Nod to the lighthouse…

You are still a beacon of light. Forever the lighthouse keeper guiding those who seek. Standing on duty, keeping the light lit at full intensity until sunrise, a person in service, never absent from your station or duty without authority. Spending your day, surveying the weather and the tide conditions, journaling in beauty and grace, forever enslaved to the masses denying yourself. Ready to launch a lifeboat for those in need.

And although we are no longer friends your light shines bright for all to see. I still see your guidance from afar and nod in acknowledgment to the reminder that at any point I could become high and dry.

I hope you are well in the tower by yourself. My wish for you is someday your light finds someone who is adrift, as I found you, but this time you and her connect. And you come down from your tower to guide her on her passage to your home. For you were pointing me in my direction, towards my home. Away from the shore, as I have an oceans to travel, much to still learn, hopefully no more hurricanes to endure.

Thank you for waving me on, for I was sailing close to the wind, ready to sink or swim. And with you, I would have sunk, left dead in the water.

Now the waters are calm and I am smooth sailing, wind in my hair, sun on my face. Guided by the moon and the stars. On the right track. For my Master runs a tight ship and I am at peace.

I wish you farewell my friend, I shall keep you at bay, and wish you fair winds and following seas.

Praise be to God

From the age of five I was instructed to take care of my Mum and Sister.

Why would anyone ask a child to take on such responsibility?

I wasn’t old enough to question the instruction, so did my best to adhere.

You see my Dad died when I was five, and at that time, my baby sister was barely one.

My Mum was constantly in and out of the hospital, managing an inherited red blood cell disorder.

I had no choice but to grow up, and do so fast.

Becoming responsible at such a young age was a gift and a curse.

I didn’t get a chance to enjoy my childhood, or my teenage years because I wasn’t considered a child.

Everyone who could, took advantage.

That being said, all my experiences prepared me for the many challenges I’ve been through and overcome.

I’ve always been wise beyond my years, and felt a sense of duty to care for my loved ones, before myself.

However, now I’ve established healthy boundaries.

I do things out of love not obligation.

I don’t allow anyone to emotionally abuse me or guilt trip me.

I don’t give anyone my hard earned money whenever they ask because they’ve been irresponsible with their finances.

I don’t allow anyone into my space if their energy isn’t right or aligned with mine.

I don’t wait for anyone’s appreciation, applause or approval, I don’t need it.

I don’t hold malice but where necessary I will keep my distance.

I don’t have any expectations so don’t get disappointed, just pleasantly surprised.

I’ve stop holding people to my standards, I know we are all different, and have different paths.

I’ve let go of all my hurt and anger

I’ve realeased all my past pain and embrace my present, while remaining optimistic about the future.

I love myself first

I prioritise my needs first and don’t apologise for doing so

I’m focused on my mental, physical and spiritual growth and that’s it.

I’m blessed and highly favoured

I let God guide my footsteps and walk confidently moving forward.

Praise be to God - Amen

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i’m feeling very connected with nature recently so i’ve been sitting outside in my yard in the grass just being at peace like that and also watching the stars at night admiring the beauty of everything.

this was a bit of a rant but i needed to say that so yeah

777honey:

growing and honoring your self surprisingly hurts a lot because you are unlearning, shedding, and constantly detaching from behaviors, identities, people that no longer serve a purpose - and that’s still felt as a loss. but it’s necessary in order to elevate. the loss of letting go of what is NOT meant for you however will never be harder than holding onto to that out of fear

Absolutely agree. You have to rid yourself and your life of people that do not support your goals and efforts to move forward and up