Ugh I love the feeling when my stomach burns and hurts after not eating for a few days <333

Old body check

April Stats

Before weight: 158,4 lbs

After weight: 145,6 lbs

Weight lost: 12,8 pounds

Goal Weight for May: 130 pounds

My therapist asked me if I lost weight, on one side i am happy because my erfforts are paying off but otherwise I am worried she’s gonna get suspicious of me

Biggest weight loss motivation is the fact that I have swimming for PE next year and I will end it all if anyone from school is going to see me in a bathing suit before I loose like 20 pounds 

Just bought a new bikini :)

Height: 1,69 m / ~5'7"

SW / HW: 158 lbs / 71,6 kg

CW : 139 lbs / 63,0 kg

LW: 116 lbs / 52,6 kg

GW 1: 140 lbs / 63,5 lbs

GW 2: 130 lbs / 58,9 kg

GW 3: 116 lbs / 52,6 kg

UGW 110 lbs / 49,9 kg

I have been maintaining for like 4 days and if I dont see that number going down tomorrow I am going to fucking lose it

Just tried on a skirt I bought two months ago and it fits SO much better, words cannot describe how happy I am right now

The anxiety that you might have gained weight before you weigh yourself again is SO bad

Deleting all ana related stuff like bodychecks and tumblr posts to recover, then relapsing and wishing you had all the stuff back <<<<<<

I put on jeans I bought last year and they were literally just falling off of me. I’m happy obv, but also upset because I liked those jeans >:((

I HIT MY FIRST GOAL WEIGHT

Maybe he’ll finally pay attention to me when I look like I am dying

The first reaction to every minor inconvenience in my life is to starve myself

Jeans I bought at my lowest weight fit again :)))))

Another fast complete

I havent eaten in four days and I never felt so close to passing out and so powerful at the same time

I like my legs in this pic

Recently have been talking with a friend about our eating disorders and now I just feel super guilty everytime I eat because I feel like need to do better than him and restrict more :/

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was anyone else so bad at restricting during winter but now that its getting warmer ur doing better