#ed eating disoder

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April Stats

Before weight: 158,4 lbs

After weight: 145,6 lbs

Weight lost: 12,8 pounds

Goal Weight for May: 130 pounds

My therapist asked me if I lost weight, on one side i am happy because my erfforts are paying off but otherwise I am worried she’s gonna get suspicious of me

Biggest weight loss motivation is the fact that I have swimming for PE next year and I will end it all if anyone from school is going to see me in a bathing suit before I loose like 20 pounds 

Height: 1,69 m / ~5'7"

SW / HW: 158 lbs / 71,6 kg

CW : 139 lbs / 63,0 kg

LW: 116 lbs / 52,6 kg

GW 1: 140 lbs / 63,5 lbs

GW 2: 130 lbs / 58,9 kg

GW 3: 116 lbs / 52,6 kg

UGW 110 lbs / 49,9 kg

I have been maintaining for like 4 days and if I dont see that number going down tomorrow I am going to fucking lose it

Just tried on a skirt I bought two months ago and it fits SO much better, words cannot describe how happy I am right now

The anxiety that you might have gained weight before you weigh yourself again is SO bad

I put on jeans I bought last year and they were literally just falling off of me. I’m happy obv, but also upset because I liked those jeans >:((

May Stats

Before weight: 145,6 lbs

After weight: 139 lbs

Weight lost: 6.6 lbs

Goal weight for June: 129 lbs

Notes: I don’t really know what happened this month, I just plateaud for two weeks but hey, slow weightloss is better than no weightloss

I hate how skinny my equally as eating disordered friend is. So jealous

Maybe he’ll finally pay attention to me when I look like I am dying

The first reaction to every minor inconvenience in my life is to starve myself

I havent eaten in four days and I never felt so close to passing out and so powerful at the same time

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