#suicidal tendencies

It creeps in, 
Skewing my perspective of the world,
The vision is tainted black,
The world dark and hollow. 

My world shrinks,
I can see nothing,
Nothing but the endless expanse of black,
I never see the light only the dark.

Never to see colour again,
My hope has diminished,
In a world so light I have no choice,
The only way is to leave the black.

I face my fate,
I kick the chair away,
Finally the black is gone,
Replaced with an endless expanse of blinding white nothingness. 

Pushed aside like a broken egg,
Although my shell isn’t broken,
My yolk has collapsed,
The part of me people like has fallen apart,
Casting me an outsider,
I no longer fit in to your wants,
My broken insides leave me isolated,
I am unwanted.

Ripped apart like a piece of trash,
Torn up and thrown away,
No one cares,
No one sees the pain,
Crumpled and torn I rest with no one there,
I am unwanted.

Stepped on like a cigarette,
I am used and abused,
I hurt the people who are around me,
They try to get rid of me,
But they never stop using me,
Short term I am good but no one wants me to stay,
I am unwanted.

In the past I believed I had a purpose,
But now I am nothing,
I am a waste of space,
After all,
I am unwanted.

No one sees the pain I am in,
All I ever wanted was to fit in,
But now the unwanted go to rest,
I swallow a handful of pills,
Never to see the light again,
I rest forgotten,
I remain unwanted.