if ANYONE and I really mean ANYONE needs a support person or a friend to rant to or some advice, PLEASE REACH OUT TO ME. I am here to support all of you. I know it seems a bit odd coming from an ED account but I really truly want you all to stay safe. Also you don’t have to want to talk about eating disorders. I know a fair amount about other illnesses as well. I have anxiety, depression, BPD, PTSD, ADHD, anorexia b/p subtype (duh), along with some physical ones like GERD, tendonitis, and alopecia. I also struggle with self harm and serious suicidal thoughts / actions, problems with my parents (although I am in a great place with my parents, i know what it’s like to hate them)

I REALLY WANT TO BE HERE FOR ANYONE THAT NEEDS SOMEONE!

I know there are times when you just need a friend and I want to be that person. I want to be a safe person for everybody. I know its scary to reach out sometimes but I am a very friendly and accepting person. 

I WANT TO BE HERE FOR YOU AND HELP YOU!!!

I WILL ALSO NEVER ENCOURAGE EATING DISORDERED BEHAVIORS SUCH AS PURGING, RESTRICTING / FASTING, AND I WON’T EVER MENTION WEIGHT OR WEIGHT LOSS. I JUST WANT TO BE A SUPPORTIVE AND HELPFUL PERSON!

PLEASE STAY SAFE AND I AM ALWAYS HERE TO TALK. 

I also usually have tumblr as one of the tabs on my computer and I have it on my phone as well so I will most likely be able to respond pretty fast.

IF I DON’T RESPOND BUT IT SAYS I’M ACTIVE IT USUALLY MEANS I FELL ASLEEP WITH MY COMPUTER OPEN! I AM NOT IGNORING YOU!

FIRST OF ALL! Thank you to everyone that re-blogged my post about the serious consequences of bulimia. I am really happy that I can do my part to raise awareness and I’m so happy you all pitched in and exponentially spread it throughout the community. You all are amazing!

Now for the serious stuff…

I have been puking and having white foamy acid reflux every thirty seconds or so and constantly feel like I’m choking (which I got a comment saying that someone else had this and it made me feel not alone). I talked a little about this before in my other post. (please go look, its really important to repost to raise awareness for bulimia). I will most likely be having another endoscopy (camera down my throat) to assess what is going on in my esophagus, esophageal sphincter, stomach, and lower intestine. These procedures are not comfortable. They are not the romanticized part of eating disorders. They are not cute, fun, trendy, and cool. These are expensive consequences to my poor actions. Please stay safe and help raise awareness. 

Again, I am adding pro mia and other bulimia related tags to hopefully catch the eye of someone struggling and raise awareness of the chronic side effects. 

If you EVER need ANY SUPPORT, please DM ME! I will talk to you or give you advice or just be someone that listens to whatever you want to rant about. I understand this disease and it’s consequences and I want to help others before it’s too late.

I strictly consume veggie bouillon at least twice a day. I mean, 17 calories and its liquid so it fills you up?? I think the fuck yes!

All I’ve consumed today is 3 coke zeros and I don’t know whether to be happy or concerned…

PLEASE READ AND REPOST IF YOU CARE ABOUT ANYONE STRUGGLING WITH BULIMIA! EVEN IF YOU DON’T KNOW ANYONE STRUGGLING (which would be odd because this is the eating disorder side of tumblr) REPOST TO RAISE AWARENESS!!

Does anyone else have to shake the carbonation out of their drinks because having a history of bulimia wrecked their esophageal sphincter so much that they can’t keep carbonated drinks down… they just bubble their way up.

Also I was born with chronic GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease) which makes it even harder to keep food down.

No, just me?

Shit.

On a serious side note, bulimia can seriously fuck up your teeth, your stomach, your esophageal sphincter, and your esophagus just to name a few. Please don’t purge. I can’t lay down on my stomach or side or back without a couple pillows because I will vomit. It makes sleeping super hard. The thing is, these consequences of my bulimia will never go away. I will have these side effects for the rest of my life. I know this post probably won’t stop anything but having cameras shoved down your throat to biopsy your esophagus and stomach really isn’t fun or cute or trendy. It really hurts. If you encourage bulimia or purging when you get past your “calorie limit”, please keep the fuck away from me.

Side note: this post has the tags of “pro mia”, “mia tips”, and “mia tricks” and so on to hopefully catch the eye of someone struggling with bulimia so they might possibly realize the permanent side effects. Again, I don’t know if this post will help but I really hope it does.

Fun fact about me…

I’m allergic to coffee.

Update

I had to break my fast because i had a syncope episode and one of the staff watched me convulse. I ate something and now I feel better. Stay safe when you fast!

Help

So i just got an iphone after having an android for a bit and my android would track how many calories you burned based off the amount of steps you take… does anyone know how to do it on an iphone?

sadskin-not:

I’m so happy. So this morning when I woke up my collarbones were more prominent than usual, and I had less back fat. Stepped on the scale just now, 135.00. I’ve hit my GW2 and my pre-quarantine weight. I’ve officially lost the 22 pounds I gained!

yeah basically

hey peoplee, i guess i’m back… in case you were wondering what happened to me, basically I ended up in the hospital and obviously my and my parents got scared so I decided to stop this and actually take my medicine. But me being me, i decided to try again (prob no as extreme as last time) because I gained a shit ton of weight (at least in my opinion) and I’m about to smack my head against the wall :) so yeah… i’ll try to do my food diary’s again ✌

aaa i miss the time when i could eat in public without feeling like i’m being judged

