enough (poem)

I am enough.

I keep repeating that I am enough

as if that was enough for me.

When I say I am enough

it’s because I can’t allow myself to love anyone else

but me.

— a poem by me on a midnight

She never came back

The girl I was before he broke me

I waited and waited

I hoped and I prayed

Her light left one evening

And the darkness stayed

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Wether it’s the hope of love

The grief of love

The lesson of love

Or the regret of love

Once you have loved

It always remains

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You said you wanted all of me

So here I am

Darkness

Melancholy

Rage

Why are you walking away?

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I have very little hope left

My prayers are barely a whisper

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You know what you’ve done

But to say it out loud

Is too brutal a reality

It would be suicide by honesty

And you are such a coward

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I remember a time when

I thought he would change

When I thought that my love

Would take his anger away

What a dangerous choice

I was willing to make

To sacrifice myself for a man

Who could never be saved

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When I look back at my life

I only recognize it for a moment

And then it’s gone

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I am so tired

It doesn’t matter how much I sleep

The sadness and worry

Are too heavy for me

And everytime I put them down

To breathe a sigh of relief

I hear the sound of fear and anger

Begin to slowly creep

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I remember his hands

The way they held me so tightly

The way they let me go

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The desire

To be desired

Is a foolish wish

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You are the only one who knows

My silence means

I have so much to say 

You listen to me

When I dont say a word

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Poetry is my lover

She always let’s me in

To cry

To listen

To confess all my sins

She found me voiceless

Wishing my tears were diamonds

So that I could buy back some time

Her poems come out of my heart

My eyes

My mind

She is so soft

And she never leaves

Thank you

My sweet lover

Poetry

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A woman like me

Wants to be kept and set free simultaneously

A woman like me

Desires to be cared for all the while being all that she needs

A woman like me

Should keep her opinions to herself

Don’t speak

A woman like me

Moon faced but anguished with uncertainty

“The girl of their dreams”

A woman like me

Until it’s my piercing red eyes and deathly screams

A woman like me

Is never fully understood or known

A woman like me

Is better off alone

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Was this earth not created through chaos?

Our universe makes love with the clash

Creation is the child of collision

A galaxy of grief

Atom + Eve

Here because God simply said

BE

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His mouth is a halo

And everytime he speaks

The words breathe light into me

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With you

I am drowning

In despair

I breathe

Incurable sadness

Not air

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The day will still come

No matter how hard you close your eyes

The night will kiss the day goodbye

Painting colors in the sky

Welcome the darkness

Embrace the light

Don’t fight against the up’s and down’s of life

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It’s hard to come to terms with the idea of being forgotten

The inevitable disappearance of being

All our love

All this life

Gone

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If forever is a place

I hope I go there with you

But I know that heaven will sigh

When you arrive with tears in your eyes

Wishing you could face the fire

Just to bring me too

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