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(With descriptions from the Play Store)

• STOPP *
  Use this app  if you want to start to stop the vicious cycles of depression and anxiety, and other negative and repetitive behaviours. 
  
• eQuoo
  A choose-your-own-adventure game that increases your emotional fitness and teaches you new psychological skills, helping you level up in real life.
• Calm Harm
  Calm Harm provides tasks to help you resist or manage the urge to self-harm. Get started by setting your password so that it’s completely private.
  You can personalise it if you wish, by choosing the background colour theme and deciding on whether you would like some company using a variety of friendly characters.
  
• Alarmy - the world’s most annoying alarm *
  With Alarmy you can wake up to five different missions. Different snooze options help you wake up slowly and gradually. No more oversleep, wake up easily, and be refreshed with various alarm ringtones and stylish clocks. Made by heavy sleepers for heavy sleepers.
  
• Habitica *
  Treat your life like a game to stay motivated and organized! Habitica makes it simple to have fun while accomplishing goals. An RPG style app that helps you get into good habits, break bad ones and accomplish tasks to gain XP.
  
• Stay Focused - App Block & Website Block
  A Self Control, Productivity and App Usage tracker app.
• Smiling Mind
  Smiling Mind is a unique web and app-based program developed by psychologists and educators to help bring balance to people’s lives.
  

Apps with * by the name have been tried by me, others I have found recommended by various sources. These should all come free, but you can check specific details in the app store of your choice. Please note the links are for Google Play users, but I believe these are all available also on the App store!

If you can recommend any app you found particularly helpful for yourself, please feel free to do so in a reblog. :)

I downloaded Habitica… let’s see if it works

let your devices be tools, not lifestyles. the internet is wonderful, but it shouldn’t be where you disappear to all day. try to only pick up your devices with an intended purpose in mind; don’t let the easy dopamine rush fool you into thinking browsing tumblr is any substitute for real life. your devices are tools whose usage you control, not the other way around.

you’re doing fine. you’re doing just fine, even if you’re struggling. treat yourself the way you would treat someone you love. if you wouldn’t want your best friend to put up with something, don’t put it up with it yourself. if you wouldn’t blame your partner for messing something up, don’t blame yourself. love the way yourself the way you love others. i promise your heart has room for itself.

Tw // anorexia (pro recovery)

i know you’re lonely. i know it feels comforting to slip into the same old familiar loneliness. the same religiously good hurt of refusing yourself the things you need and the space to heal. i know it feels beautiful to have something to worship. i know in this cold, confusing world, having goodness be safely defined as thinness within a community with whom you can push for that ideal feels like a comfort. i know it feels safe and familiar. but if you think that this is something that you can compartmentalize and keep safe tucked in a corner of your life, you can’t; and if you think it ever ends, or that your ideal is something you will ever reach, you’re wrong. this disorder is a parasite, and it will take over every corner of your life and every minute of your time and in the end, you will not be rewarded for it. no one will like you any better, least of all yourself; no one will thank you for hurting yourself like this; the world will not turn rose-coloured, your head will not clear and your perfect life will not materialize. you will come out of the end of the tunnel and you will have lost years of your life that you can never get back, and you will realize you were worshipping a false god the whole time. you will realize you never needed to change to wake up with a smile on your lips and birds singing in the window, you never needed to change to dance in the kitchen with your significant other or feel the warmth of another’s presence and laughter. if this made you doubt yourself at all, come and take my hand. i know the grave is comfortable, but don’t let yourself sleep yet.

tw // eating disorder (anorexia recovery)

i know you’re lonely. i know it feels comforting to slip into the same old familiar loneliness. the same religiously good hurt of refusing yourself the things you need and the space to heal. i know it feels beautiful to have something to worship. i know in this cold, confusing world, having goodness be safely defined as thinness within a community with whom you can push for that ideal feels like a comfort. i know it feels safe and familiar. but if you think that this is something that you can compartmentalize and keep safe tucked in a corner of your life, you can’t; and if you think it ever ends, or that your ideal is something you will ever reach, you’re wrong. this disorder is a parasite, and it will take over every corner of your life and every minute of your time and in the end, you will not be rewarded for it. no one will like you any better, least of all yourself; no one will thank you for hurting yourself like this; the world will not turn rose-coloured, your head will not clear and your perfect life will not materialize. you will come out of the end of the tunnel and you will have lost years of your life that you can never get back, and you will realize you were worshipping a false god the whole time. you will realize you never needed to change to wake up with a smile on your lips and birds singing in the window, you never needed to change to dance in the kitchen with your significant other or feel the warmth of another’s presence and laughter. if this made you doubt yourself at all, come and take my hand. i know the grave is comfortable, but don’t let yourself sleep yet.

you are valid. you deserve Kindness and respect. you deserve rest and nourishment. you deserve to be seen and loved and heard. you deserve laughter and delight. you may not always have these things, but you are always, always worthy of them. remember, and try to steer your lifeboat toward them.

it’s okay to say no and put yourself first - doing so doesn’t make you a bad person

please try your best to stop or limit the amount of self-deprecating jokes you make. i promise that you are worth so much more, and that it will help you so much in the long run.

you may have been worse recently, you may have relapsed recently, you may have taken a lot of steps back recently, but please don’t be too hard on yourself. i know that you are disappointed with yourself, i know that it hurts, but now is not the time to give up on the fight; please keep trying, as best as you can. hope is not lost, and you will get back to the place you were before, and continue to recover.

even a little bit of progress is still progress. i’m so proud of you. 

it’s okay to slow down and take a break if you need to 

please try to do at least one kind thing for yourself today - you deserve it

your best memories may not have happened yet; stay for them, please

everyone, and i mean everyone, has made mistakes, has done things that they didn’t mean, has done things that they look back on and regret; those things do not define you, those things do not make you a bad person – you are continuously growing and bettering yourself. please try your best to be a little easier on yourself.

even though it might not feel like it, you have people who will be there for you if you need them. please try your best to reach out to them if you need them. 

gentle reminder

please try your best to take a moment today to think of all of the little good things that help you to smile

it’s okay to feel unmotivated; your limits are going to be different every day

you did great today. it’s okay to take a break to rest. it’s okay to take time for yourself; to watch that movie, play that game you like, or anything else.