’s there and I am here with you now.
I am glad, I was not your first.
The same love, grace and care you freely give to other people is what you owe yourself. You deserve it too. Give that to yourself too.
This is for you, brave soul.
To you who had a rough week.
To you who had been under uncertainties and stormy clouds.
To you who do not know how much longer you can hold on.
To you who always blame yourself for everything that goes wrong.
To you who had lost faith.
This is for you —
There is something in you that makes this world incredible. You may look at yourself with flaws, scars and nothing but disappointments but you have you much potential and so many things left to do.
You are someone who’s born to be a warrior.
Fighter, better things are coming your way.
Hang in there. You are called to overcome.
Listen,
It’s going to be alright.
I know up to this point, things haven’t worked out for you. Things may not be going the way you’ve wanted and prayed it to be. Even so, it is okay.
You’ve put your heart on the line for how many times and again and again, you’ve come up empty handed. You never fear losing, it is just you’ve given so much, you’ve given your all and yet you had nothing. Time after time you’ve given so much and received nothing in return.
And yes, it is going to be alright.
You kept asking because you’ve sacrificed, you’ve tried, you’ve fought hard and yet here you are —questioning, wondering, doubting and worst may be, losing hope.
But that’s okay, that is okay. Keep your head up, conqueror.
Believe it or not, right now God wants you right where He wants you.
He’s mending you.
He’s prunning you.
He’s molding you.
He’s strengthening you.
He’s working in you.
He’s working on you.
And He’s preparing you.
He’s preparing you for something that is far better anything you’ve had before.
He’s preparing you for something that you can’t even imagine.
He’s preparing you for something you’ve been praying for, day after day, night after night.
The world may have turned its back on you but it is okay.
Maybe He’s preparing you for something that’s going to make you look back, and understand why He never let anything work before.
To the one who is continously hurting,
To the one who is brave enough to face tomorrow,
To you who is fighting silent battles,
Hold on.
Do not lose your grip.
Wait a little more.
So much goodness is coming. There may be mourning at night but joy is yet to come.
Hold on to hope.
Choose to love even more.
Choose love.
Know that He is good and His mercy overflows.
His grace suits perfectly in you.
He sees your tears.
He comforts.
You are not alone.
Goodness is here.
Goodness is coming to you.
Listen,
It’s going to be alright.
I know up to this point, things haven’t worked out for you. Things may not be going the way you’ve wanted and prayed it to be. Even so, it is okay.
You’ve put your heart on the line for how many times and again and again, you’ve come up empty handed. You never fear losing, it is just you’ve given so much, you’ve given your all and yet you had nothing. Time after time you’ve given so much and received nothing in return.
And yes, it is going to be alright.
You kept asking because you’ve sacrificed, you’ve tried, you’ve fought hard and yet here you are —questioning, wondering, doubting and worst may be, losing hope.
But that’s okay, that is okay. Keep your head up, conqueror.
Believe it or not, at this point, God wants you right where He wants you.
He’s mending you.
He’s prunning you.
He’s molding you.
He’s strengthening you.
He’s working in you.
He’s working on you.
And He’s preparing you.
He’s preparing you for something that is far better anything you’ve had before.
He’s preparing you for something that you can’t even imagine.
He’s preparing you for something you’ve been praying for, day after day, night after night.
The world may have turned its back on you but it is okay.
Because maybe, He’s preparing you for something that’s going to make you look back, and understand why He never let anything work before.
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To the girl who tries to be strong everyday,
You are doing it right. You always show to everyone that you are fighting hard after breaking down a million times, as if nothing’s wrong, as if you do not need anyone’s help. You are fighting hard to be the person everyone wants and expects you to be, and it is okay with you, they have never heard you complain.
You’re a woman with a big and beautiful heart. You are fighting battles you can’t even discuss with anyone because you do not want to be a burden. You try to be strong and help everyone when you, yourself, is helpless, you give encouragement to those who need it when you, yourself, need it the most. You always put other people first and they don’t even notice it. You have told yourself that you have no right to rest and that you have to always fight for those you love, at all cost.
Brave heart, I want you to know that God is seeing the narrative of your life. He sees every tears you wipe before you step out of your room and smile like you weren’t crying yourself to sleep last night. He sees how hard you try to be alright in front of those you love but you are dying to cry your heart out. He sees how heavy your chest is, He sees how much you bear the pain. He hears your silent cries, He knows you are afraid everytime people would ask you what’s happening and you won’t find the right answers.
Beloved, I want you to know that it is okay to not be okay. It is okay to rest and give yourself space from everything that is tearing you apart. It is okay to pause and breathe for a while.
So take heart, woman.
You are making us proud.
