yeah i’d try to crawl into your grave right after you. absolutely. lie in the dirt together. nice and cool down there. we can both come back up when we’re ready and the sun won’t hurt our eyes i promise. and our fingernails would stay nice and clean.
I am 18 years old. I live with both my parents because they are still married and are in love with each other. I have one blood sister, 2 sisters, and 3 brothers. My life is perfect.. On the outside.
I once fell in love. It was a feeling like no other. I would watch him from a distance and be his friend when he needed one. We weren’t close but we would talk. He came over my house and we would hang out. I would listen to his stories, the passion in his voice was inspiring, the glow in his eyes shined brighter than the sun, and the way he talks with his hands made the stories more interesting then they already were.
Little did I know, he was falling in love with me.
Our conversations got deeper and we would be around each other more than often. We became each others life.
One day, my feelings for him could not be held in anymore, so I told him I was falling for him. He told me the same. From that day on, we were each others, only.
I still remember the first time we held hands, my heart was racing so fast! I was hoping he wouldn’t notice that my hands were starting to sweat. I still remember our first kiss, he pulled away because he was scared that he wasn’t good, but he was amazing. I remember the first time I said I love you. I was scared because I wasn’t sure if he loved me back. I was shocked when he grabbed my waist pulled me in closer, kissed my lips and said I love you too.
Everything was great. I grew accustomed to the way we were together. I noticed the little things about him. The way his throat tenses when he’s eating. The way his eyes would change color in the sun and in the moon light. The way his voice cracked when he tried lying. I completely fell in love with my best friend, and I didn’t care at all.
Some people saw how happy I was with him. They would tell me that they want a relationship like mine and his. We were the “it” couple.
Others envied our relationship. They were the ones who tried to separate our love because they didn’t have it themselves. Many tried and many failed. Except 2.
A guy I barely knew, barely wanted to know had taken a toll into my life. He would put things into my head that made me question my love. I let it get to me.
A girl he called a sister, wanted more than just a friendship, and did everything she could to make that clear. She would put things into his head that made him question his love.
One night, just as fast as lightning, our love was done. He did not want to fight for me anymore and I did not want to let him go.
I was left fighting alone
He is now with that girl and I am here wondering if he actually meant it when he said he loved me. He acted like it, he would say it, but did he really?
When you love someone, you don’t move on that fast…right?
I didn’t let what this guy who I barely knew get to me completely, I just let him into my life a little. He let this girl consume him.
I lay in my bed, wondering, was it me? Was it him? Was it just because it wasn’t meant to be? Why do I still love him, we haven’t been together in a while.He’s a different person now. Get over him. I can’t. Why not? Because the love I had for him was real.
She may make him happy, but she will NEVER understand him the way I did. She will NEVER see the little things about him and appreciate him the way I did. She will NEVER love him more than I do, and that is a fact.
I miss him, everyday. I have lost him
I keep saying, he moved on, he never loved you, he isn’t yours anymore. But I can’t believe any of those things.
If you are in love with someone, let it be known. Tell them everyday. Don’t get distracted. Stay focused. If they are worth the fight, then fight. If you feel like there slipping away, try to catch them, don’t let them go unless they want you too. Love is powerful and as easy as it comes, it can be gone.
