#spilled lines

The way my hips sway every time that I walk

The piercing regret that sets in after I talk

When I look in the mirror it’s a monster I see

A monster that looks a whole lot like me
I don’t understand when this girl got so bad

I just wish her eyes in the mirror weren’t so sad

You see, I feel disconnected from the reflection that I own.
No more confidence
Into self-loathe I’ve grown.

r.t.

It’s late and I miss you.
You were to be my everything
My refuge
You kept me safe.
From myself.
Happy.

It’s late and I miss you.
My mind wanders
I’ve thought up
A million things to say to you
Things I won’t.
But wish I could.

It’s late and I miss you.
And life is short.
But so was your temper.
And I’m still trying to make sense of what happened.

It’s too late.
I miss you.
You called today.
Not even the warmth of your voice could salvage the icy front I had put up.
You weren’t here when I needed you.

It’s late
and hopefully now you miss me.

But I think I’ve finally stopped
Missing you.

r.t.

“It’s whatever”
He said with tears in his eyes
He hid away
Broken.
I didn’t fall for his lies
His parents drank often
He promised himself he wouldn’t
I told him to stay strong
He told me, he couldn’t
He got home from school
Everyday exhausted
Nobody realized his strength
Until one day he lost it.
For him to inhale and say yes one more time.
To a life he was robbed of
The most complex of crime.
He sat in class silent,
But when asked he would spill
Because all he needed
Was someone to listen and be still
He’d tell them his story
The one he told me
And they’d watch amazed at the new depths they’d see.
A boy who was strong
A boy who was clever
But when concluding his tale
He’d just utter “it’s whatever”

r.t.

“in her details I found a truth. one unspoken. never a passing breath through teeth. but here in broken light and darting glances… I saw her for the first time clearly.”

- truthful details // m.b.

“All smiles when I’m with you

Your laughter makes my heart skip beats

And my cheeks turn rosy pink

You make my mind spill loads of ink”

- Inked Heartbeat // m.b.