Updating this cause i ended up eating half of my dinner so i stayed on the 300s (ง'̀-‘́)ง

- //

Breakfast(0kcal):

• green tea (0kcal)

Lunch(194kcal):

• fish, spinach and cheese patty (170kcal?)
• tomato (24kcal)

Snack(127kcal):

• vanilla yogurt (190gr / 87kcal)
• granola (1 tablespoon / 40kcal)
• 2 pieces of gum (10kcal)

Dinner(15kcal):

• lettuce (16gr / 3kcal)
• kale (17gr / 12kcal)

Water intake: i have no idea

Exercise:

Total: ☕️ 356kcal ☕️

it just hit me that we’re close to easter shit too many temptations

I want to be that friend who gets offered to sit on someone else’s lap :/

- //

Breakfast(0kcal):

• green tea (0kcal)

Lunch(105kcal):

• egg white omelette (90gr / 46kcal)
• ham (33gr / 34kcal)
• ricotta cheese (17gr / 26kcal)

Snack(20kcal):

• coke zero (0kcal)
• green tea (0kcal)
• rice cake (20kcal)

Dinner(268kcal):

• vegetarian sushi (1 roll / 268kcal?)

Water intake:1L

Exercise:

Total:393kcal

I hope i stay on the 300’s

i’m being (lowkey?) forced into recovery and i’m this close to k wording myself, istg i want to cry so bad

after my appointment with the psychiatrist i saw a really skinny girl in the waiting room and got triggered like-‍♀️ please give me a break

30 day thinspo challenge day 17: “Do you have an eating disorder?”

not oficially diagnosed but today i’m have an appointment with a psychiatrist to determinate that (❍ᴥ❍ʋ) my psychologist says i do have one but my parents don’t think so…

Food diary - 01/03/21

Breakfast(21kcal):

• green grapes (6 / 21kcal)
• green tea (0kcal)

Lunch(203kcal):

• steak milanesa (92gr / 185kcal)
• lettuce (11gr / 6kcal)
• kale (18gr / 12kcal)

Snack(0kcal)

• skipped

Dinner(63kcal):

• roasted eggplant (185gr / 46kcal)
• cabbage (105gr / 17kcal)

Water intake:1L

Exercise:

Total:287

starting this cause why not :)

♡︎♥︎♡︎♥︎♡︎♥︎♡︎

Tracker cr: i don’t know who made it i got it from twitter (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃

ireally need to fix my habit of weighting myself everyday, otherwise i’ll go crazy.

30 day thinspo challenge day 16: “When did you first decide to lose weight?”

hmm i’ve always been overweight so i guess the idea of starting a diet first came to me around 5-6 years ago and it wasn’t even completely my choice but mostly my parent’s :/

- 28/02/21

Breakfast(0kcal):

• green tea (0kcal)

Lunch(131kcal):

• baked sweet potato (120gr / 119kcal)
• cabbage (79gr / 13kcal)

Snack(149kcal):

• brownies (4 pieces / 149kcal)

Dinner(86kcal):

• Corn and squash patty (66kcal)
• Tomato (91gr / 20kcal)

Water intake: i don’t know (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃

Exercise:only a 25min walk (-101kcal)

Total:367kcal

Low-caloriebrownies (37kcal per slice)

~ 9 pieces / 37kcals each, not vegan fiendly ~

ok so i got this from a youtube video and even tho they’re called ‘brownies’ the texture is more of a sponge cake, but they’re pretty good to be that low in calories here’s the ingredients and the procedure:

Ingredients:

• 4 small eggs (all 4 should be 174gr aprox) / 277kcal
• 1 tablespoon of brown sugar / 9kcal
• 2 teaspoons of normal sugar / 40kcal
• 1 tablespoon of stevia or any 0kcal sweetener
• 1 tablespoon of vanilla essence / 10kcal
• 3 tablespoons of sugar-free cocoa powder / 4kcal

Steps:

preheat your oven to 160'C (320’ F)

separate the egg yolks from the egg whites

add the brown sugar, the cocoa powder, the vanilla essence and the stevia or your preferred sweetener to the yolks and mix it

once you’ve done that whisk your egg whites, once they are foamy add the normal sugar in 2 parts and keep mixing until they look pretty firm

add 1/3 of the egg whites to the other mixture and stir (because it helps to encorporate better)

after that, add the rest of the egg whites and mix until the mixture seems even

transfer to a pan (preferably small and please spray cooking oil, mine was 0kcal), put it in the oven and cook for 30mins

that’s it! ♡´･ᴗ･`♡

sorry im shitty at explaining so i’ll link the video just in case <3

and i know that there it says ‘28kcal’ but i did the math and it said 37kcal so ‍♀️

you can also add 3 tablespoons of flour if you don’t like the foamy texture but each piece would be 55kcal i think :)

kakashisgfriend:

yoo i just found a low-cal brownie recipe and it’s 37kcal per slice (if you cut it into 9) i just put the mixture in the oven let’s see how it turns out i’ll reblog this in a few mins

ok but like they’re pretty good ngl i mean, it obviously doesn’t compare to an actual brownie but well it’s actually really good (at least in my opinion) for something that’s 37kcal per slice. It’s good to make it when you crave something chocolaty (?) but it has kind of a egg-like texture (sorry not vegan friendly ) so it seems more like a sponge cake if you guys want to i can share the recipe ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

yoo i just found a low-cal brownie recipe and it’s 37kcal per slice (if you cut it into 9) i just put the mixture in the oven let’s see how it turns out i’ll reblog this in a few mins