#i wish things were different

i-had-strings-but-now-im-free:

my christmas wish is to die.

nothing has changed, merry christmas and happy holidays. my wish is still to die.

It’s really hard to hold back tears as I’m writing this, but I’m gonna be taking a good break from tumblr. I fucked up. I don’t know if things will ever be the same (they probably won’t and it’s my fault in that) but I can’t be on tumblr when every post I see reminds me of you. My messages and asks will remain open but idk when or if I’ll be back. I’m just hurting right now and being here will only add to it. Be well you guys and stay safe

I don’t want to stop loving you

Because you give me hope

Like the light at the end of a tunnel

As long as I still see you

As long as I believe you’re there

I will fight to live another day

I love how she said she cares about him more than me

I guess he was there when her other friends dropped her

I guess he was the one to drive her everywhere because she can’t

I guess he was the one who was there

I guess I wasn’t good enough

I guess I have more issues than him

I guess I shouldn’t be upset that almost everyone who has dated me, only wanted her

I guess I am not important to the most important person in the world to me

I know I won’t tell her how she hurt me with those words

I know I won’t say anything to her because I don’t want to be alone

I know I won’t scream how much I hate their relationship because I’ve never been in a healthy one.

I know I should be happy, but really I’m not

“I don’t know how to write about how it feels

to see you look at her

like I look at you.”