#goddess of war
I need to remind myself…I got myself through EVERYTHING. Alone. I don’t have the support network that most others have. I don’t have a mother I can talk to. I don’t have best friends I can lean on. I don’t even have a group chat going.
When I broke up with my ex, the first thing my mother said was “Oh thank god, that means you’re not going to Japan anymore so now I don’t need to renew my passport in case I have to come and get you.” Not even an “Oh, I’m so sorry to hear that, are you ok?” Of course its never “Are you ok?” The reason is because I’ve learned to pretend I’m always ok, because I’m strong enough to hide the pain and push through it.
I have to be strong. Because when I see people at my gym get injured, everyone rushes to make sure they’re fine, they take them to the hospital, take them home… when I dislocated my shoulder, nobody gave a shit. Nobody stopped to help me. I had to take the bus home alone. And only after I said something, my best friend at the time was like “OMG why didn’t you tell me you wanted someone to take you home?!” Um????? Seriously?? Am I the only one who thinks that’s fucked up?
When I tore a ligament in my ankle, I couldn’t even WALK off the fucking mats and only ONE person offered to "call a cab” for me. Um, that’s okay, I can’t walk but I can still order myself an Uber. I had to walk MYSELF up the stairs. I called my best fucking friend at the time to tell her what happened and if she could come pick me up, and she said she was busy. I HAVE to be strong to handle constant rejection from those I care about the most.
Jesus fucking Christ, I am one STRONG woman. I am needy as fuck, crave attention all the fucking time, but I AM SO FUCKING STRONG. I need to remind myself of that. I am a Goddess of War, and I will fight until the end.
Zeus: This week was really rough.
Hera: Oh, no, I’m sorry.
Zeus: How can I feel better?
Hera: Just enjoy the little things.
Baby Ares: [to baby Athena] what does that mean?
Baby Athena: It’s us dum dum
Baby Ares:…
Baby Athena: We are the little things *smiles*