#anorexia thoughts

if ANYONE and I really mean ANYONE needs a support person or a friend to rant to or some advice, PLEASE REACH OUT TO ME. I am here to support all of you. I know it seems a bit odd coming from an ED account but I really truly want you all to stay safe. Also you don’t have to want to talk about eating disorders. I know a fair amount about other illnesses as well. I have anxiety, depression, BPD, PTSD, ADHD, anorexia b/p subtype (duh), along with some physical ones like GERD, tendonitis, and alopecia. I also struggle with self harm and serious suicidal thoughts / actions, problems with my parents (although I am in a great place with my parents, i know what it’s like to hate them)

I REALLY WANT TO BE HERE FOR ANYONE THAT NEEDS SOMEONE!

I know there are times when you just need a friend and I want to be that person. I want to be a safe person for everybody. I know its scary to reach out sometimes but I am a very friendly and accepting person. 

I WANT TO BE HERE FOR YOU AND HELP YOU!!!

I WILL ALSO NEVER ENCOURAGE EATING DISORDERED BEHAVIORS SUCH AS PURGING, RESTRICTING / FASTING, AND I WON’T EVER MENTION WEIGHT OR WEIGHT LOSS. I JUST WANT TO BE A SUPPORTIVE AND HELPFUL PERSON!

PLEASE STAY SAFE AND I AM ALWAYS HERE TO TALK. 

I also usually have tumblr as one of the tabs on my computer and I have it on my phone as well so I will most likely be able to respond pretty fast.

IF I DON’T RESPOND BUT IT SAYS I’M ACTIVE IT USUALLY MEANS I FELL ASLEEP WITH MY COMPUTER OPEN! I AM NOT IGNORING YOU!

FIRST OF ALL! Thank you to everyone that re-blogged my post about the serious consequences of bulimia. I am really happy that I can do my part to raise awareness and I’m so happy you all pitched in and exponentially spread it throughout the community. You all are amazing!

Now for the serious stuff…

I have been puking and having white foamy acid reflux every thirty seconds or so and constantly feel like I’m choking (which I got a comment saying that someone else had this and it made me feel not alone). I talked a little about this before in my other post. (please go look, its really important to repost to raise awareness for bulimia). I will most likely be having another endoscopy (camera down my throat) to assess what is going on in my esophagus, esophageal sphincter, stomach, and lower intestine. These procedures are not comfortable. They are not the romanticized part of eating disorders. They are not cute, fun, trendy, and cool. These are expensive consequences to my poor actions. Please stay safe and help raise awareness. 

Again, I am adding pro mia and other bulimia related tags to hopefully catch the eye of someone struggling and raise awareness of the chronic side effects. 

If you EVER need ANY SUPPORT, please DM ME! I will talk to you or give you advice or just be someone that listens to whatever you want to rant about. I understand this disease and it’s consequences and I want to help others before it’s too late.

I strictly consume veggie bouillon at least twice a day. I mean, 17 calories and its liquid so it fills you up?? I think the fuck yes!

PLEASE READ AND REPOST IF YOU CARE ABOUT ANYONE STRUGGLING WITH BULIMIA! EVEN IF YOU DON’T KNOW ANYONE STRUGGLING (which would be odd because this is the eating disorder side of tumblr) REPOST TO RAISE AWARENESS!!

Does anyone else have to shake the carbonation out of their drinks because having a history of bulimia wrecked their esophageal sphincter so much that they can’t keep carbonated drinks down… they just bubble their way up.

Also I was born with chronic GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease) which makes it even harder to keep food down.

No, just me?

Shit.

On a serious side note, bulimia can seriously fuck up your teeth, your stomach, your esophageal sphincter, and your esophagus just to name a few. Please don’t purge. I can’t lay down on my stomach or side or back without a couple pillows because I will vomit. It makes sleeping super hard. The thing is, these consequences of my bulimia will never go away. I will have these side effects for the rest of my life. I know this post probably won’t stop anything but having cameras shoved down your throat to biopsy your esophagus and stomach really isn’t fun or cute or trendy. It really hurts. If you encourage bulimia or purging when you get past your “calorie limit”, please keep the fuck away from me.

Side note: this post has the tags of “pro mia”, “mia tips”, and “mia tricks” and so on to hopefully catch the eye of someone struggling with bulimia so they might possibly realize the permanent side effects. Again, I don’t know if this post will help but I really hope it does.

Ok so I lost 8 lbs in 5 days… BEST DIET EVER OMFG

Only 18+ people here

If you encourage laxative abuse or purging, get the fuck away from me and all my friends

I’m here if you ever want to talk <3

I will not give you diet tricks or tips. I am trying to recover. I will, though, post about dumb shit my eating disorder brain convinces me

If you don’t think anybody loves you or has your back, I’ll be here. I want to be supportive and kind because I want to be what I never had <3

I missed you guys and I have nothing else to lose at this point so I guess ill be more active now!