#this is my fault
APPARENTLY I CANT HAVE NICE THINGS BECAUSE I JUST LOST THE SAME PERSON’S REQUEST FOR THE FANFIC I LOST MY PROGRESS ON
I MUST’VE ACCIDENTALLY DELETED IT,,, IM SO SORRY TO WHOEVER REQUESTED A GUNTHER X CAPTAIN FIC,,
Literally nothing but pain
“If he doesn’t text you
and you’re ruined.
If you can’t find joy
in what you used to,
If you can’t think
of anything other
than his absence
You Are In Big Trouble, My Love.”
“And just like that
You chose someone else over me.
Dismissed me
Like I’m nothing.”
- I wasn’t prepared for how much it would hurt.
“And I wish and I wish and I wish
I mattered to you.”
- I love you more
“And you hurt me
so casually.
Like it’s nothing.
Like it’s so inconsequential to you
that you don’t even notice.”
- And I let you
The worst thing about getting everything you ever wanted
is losing it.
-10.03.20
“I cannot keep doing
the exact same thing
Over and Over and Over
again
and expect a different outcome.”
- Fairly sure that’s the definition of stupidity
10.10.19
“I am so tired of crying over you.”
- 03.10.19
“And now I am grieving for the loss of you,
I wonder if my mother grieved for my father in the same way.
Quietly and alone,
so the sorrow remains unknown.”
- no one can know the pain of losing a love that was always in the dark.
14.09.19
“I am always, always
second best.”
- So tired.
“All I think about is you
And all you think about
is you.”
“I must remind myself,
over and over again,
not to fight
and beg
for your attention.”
“You don’t notice when you hurt me,
because how could you know
that anything other
than your complete
and undivided attention
causes me pain.”
- my fault, not yours.
“And although I love you
So deeply and so desperately
And although I cannot stop myself
from clinging to the thought of you loving me too,
a part of me wants to run
wants to hold my middle finger up
and curse the day you were born
And leave you
Far behind.”
“I can be there for you
when you are sad and alone and desperate.
I can hold your hand and hold you together
through your darkest times.
I can come to you when no one else would
and care for you like no one else could.
But I cannot make you love me.”
“You call and I will come to you
Over And Over Again.
Even when my brain is screaming at me to stay put,
my feet will walk to where you are.”
“I don’t know how to write about how it feels
to see you look at her
like I look at you.”
“You will choose her
again and again,
and I will keep on choosing you.”
“I can’t begin to heal,
not yet,
because I am still breaking.”
“My curse is to love only those who cannot or will not love me in return.”
