#suicidal tendencies
I want to leave this fucked up world on my own fuck terms. I didn’t have a choice to be born or not in this world so I should at least be able to decide when I want to fucken leave it
-Night
I’m tired of this I’m not fooling nobody I don’t want to keep fighting to stay alive I just keep losing it more each day that passes. I’m tired of pretending everything is okay when it’s not
I’m not okay and honestly don’t know if I will ever be okay I try my best to be but this mental illness doesn’t let me
-Night
Suicidal Tendencies bassist Tim Rawbiz has died - http://musicfeeds.com.au/news/suicidal-tendencies-bassist-tim-rawbiz-williams-has-died/
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depression
I need someone, a person to talk to
Someone who’d care to love
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
The situation gets rough, and I start to panic
It’s not enough, it’s just a habit
And, kid, you’re sick
Well, darling, this is it
Well, you can all just kiss off into the air
Behind my back, I can see them stare
They’ll hurt me bad, but I won’t mind
They’ll hurt me bad, they do it all the time
Yeah, they do it all the time
They do it all the time
They do it all the time
They do it all the time, do it all the time
“I hope you know that this will go down on your permanent record!”
Oh, yeah? Well, don’t get so distressed
Did I happen to mention that I’m impressed?
- I take one, one, one ‘cause you left me
- And two, two, two for my family
- And three, three, three for my heartache
- And four, four, four for my headaches
- And five, five, five for my lonely
- And six, six, six for my sorrow
- And seven, seven for no tomorrow
- And eight, eight, I forget what eight was for
- But nine, nine, nine for the lost gods
- Ten, ten, ten, ten for everything,everything,EVERYTHING
Behind my back, I can see them stare
They’ll hurt me bad, but I won’t mind
They’ll hurt me bad, they do it all the time
Yeah, they do it all the time
They do it all the time
They do it all the time
They do it all the time, do it all the time, do it all the time
Suicidal Tendencies self titled album (1983)
Nobody cares,
My fate is irrelevant to all,
Nobody will miss me when I am gone,
So what is the point?
Nobody likes me,
Everyone wants me gone,
Nobody wants for me to stay,
I see no point.
My mind wins,
I no longer care,
No one wants me,
I see it as a favour to them.
I bleed out,
My body weak,
My heart not beating,
I am gone.
Only now have I realised people care,
People sob over my death,
Begging it to all be a dream,
Only I will never return.
I killed myself in the thought no one cared,
But people did,
The only one who didn’t care was me.
Now I am gone nothing will be the same.
It creeps in,
Skewing my perspective of the world,
The vision is tainted black,
The world dark and hollow.
My world shrinks,
I can see nothing,
Nothing but the endless expanse of black,
I never see the light only the dark.
Never to see colour again,
My hope has diminished,
In a world so light I have no choice,
The only way is to leave the black.
I face my fate,
I kick the chair away,
Finally the black is gone,
Replaced with an endless expanse of blinding white nothingness.
Pushed aside like a broken egg,
Although my shell isn’t broken,
My yolk has collapsed,
The part of me people like has fallen apart,
Casting me an outsider,
I no longer fit in to your wants,
My broken insides leave me isolated,
I am unwanted.
Ripped apart like a piece of trash,
Torn up and thrown away,
No one cares,
No one sees the pain,
Crumpled and torn I rest with no one there,
I am unwanted.
Stepped on like a cigarette,
I am used and abused,
I hurt the people who are around me,
They try to get rid of me,
But they never stop using me,
Short term I am good but no one wants me to stay,
I am unwanted.
In the past I believed I had a purpose,
But now I am nothing,
I am a waste of space,
After all,
I am unwanted.
No one sees the pain I am in,
All I ever wanted was to fit in,
But now the unwanted go to rest,
I swallow a handful of pills,
Never to see the light again,
I rest forgotten,
I remain unwanted.
