“If you could only see that you are such a blessing to me, you are an always of everything that I have ever desired in life.. the embodiment of so much good, ever the optimist. Each moment a reason to smile, each second a reason to hope.. you are my hope, my joy, my everything neat, my very first toy. My last too, I hope.. I never wish to leave your side, and when I leap into death I will scream I can never die as I look into your soul one last time before the blackness envelopes my entire consciousness. I will wait for you on the other side my dear, I will wait on the breeze of a smile as I float through the universe waiting for you..”

Heaven was never a place.. it was when I was with you - eUë

Despairing wait

Of so much waiting I’m loosing faith,

My hopes are vanishing,

Left just with wraiths.

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Of so much wishing it’s turning dark,

Seems like a nightmare,

Lost all our spark.

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Of so much time gone dealing with blame,

And who would have said,

I’m longing to hear you calling my name.

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If you do, don’t bother to eavesdrop,

I won’t hide the sound of

How my heart, will stop.

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- S.T.S.

waiting

just out of shower