#im sad and alone

Will I be a bad person if I cut off communication with my family and start a new life?

How come I didn’t notice myself getting worse just because i wouldn’t starve myself purposely did not mean I wasn’t so pleased with myself at the end of the day when i didn’t have a meal and my stomach was growling.

Fucking kill me already I’m so tired I don’t want to be here

I know sounds selfish or conceited to say but I wish I had more people care about me

Sometimes I think that my life doesn’t really matter life will just keep on going and I’ll mean nothing to life

I’m so tired I don’t ever wanna wake up.please just let me rest

I honestly thought I would be dead by know and I have no idea where I’m going

I want to whither away and die in peace

No matter how many time people tell me I can reach out for help I willnever feel safe talking to someone without feeling like I’m trauma dumping

Me hoping I’m on my period anytime I feel a little too suicidal

I know I got better but I can’t help to feel worse

I will never feel clean no mater how much I shower

I feel like I wasn’t meant to be here. Like I’m just something useless walking around

The food I used to find so appeasing and would make my mouth water now is the same food that makes me gag and make me hate myself