It’s such a long walk when you got somewhere to be; I just thought maybe you were gonna walk with me (chapter three)
a/n: don’t be fooled by how quickly these are coming out; i usually take 5-7 business years to post.
story summary: MC decides all of the student council is going to therapy and hell hath no fury like a prepared human. They’ve got highlighters and they’re not afraid to use them.
chapter summary: There is so much more to Asmo than what he shows the world.
pairing:lucifer/reader
warnings:angst&trauma; small text only for description; gn!reader; possible spoilers since author can’t remember when shit happened in canon; not proofread/betaread; author is a psychology grad student which is its own warning; descriptions of violence/wounds; cursing
rating:m; changing it now as we get more into the nitty gritty of their experiences
The funniest fucking irony of this is that, going by canon lore, the Homunculous in the Flask is the one who took the fattest bong rip out of blondie, not the other way around
my goal for winter break was to finish two more tarot cards, and i was cutting it pretty close but i did get this second one done! I have been told that Lila probably fits the moon best, and I agree, but I couldn’t resist the moon being…. the moon. Plus, Luther’s mission up here was a deception to control him, so it at least kinda fits. Or thats what I tell myself to justify my choices lol.
[ID: a The Umbrella Academy-themed tarot card, illustrated in a way that is supposed to resemble the style of the comics (though how well that is achieved is up for debate). It is The Moon, featuring an illustration of a trail of paper between a distant Earth and Luther’s capsule on the moon. Around the capsule are a dumpster, a few chairs, a solar panel, and a non-canonical plastic flamingo. End ID.]
Winston Brothers month continues! The Winston Brothers series has a big cast of characters, even I get confused sometimes (especially with how to spell “Darrell” O.o ) So we’re going to try to share some facts, relationships, and quotes from characters in the series leading up to the release of Dr. Strange Beard!
I have to say Jackson James is one of my favorites. I cannot wait to write his book :-D
1x02,“Castle Leoch”, whipped, scars, bandages, self-sacrifice, hurt in previous injury, blody nose, supported, limping, tended to
1x05,“Rent”, reveals scars in front of a crowd, angst, upset
1x06,“The Garrison Commander”, mandhandled, shackled to a post, whipped, grabbed by the hair, collapses, close to passing out
1x08,“Both Sides Now”, manhandled, held at gunpoint
1x09,“The Reckoning”,slapped
1x10,“By the Pricking of My Thumbs”, fight, kicked, stabbed in the side, wound stitched shut
1x12,“Lallybroch”, flashback to being whipped, manhandled, hands chained, held at gunpoint
1x13,“The Watch”, held at gunpoint twice (both very brief), fight, walks into a trap, captured
1x15,“Wentworth Prison”, chained at the wrists and feet, sentenced to execution, hit in the back, punched in the stomach, manhandled, imprisoned, tries to free himself, captor toys with him/power play, choked, hand broken with hammer, slapped, almost rescue, self sacrifice, hand nailed to a table, non consensual kissing, creepy touching
1x16,“To Ransom a Man’s Soul”, trauma, aftermath of rape, unresponsive, hallucinations, wounds treated, bandaged, suicidal, slapped, kicked, brand mark, flinching, aversion to touch, brand cut out of his skin, hand bandaged, sling, limping. Flashback: hand nailed to table, non consensual touching, rape, believes wife to be dead, hallucinaition, made to brand himself
2x01,“Through a Glass, Darkly”, hand bandaged, heavy breathing, PTSD from the rape, scar reveal to his cousin
2x02,“Not in Scotland Anymore,” nightmare, PTSD, slow healing from the rape
2x04,“La Dame Blanche”, worry for Claire when she is poisoned, emotional whump, finds out his torturer/rapist is still alive, vulnerable, opens up about his trauma
2x06,“Best Laid Schemes…”, fakes having smallpox, punched in the face, attacked, knocked out, sword fight, arm injury, arrested
2x09,“Je Suis Prest”, whipped with belt (sort of self punishment)
2x10,“Prestonpans”, battle bruising and injuries
2x13,“Dragonfly in Amber”, punched, fight, bandaged hand, tearful goodbye to his wife
3x01,“The Battle Joined”, various battle injuries, choked, dazed, heavy breathing, slashed across the thigh, hallucinates Claire, hears his friends’ executions, tears, head wound, weak
