BPD POST #21

The scary uncontrollable rage that can ruin your life within seconds and then you’re forced to pick up the pieces afterwards.

BPD POST #19

When you took all the precautions to make sure a FP would never leave, but they do.

BPD POST #18

you want to have a close friend, a #fp, but then you instantly push them away because you’re scared they’ll hurt and/or leave you.

BPD POST #17

emotional instability.

BPD POST #17

Wishing you could leave your body because you hate yourself so much.

BPD POST #16

Depriving yourself of sleep, food, showering, and all the necessities a human needs because you’re punishing yourself. Why? Because you feel like you don’t deserve any of it because you’re a shitty human being

BPD POST #15

Borderline personality disorder? More like big penis disorder. No wonder we all suffer so much, all the blood flow goes from our head to our ginormous penis

BPD POST #26

Overspending, overeating, over doing whatever it is to fill the void inside, knowing that it’ll slip through and you’ll feel emptier than you did in the beginning.

BPD POST #25

Not knowing who the fuck you are on the inside, only people’s projections of you and walking through life empty and confused.

BPD POST #25

Developing a deep, extreme hatred for your #fp after them disappointing you which leads to disoriented feelings and dissociation

BPD POST #24

Splitting on everyone within seconds and feeling intense hatred for them.

Dissociation

the alarm sends shockwaves through your body. you shake

you groan and lie there

staring at the ceiling, focusing in at the knick on the wall

slowly, you fade into a fuzzy abyss of nothingness

no thoughts

head empty

15 minutes have passed

are those butterflies? or are those flies?

you float past the mirror and you stop

you’re lost but the water is still running and you watch the water gush out onto the hands in front of you

are those your hands? are they yours?

do you even have hands?

are you YOU?

what even is YOU?

you look back in the mirror, unsure of what to do with the being staring back at you

what is that? Who even is that?

you float back to wherever it is

to start your day

throughout the day, people react to the figure you see in front of the mirror and you have no choice but to act as if you and the figure are one.

at the end of the day

you float to your room

shut the door gently

and start all over again

BPD POST #23

Wanting someone to suffer for hurting you so they can feel the pain they put you through, only ten times worse.

BPD POST #22

Dissociating in the middle of a social gathering and trying your best to bring yourself back to the surface