#ana fast

I need meanspø please!

I’m getting crazy.

I restarted purging a month ago and I’m slowly losing control.

I need to lose those 4 kg to be skinny again.

I miss people telling me I’m soo skinny

I miss felling good with my body

I miss the power I felt starving myself

I miss feeling confident and beautiful

The worst part it’s I’m only 4 kg away from all of this, from the old better me, but I can’t, maybe I don’t put enough effort into making it.

I really wanted eating in an healthy way, but I feel like I haven’t the ability to eat like a normal person. I’ve been struggling with food and my body since I was 12. I’m tired of this struggle, but I need to lose those 4 kg.

I know it won’t stop if I don’t work on it in therapy, but it’s so difficult to let it go, it’s like it’s a part of me, a super important part, I know it’s a lie. I know how much simpler my life would be if I put an effort into recover, but for now I don’t think I will

I’d really like to recover, but I’m scared af. I don’t want to waste all the effort to reach my “almost perfect weight”

Sup bitches, I’m back to give y’all a reminder that most of the people who are like “oh I only eat 500cal a day and never binge uwu” are lying. :)

If I see ONE MORE OF YOU posting pictures of fresh sh c*ts without a TW or CW I’m going to LOSE MY SHIT.

Especially if you’re posting it under ED tags, like, dude, what the actual fuck?

ALSO IM JUST GONNA SAY IT.

Slapping a tw UNDER A PICTURE IS NOT ENOUGH!

USING A TW FOR A PICTURE BUT THEN NOT ADDING THE “read more” OPTION IS NOT ENOUGH.

Seriously, I’m so tired of seeing stuff like this. You can’t choose to just not see a picture if it’s something you’re scrolling past. I love you guys but fuck you if you do this.

Water fasting: Day 8

Today’s thought: I can’t sleep because I’m so anxious at the moment for tomorrow’s family lunch out and i dunno what to do.

And yes, even though my mum bought me some sugar-free wheat bread I would still prefer “Plain *Ice cold* black coffee (Sugar-free)” because I trust what I see than what is labeled from the grocery. Yea I don’t trust food just like guys.

Mum gave me this… I don’t feel safe eating bread again this is not one of my *safe* food…

My breakfast for today…..

I woke up earlier than expected today, mum woke me for breakfast because she’s leaving again for tomorrow and we’ll not be seeing her again for the next three weeks. She requested to have breakfast with us, since I don’t really eat and I’m on my third day of Water fasting I only want plain black coffee.

Now I feel a little frustrated because we will be out for lunch later at my grandparent’s place and everybody is there, now I don’t know what to do it’s making me anxious about stuff.

This is a shirt when I was still at the larger size.. Now it is hanging and doesn’t embrace my body anymore the hang gave me a glance at my old self, it looks huge on me.. But a little bit of cringe because I still blame myself on indulging on food before made me realize how fat I was before.. Now I’m far from my starting weight.

Saw this on my screenshot.. God! This is how worst I am, even nuggets terrifies me a lot.. I was a the point on purging after that.. But end up jogging for 2 hours.

Just got home after I was admitted to a unit…

Damn.. I gained 5kg.

I had a pretty bad binge week but I can feel the restricting cycle starting back up again.

I work at a gas station please tell me why I’m having do read about eating disorder for training… I feel targeted..

I work at a gas station please tell me why I’m having do read about eating disorder for training… I feel targeted..

Please tell me how fat I am so I can use this as motivation..

DearAnaGoddess,

Please oh please give me collar bones..

~Amen~

Stay safe

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!!!!ED TUMBLR!!!

⚠️⚠️WE HAVE A CREEP ALERT!!!⚠️⚠️

Block and report them immediately!!

We do not need this we already have enough problems as it is.

PLEASE HEART AND REPOST TO SPREAD AWARENESS

Stay safe♡♡

The urge to get down to 160lbs is killing me even if it isn’t as low as I want to be. It is my next goal and I’m so close. I NEED to lose this weight.