#afraid to love
Dear Universe,
I never want to go through this again. Please, no more lessons. I’ve had enough. Don’t you think I’ve learned enough?
-painful lessons
You went from being my favorite person to a complete stranger in an instant.
-and it’s fucking with my head
The version of you in my memory no longer exists.
-i miss that person
I would do anything to go back in time and hold onto the moments when we were happy.
-happiness has a time limit for me and my time has run out
I’ve been trying to keep myself busy to forget about you and it’s been working…for the most part. But sometimes, whether it’s late at night or when I’m studying alone in the library, you manage to slip through the cracks for a moment.
—then i shut you out again
“I’m just going to keep pushing you away. I will always look for something that is wrong with you and use it as an excuse to keep you out. I will always make you the bad guy. That’s why I keep saying let’s just be friends. I’d rather be your friend than be an ex something. Because that’s how this will end if it’s not already over. It will end by me pushing you so far away until you hate me.”
—silentregrets
