#writing about you
“I’ll always secretly wish that the honor of being my first love went to someone more noble, honest, and deserving. I would never want to relive the 6 years of my life with you, especially if it would’ve ended in the same pain and destruction. But even though my heart sometimes fills itself with regret at allowing myself to become so misguided by my blinding love for you, I understand it was all necessary. It was necessary to surrender myself to the suffering you caused me to grasp the importance of knowing my own worth. To understand that I must put myself before anybody else. For the rest of my life the scars you left on my heart will shake when I think of my first love. But they will guide me in making decisions that will fulfill me. I have taken a lot of lessons away from loving you, like following my intuition and respecting myself enough to remove myself from toxic situations. And understanding that the way you treated me is the stark opposite of what I deserve. Most of all, loving you taught me that you cannot have bliss without suffering, simply because you do not know what true happiness is without feeling the deepest sadness.”
— s.c. { i will be happier than i’ve ever been and i owe it all to the way you destroyed me }
There is only one
One first.
I’ll be writing about you for the rest of my life.
“If a woman loves you, she’ll love you with all of her heart. She’ll give you every drop of love inside her, even when she stops getting it back. She’ll wait for you to realize that, and she’ll endure all the pain without complaining. But, there’s a limit to all that, because when she’s done, she’ll empty herself of all the love there is in your name, and she’ll forgive you. She’ll forgive you because even when she’s in pain there is still so much love left inside of her for herself.”
I miss curling up beside you as we settle into the night. The days always felt better, safer, knowing it ended by your side.
Independent women are so under valued.
She really doesn’t need you.
She just wants you and wants to build with you
but don’t forget she’s going to do her thing
with or without you.
I never stopped writing about you. I don’t think I ever will.
