hey guys, im not dead haha. no harry potter atm, but enjoy this reiner fic since i got into aot again.
Summary:Reiner comes back to Marley to find you moved on, inspired by drunk wqalk home by mitski
Pairing: Reiner Braun x Male Reader
Word Count:1794
Warning: alcohol usage, general depression, a lot of trauma, most of it surrounding reiner.
The fog faded into the cool night as he stumbled home, the streets were empty sparing a few fellow drunkards. He was angry and confused as the alcohol wrecked through his system.
He was nothing more than a tool. A fool stuck in this mess he created. He wanted to scream, cry and crawl his way out of the shallow grave he was forced into. The two sides of him fighting to conquer his will, how could he live with himself when all he wanted was you.
He swayed side to side as he walked through the dimly lit streets of Marley. He never wanted to return to this place, not when you were here. How could you be so stupid?! He thought to himself as he stopped to lean against a wall, throwing up what he thought might have been all his inner demons if he didn’t know any better.
He wanted nothing more than to return to you. To kiss you and love you, hold you tight like he should’ve. What he wanted more was to leave this fucking hell with you by his side, but what a fucking fool he was. How could he expect you to pause your life for him? How could he have not predicted you would’ve thought he was dead by now? A faded memory from your past you wished to forget.
He had scanned for your face in the crowd when he came home, but you weren’t there. His family greeted him with tears and hugs, but he couldn’t stop peering over their shoulders to catch a glimpse of your face anywhere. He had asked around and discovered where you had gone to when he left, but no one would look him in the eyes when he asked what you were doing now. So as cruel fate would have it, he knocked on your door.
You answered, looking older and wiser, yet he could see you under it all. A scared kid, hugging him tight as you begged him not to go. Though now you stared at him with wide eyes and a small toddler in your arms. He couldn’t breathe as you smiled, small tears in your eyes upon hearing about his return. He couldn’t say a word as many spilled from your lips. The toddler growing restless in your arms as you cut the conversation short, suggesting to meet at a later date to properly catch-up.
He hadn’t been gone that long had he? He must’ve been imagining it when your wife came to take the toddler out of your arms for rest or when she kissed your cheek to let you know dinner was gonna be ready soon, asking who your friend was.
Though through it all you smiled, like you were happy to see him, like you couldn’t see the blackhole forming in his chest once only a small missing piece from his life. You looked awkward having to carry the short conversation when he couldn’t get a word in.
“I’m so glad you came home safe” You smiled again and his eyes were burning. He never knew you could smile this much, he couldn’t have known you would smile this much. You had to know how long he waited to see it again because you couldn’t stop treating him to your smile. “I’ll have to come see you soon, okay? A new bakery opened on that street we used to play in. It has the most delicious pies you’ll ever see! I have to go now. Are you okay, Reiner?” You said his name and all his emotions bubbled you at once and before he knew it tears were streaming down his face, blurring his vision.
“That sounds great. I’ll have to check that out.” Reiner said, tears falling onto his jacket. He then turned around on his heel, walking away.
Now here he was walking down the same road. He would never be free. He wasn’t sure of where he was going, but every turn he took drew him closer to you. He thought about how he was finally allowed to be here, where you were. His armband earned him that, but didn’t earn him you. He could see your door now in his drunken vision, right in front of him in fact. Burning his brain with the thoughts of you standing there, begging him to stay this time and then he knocked.
He regretted it, regretted every choice he had made up to this point. He considered taking off in the opposite direction, running as fast as his drunken state would allow and never seeing you again, but as his body reacted to his thought, you opened the door.
“Reiner? What are- what are you doing here this late?” You said, worried as he struggled to hold himself up. His legs had almost bucked beneath when he saw you. “I-“ Was all he could say before he was on his knees in front of you, he looked confused and angry. He looked like he was holding on by a thread.
“I don’t know.” He said as he looked up at you. Reiner looked like a scared child in that moment, his eyes glossed over with a sad emptiness you didn’t remember being there. “Are you okay? What’s wrong?” You immediately fussed over him, checking him. He smelled like cheap booze and cigarette smoke. He was definitely not okay.
