our flag means death / blackbonnet playlist

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Found amazing Spoken Word content on Spotify that I decided to make a playlist for it. Give it some love and appreciation.

Hope you don’t sleep on me,

Cause I’ve got….

I’m going to start packing and moving my things out of my apartment. I have a week ½ left before I officially have to be out, I’m trying to make this process as smooth and therapeutic as possible without crying. But I think at this point it’s inevitable.

This situation is overall terrible but maybe it’s supposed to make me stronger and more self reliant in the end. But …..I have to move back in with my toxic mom because I’m left with no choice. This was the last option for me. Trust. She makes me anxious because she hates me and is super condescending about everything I’ve done in my life. Whew. Breathe. I’m swallowing my pride for the time being and just going to handle my shit. It was difficult for me to find a place while working during this pandemic and it was a difficult to make this decision. That or live w/ strangers or be homeless. My roomie can’t pay rent cause she quit her job and is going through her own shit. This sucks ass. Never planned this year to go this way because obviously this wasn’t the initial plan but here we are….

I’m just worried that this will set me back but I’m trying to be positive. Upside is I’ll be saving a shit ton of money but at what cost emotionally? I’m ready to internally implode because it’s a lot to handle. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. I’m freaking out and I’m just ready to be in the next year….

“Hit different by Sza but it’s slowed and you’re making out in a bathroom at a party” this yt title lol

I wanna sit on a cute girls lap and make out. Requirements: Covid free/gets tested regularly (like me), going through a breakup, looking for a rebound, gay

I’m jk - sort of….2:46am the toxicity just comes out

One of the comments: “I really do be needing holy water right now” HAHAHAHA SAME.

That’s enough internet for me

“Its about being infatuated with someone who wants nothing to do with you”

Damn that shit hurts, but fr

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Excuse ME — I need to be fucked to this whole version!!! NOW!!!!! Wow just wow!!!!!!

Alright alrightttttttt

I worked 2 hrs OT, finished up a bunch of overdue work.

Put in effort today

Did a face mask

Smoked a joint

Lit a candle

Danced a lil

Made myself lemongrass tofu

Nice~

What should I do for myself this Vday? Buy the heart shaped Chik-Fil-A nuggets? not when they hate the gaysssss agh

I’m happy my roommates + best friend decided to join me this wknd. We’re staying 1 night in LA so we don’t have to rush for Saturdays exhibit at 12pm. The plan is to visit 2-3 exhibits, smoke and walk the beach. But we’ll see how much we’re able to get done! I know we’re still in a pandemic and I realize how stupid this sounds/looks but safety has been my #1 priority since what happened in dec. I have been extremely careful and more mindful, turning down major events and self isolating for the best.

I already fell asleep for 15 mins and woke up to write this haha. I’m trying to wake up at 5:30am again and walk the beach :) favorite thing to do because NOBODY is out

sooo good I could cry

im gonna miss my neighborhood so much

SHE RELEASED THIS YESTERDAY, BUT I JUST WOKE UP AND LISTENED TO IT

I truly almost cried ….last verse. I have chills Merry xmas

“Gotta get right

Tryna free my mind before the end of the world

I don’t miss no ex, I don’t miss no text

I choose not to respond

I don’t regret, just pretend shit never happened

Half of us layin’ waste and our youth is in the present

Half of us chasin’ fountains of youth and it’s in the present now”

I’m tired of that neg energy in my life. Here’s my December playlist. Good vibes and good people only from now on.

I cut so many people out of my life and old habits.

I’m doin great

Welp here’s some songs I have on repeat lately. Ughhhhh I can’t wait until my paint samples and new books come in.

I’m just tryna vibe, paint and smoke while Im quarantined

“(…)

Below my soul

I feel an engine

Collapsing as it sees the pain

If I could only shut it out

I’ve come too far

To see the end now

Even if my way is wrong

I keep pushing on and on and on and on

There’s nothing left to say now (oh)

There’s nothing left to say now

I’m giving up, giving up, he he, giving up now

I’m giving up, giving up, he he, giving up now

(…)“

:’(

[text by: nothing left to say - imagine dragons]