3x02,“Surrender”, fugitive, has to watch Fergus get his hand choped off to save him, guilt, tears, grief
3x03,“All Debts Paid”, suicidal/gives up, offers his sister to turn him in, gunpoint, arrested, shackled, manhandled (briefly), marks on his wrists from shackles, on his knees, blade to the throat, cold, tied to the back of a horse, forced to walk
3x04,“Of Lost Things”, prisoner, servitude, captor plays power games with him, dub-con sex (he does not really get much of a choice)
3x05,“Freedom & Whisky”, passes out (very end of the episode)
3x06,“A. Malcolm”, comes to, tearful reunion with Claire, scars
3x07,“Crème de Menthe”, runs into a burning building to rescue friend, coughing, weak, heavy breathing
3x08,“First Wife”, cold, emotional whump, slapped, held at gunpoint, shot, tended to/bullet removal, wound stitched shut, bandaged, wincing, feverish, heavy breathing, arm in sling, worry for Young Ian
3x10,“Heaven and Earth”, worry for Claire, held at gunpoint (very briefly), manhandled, seasick, locked up
3x12,“The Bakra”, arrested, manhandled
3x13,“Eye of the Storm”, shackled, fight, choked, thrown, knocked out, worry for Claire, goes overboard ship, nearly drowns
4x01,“America the Beautiful”, talks of his rape to help Young Ian through his trauma, punched, manhandled, beaten up
4x02,“Do No Harm”, emotional whump, guilt over not protecting Claire
4x06,“Blood of My Blood”, held at gunpoint, manhandled, worry for his son
4x09,“The Birds and the Bees”, teary-eyed, reunion with his daughter
4x10,“The Deep Heart’s Core”, bandaged hand, talks of his own rape with Brianna to help her through her trauma, guilt over selling out Roger
4x11,“If Not for Hope”, guilt over sending Roger away, emotional whump, Claire comforts him
4x13,“Man of Worth”, attacked, forced to his knees, held at gunpoint, surrender, tears, punched in the face, beaten up
5x01,“The Fiery Cross”, angst, has to hunt down his friend, tears
5x02,“Between Two Fires”, angst, has to hunt down his friend (who dies in his arms)
5x06,“Better to Marry than Burn”,slapped
5x07,“The Ballad of Roger Mac”, cuts his hand
5x09,“Monsters and Heroes”, bitten by venomous snake, field medicine, bandaged, heavy breathing, sweaty, leans on Roger to walk, throws up, delirious, tended to, infection, has to consider amputation, saved at the last minute
5x11,“Journeycake”, worry for Claire when she is kidnapped (brief)
6x01,“Echoes”, flashback to him being a prisoner, forced labour, self-sacrifice, flogged as punishment, hallucinates Claire, limping
6x03,“Temperence”, mild emotional whump when he finds and has to stop Fergus from killing himself
This is mainly a Jamie whump list at this point, but here are a few other episodes with good whump for other characters
Young Ian (John Bell)
3x07,“Crème de Menthe”, assaulted, manhandled, shot at, trapped in burning building, rescued, heavy breathing
3x08,“First Wife”,kidnapped
3x12,“The Bakra”, kidnapped, manhandled, thrown to the ground, locked up, drugged, implied rape at Geilis’ hands
3x13,“Eye of the Storm”, manhandled, gagged, tied up, rescued, tears, comfort
4x01,“America the Beautiful”, fear, trauma from his time with Geillis
4x10,“The Deep Heart’s Core”, slapped, nosebleed
4x13,“Man of Worth”, self sacrifice, offers to stay with the Mohawks to save Roger, emotional whump, tears, beaten up
5x08,“Famous Last Words”, withdrawn, hints of past trauma from his time with the Mohawks, suicidal, Roger averts his suicide attempt
6x04,“Hour of the Wolf”, emotional whump, flashback to integration ritual with the Mohawks, tears, he and his wife have a series of miscarriages until she make shim leave her, gets into a fight, grieves his dead child
Fergus Fraser (César Domboy)
3x06,“A. Malcolm”, wooden hand from amputation
3x11,“Uncharted”, briefly made to feel self conscious about his missing hand
4x11, “If Not for Hope”, slight emotoinal whump, can’t find work because he’s disabled, punched in the stomach
6x01,“Echoes”, makes disparaging comments about himself/self-worth issues, emotonal whump, implied alchohol abuse
6x03,“Temperence”, emotional whump, feels inadequate because of his missing hand, big fight with Marsali, mentions of childhood trauma as a brothel-boy to Claire, graphic self-harm/suicide attempt, rescued by Jamie
* Being underage in season 2, I elected to not list any of the bad things that happen to Fergus in that season but to any considering watching and needing a trigger warning, know that Black Jack does rape him in 2x07, it’s pretty upsetting to watch. He is also amputed as a teenager in 3x02.