“I’m fine” He simply said, looking at his hands. They burned with his guilt and sadness. He was tired. “Do you need help getting home? I could get my coat and tell (girl name) to make sure (toddler’s name) is okay. I don’t mind.” You quickly got into action and it made his hands burn hotter. “I’m fine” He repeated in the same tone. “You are clearly not.” You fought back, bringing him inside to sit down on a stool. “Stay here.” You commanded and he obeyed as you walked away.
His thoughts ran circles around his brain as you walked away. Why did he do this? Coming to you in the middle of the night and disturbing your family. It hadn’t even been a month since he saw you that day. “Okay. Here.” You put a coat on him, it was definitely the alcohol, but he didn’t feel how cold it was.
“I need you.” Your heart skipped a beat as you pulled his arm around your shoulder, you hoped he couldn’t hear your heartbeat. “Let’s just get you home, okay?” “Okay.”
Reinwr walked through the empty city once, the previous drunks seemed to have gone back to their homes and you two were the last people out this late. Reiner looked sick and left your side to puke up more of his demons. You helped him up again. The cool air and the fog made it the prettiest night with no one else in sight.
You arrived at his door, the lights still on from when he left. The room is simple with a small kitchen off the side and a kettle. Tea. Tea was a good idea, you helped him take the coat off and sit down at the stools surrounding the small table next the kitchen. The room looked too blank, no personal items around, no decorations, only one dead flower in an empty vase.
You made tea with Reiner’s eyes burning into the back of your head. Reiner thought you were the prettiest person alive in this moment, dimly lit by the candle light. You were here right now, when he needed you. You were here.
You finished the tea and sat next to him, drinking it in silence together. A lot of things were left unsaid to this point. Things neither of you wanted to spill sober, but Reiner wasn’t sober right now. “I cant-“ He tried to say, but the words caught in his throat, willing his tears away. You looked towards him and saw the determined look on his face.
“I can’t live without you.” Reiner said, blankly. He was going to regret a lot of the things he did here tonight. “What?” “I said I can’t live with you.” He repeated more clearly like you just didn’t hear him. “I’m quite sure you can” You laughed it off and he grew more desperate. “No… I can’t. I can’t live without you… here. You don’t understand.” He held his arms out to you as you laid him down to sober up.
He reached to your face and both your hearts stopped. You never imagined he was alive and he never imagined he’d live to see your face again. “I can’t do this with you, Reiner. I can… never do this with you.” You said, your throat catching the last few words. Reiner was broken and in his drunken thoughts, you were the only glue he needed to fix himself. “This time I thought maybe we just didn’t have to tell anyone what we do.” Reiner whispered and you were the first to break.
You gently put your lips to his, forgetting every vow you took as his lips fit perfectly with yours. It wasn’t fair how perfect they fit as he deepened the kiss. Nothing would last forever, but this moment felt like it could. “I’m sorry I never tried to stay for you.” “I’m sorry I never tried harder to make you stay.”
You both did things you regretted that night. Reiner held you and kissed you like he’d never get to taste you ever again. He kissed you deeply and beautifully as the sunlight broke through the windows. Not for a single moment did he stop to think about ever letting you like he had so long again.
As you both laid there, Reiner’s arms holding your frame, you felt him shake with sobs looking at you. You didn’t say anything, how could you even imagine what he had gone through up until now.
“You’re here… you’re really here with me.” He cried out as you pulled him closer to you, holding him. He held you in return, clinging onto you like you were the last safe place he had left in the world. “Everything is wrong.” He sobbed, his breath growing heavy and his head shook in your hands. All you could do was stroke the broken man’s hair, shushing him until he could breathe again. “I’m here.” You said against your better judgment. You wouldn’t be here for him always. You couldn’t. aot
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You watched him carefully as he slowly fell asleep in your arms, his breath evening out as his shoulder rose and fell with every breath. You clearly got up, putting on the clothing you had and taking your belongings with you.
You were not the greatest at dating and you felt that you were always meeting duds. Having decided to spend the year working on yourself, you downloaded a social media app and became addicted to scrolling through people’s lives and eventually gained the confidence to walk strangers through your self-love year. Quickly, it gained a lot of views and you were drowning in followers and people were leaving comments of encouragement. There was one particular follower who was always duetting and stitching your posts and you decided to send him a DM. It turned out he was also on his own year of self-care and you both became close friends which later became something more.
