Writer problems

When you have rewritten a sentence ten times and your whole existence no longer makes sense.

Me:*has alot stuff to do for school/work*

Also me:*gets the urge and motivation to write the best story/fanfic of my life*

Me: *has alot stuff to do*

My brain: *gets the best idea for a story/fanfic*

Someone who I have never seen in my life: “omg you write? ! Can you make me a character in your story. ”

Me:“sure you gonna be the annoying guy who gets killed in the end.”

My life choices be like:

Me: *gets the motivation and inspiration I need to write*

My last two brain cells: *forgets how to construct a proper sentence*

Man, I really want to write a James Aubrey (Bones) fic, cause that man is THE cinnamon roll and deserves all the happiness. But, I am almost convinced no one will read it and (as much as I like to say I write for myself) I need constant validation.