#social phobia

I know it’s already over now, nothing left to lose..

there comes the time when you’ll fall apart again.
the time your next panic attack sets in.
the time you just can’t keep putting all your pieces back together.
the time you slowly fade away with a smile on your lips.

would they even care if I was gone….

i…i don’t wanna live anymore, not like this. There’s nothing but judgement, they blame every f*cking thing on me. It wasn’t me! It wasn’t my fault. They don’t even let me explain……i hate them

this weather is perfect in my eyes and as cold as my heart became…

He’s the only one who loves me. He is my everything, the only reason I am still alive. We’ll go trough this together, right boy ?

The short moment when you think about changing lanes….

I love driving alone

~all my life they let me know, how far I will not go. but inside the beast still grows…~

~you can’t hear me cry, see my dreams all die~
I’m starting to lose myself again…..

even people I thought I knew, even they judge me for what I do now.

My day was awfull again like everyday. I’m used to it though,…..

I have been trying to think of areas in my life I can make comics about while I write the stories for my other two big ones. I had a sudden realization….cognitive behavioral therapy. It’s no secret that I used to have severe social anxiety, and the way you fix a phobia is to do everything you don’t want to do (systematic desensitization). The way it works is actually pretty fascinating, imo, so maybe I’ll talk more about it later. This particular situation that I depicted in the comic is one of the more normal things that would happen in a regular session of therapy. I didn’t want to start out this series with the best stuff first. I hope no one feels like they shouldn’t laugh at me in these comics, because that is their purpose. I am having a horrible time in all of these situations that I will be retelling, but I couldn’t care less about the embarrassment I had to willfully inflict upon myself anymore. That’s how you know the systematic desensitization worked. 

Yep.

This is the Liebowitz Social Anxiety Scale Test.

Level of social anxiety isn’t a competition - but this is a useful tool for getting an idea for yourself, and for others to get a glimmer of what social anxiety disorder means in day to day life.