I don’t understand Gwynriel fans. All Azriel does is display social interaction for the first time in five books with a girl and the fandom’s already coming up with baby names for them.
“I can’t cry, I can’t depend on anyone else. I have to be good. That way my father won’t hate me so much but I hated my father. I’m so tired of it all. I want to disgrace myself. To get so dirty that no body can stand it.”
when i tell you i see RED whenever i remember the way nesta was completely convinced she didn’t ‘deserve’ cassian.
ma’am, he is a literal MAN CHILD. he threw a full temper tantrum when you rejected his solstice gift (which you had every right to do btw you don’t owe it to him to take his pity gifts ✋) and yeeted it in the sidra like a toddler throwing a toy at the wall when their mom says it’s time to tidy up and go to bed. he makes it a point to tease you for your choice of reading material because he’s so immature that the thought of reading smut makes him crack up like a ninth grader hearing the word “erection” for the first time in a sex ed class. he couldn’t even stomach the sight of you dancing with another man when it was literally just part of an established plan because he’s as possessive as a kid that doesn’t want to let their friend have any other friends out of fear that they’ll ditch them for the others.
AND I JUST KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT THAT THIS MAN’S HAIR IS GREASY ASF. I JUST KNOW IT. I FEEL IT IN MY BONES. THAT’S GOTTA BE WHY HIS SIGNATURE LOOK IS THE MAN BUN. TO HIDE ALL THAT HAIR OIL. YOU CANNOT TELL ME I’M WRONG.
…yk what? you’re right, nesta. you don’t deserve cassian.
no matter what, remember that your story is worth telling.
ps. this book meant a lot. i have never met a character who i relate so much to or has faced the same mental (and physical) challenges that i have. Nesta means so so so so much to me, and these quotes helped me heal some things inside myself that i hadn’t been able to face yet. i hope (like the dedication of this book) that every nesta out there climbs that mountain.