Where you go on a date
Reiner strikes me as the type that loves beer? I just feel like since you’re both “influencers” you would choose somewhere that has something to create potential content like a brewery of some sort. You came up with the idea and he found the place. Can we talk about Reiner’s pink cheeks when he tastes too many beers and starts getting tipsy?
Something that goes ‘wrong’
I am calling it ‘wrong’ because once Reiner gets drunk, he gets way more confident and you get to sit back and enjoy hearing him bust out in his favorite karaoke songs, singing in front of the entire bar. He actually gets a decent sized crowd with his throwback songs.
How they confess
When he finally gets off stage and makes his way back to you, he trips over his own feet and falls to the ground in front of you. When you bend over to help him up, asking if he’s okay, he tells you that he “fell for you”.
What gift they bring you
Reiner is adorable and a bit of a spaz so when he gets so nervous about the Valentine’s Day date and forgets to even get you a gift, he runs to the nearest convenience store and grabs the first thing he thinks you will like. An apron. It’s blue and frilly and has a little spoon on the front and you love it.
SUMMARY.in an attempt to avoid eviction from your apartment, youdesperately search for a roommate. enter reiner braun: an attractive, 23-year-old man with a certain kindness, a unique sense of humility, and the prettiest eyes you’ve ever seen. living with someone who looks like they could snap you in half is an interesting feat, though not impossible; it should be easy. but with an obsessive ex-boyfriend, parties, work, and a growing friendship, you’re about to discover what living with reiner entails. as the lease progresses and questionable feelings arise, you can’t help but wonder if anything else will come out of this — especially when the line that separates platonic affection from something more passionate starts to blur. 
WARNING. smut, strong language, parental issues, drug use and alcohol, sexual themes, mentions of toxic relationships, descriptions of nudity, angst
Hello! I’m asking for asks / submissions ideas for a series I’m working on. It’s a love letter series. I plan on writing yearning, agnsty, and fluffy letters addressed to (y/n)- all with a handwritten appearance.
To be quiet honest, you didn’t expect to be tutoring Reiner. You never thought he would even talk to you, let alone ask you for help studying. You had been at the top of your class ever since you were in young. Yeah you’d tutor some people here and there but the star football player could have help from anyone, why did he choose you?
The two of you spent time together whenever you could. He was busy with practice so you often met up when he was done.
You’d sip milkshakes together over textbooks, study vocabulary in the overhead light in his car, and you’d quiz him on the sidelines of practice.
He was as gentleman and drove you home every night as well. The one time when you tried to decline his ride, he said it was fine because he respects your boundaries BUT he just so happened to facetime you the entire time you walked home and didn’t hang up until you were home.
He would carry your books to class and carry your backpack for you :”)
Once Porco was like “hey your little nerd friend is here” and Reiners head shot straight up as he dropped the weights in his hands. The whole team laughed at him when he realized it was a prank. He was so excited to see you :(
This guy has big Himbo energy
He doesn’t understand why he cant just pick you up and carry you around when you say youre tired.
He likes when you come over to his house and just talk about your life and day or vent while he lifts weights.
Reiner gets upsets when you say you couldn’t help him study today because you had plans you made with another person, Big Golden Retriever Boy ™ is just so jealous that other people can be around you and not him.
He hypes you up!
Always compliments your mind and thoughts, and if you ever beat yourself up he wont stop gushing about how amazing you are.
Porco threatened to steal you from him as a joke so whenever he sees him talking to you he gets in between
Ok but imagine Reiner all sweaty and out of breath because he’s been running around the field and he takes a break and sits next to you. He pushes his hair away from his face and smiles at you.
Himbo!Reiner who’s been at the gym for 7 hours and decided to get you your favorite Starbucks drink on the ride home because he loves you! He cant even spell Starbucks half the time but he knows your order by heart <3
i think that I had lost A LOT of fics that I love to read cuz the authors change their username so the links breaks and I think I never will find them again
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