Roger WakefieldMacKenzie(Richard Rankin)
4x03,“The False Bride”, slapped, emotional whump
4x07,“Down the Rabbit Hole”, manhandled, restrained, emotional whump, angst
4x08,“Wilmington”, emotional whump, teary-eyed, Brianna sends him away
4x09,“The Birds and the Bees“, Jamie wrongfully beats him up, believing he raped Brianna
4x10,“The Deep Heart’s Core”, captured by Mowhawks, hands tied to a horse, forced to walk, badly bruised, slapped, exhaustion, falls down cliff
4x11,“If Not for Hope”, bruised and beaten, held captive, hands tied, punched
4x12,“Providence”, bruised and beaten, limping, whimpering, arm in sling, shoved, imprisoned in a hut, manhandled
4x13,“Man of Worth”, rescued, support, limping, fight, beaten up
5x01,“The Fiery Cross”, cuts himself while shaving
5x02,“Between Two Fires”, slight short sightedness
5x07,“The Ballad of Roger Mac”, fight, beaten up, manhandled, hanged
5x08,“Famous Last Words”, rescued, operated on, PTSD, trauma from and flashback to the hanging, temporary muteness, recovery
5x09,“Monsters and Heroes”, worry for/caretaker for Jamie, exhaustion, overexertion, damaged voice from his hanging
6x03,“Temperence”, mild whump when he dives into the river to rescue baby Henri-Christian
Today I’m lifting up the enourmously talented tacky ( @tackytigerfic | tackytiger on AO3). I’ve been so lucky to get to know tacky a bit over in discord-land, namely by going into their DMs and screaming incoherently about a fic that they wrote that I loved. As one does.
Today’s fic is In the Hallway (Drarry, 1960 words, Mature). This fic is just devestating in the most beautiful way. Tacky’s writing is always gorgeous, they have such a sure, steady way and a lyrical voice. This fic drops us in to a particular moment in time, it doesn’t explain how we got to where we are, it just transports us there beautifully. This is a fic about trauma and how healing is long and slow, and imperfect. How we’re not always our best selves when were hurting, but we have to keep trying. Keep working on it. Ultimately, this felt like a very hopeful fic, and I definitely was crying at the end of it, so there’s that.
He wets his lips before he connects with yours in an unbelievably soft caress. Crowley painstakingly savors this moment before it’s gone from him forever. Your kiss cures him of every sin he’s made for centuries.
If he could harness the power of time, he’d stop everything in the universe to devour your love in this kiss. If nothing ever progressed between you, he’d content himself knowing he’d had you here, providing him with the luxury of vulnerability.
He pulled back, searching for signs on your face to slow down or stop. But you were there searching his eyes as well, pleading for him to return to you. That’s all the indication he needed.
some differences i noticed between certain scenes. i’m not going to go over the differences between when something happened, because ultimately it would be redundant, and also because i think it’s more interesting to look at the differences between what happened. mainly, this will be about things that happened in the manga that didn’t happen in the anime. long post under the cut. ofc, spoilers.
season 1, ep. 8 (Ch. 17), the helicopter scene
it essentially plays out the same way. in the manga, there’s this small extra scene between sayaka and “ririka”, in which you get to see more of sad sayaka, being ignored by both the president and VP (poor sayaka).
@kakeguruibeyond already made an analysis about what happened, specifically about the twin switching, along with what happens later in ch. 36 (season 2, ep. 2).
in the anime, because rei exists, they changed the meeting between terano and actual kirari to be about bringing rei in the election. in the manga, since rei doesn’t exist, their meeting re-inforces the fact that yes, kirari and ririka switch places, and also lets the audience know that yes, terano, and most likely the whole family, at least knows about this trick. but terano is able to discern the difference between kirari and ririka at a glance. we don’t know (yet) if any of the other family members can do that. i can’t wait to see what this will mean in the future.
but maybe i’m getting ahead of myself. let’s go back and go over some differences in season one. Ep. 6, after the debt-resettlement gamble, there was a small extra scene between mary and yumeko, which i’ll just leave here:
kind of sad this yumary scene wasn’t animated
another difference was when kirari attempted to recruit mary, season 1 ep. 7 (ch. 16) . essentially,it played out similarly, but in the manga, when mary asks about the housepet system, instead of bringing up the aquarium, she explains her motivations in a bit more depth using a different example:
like i get why they wanted to use the aquarium metaphor in the anime during this scene, because that’s a recurring theme, but here we have the originfor the aquarium spiel. it’s not just about making the big fish eat the smaller fish because it’s interesting, it’s about powerand how kirari is maintaining and preserving that power. this scene in the manga just adds more depth to kirari’s motivations beyond her doing things just because it’s “interesting”.
now, let’s talk about this scene, season 1 ep. 11 (Ch. 26), when kirari reveals herself during the yumeko/manyuda gamble.
previously, during the helicopter scene, we’ve seen sayaka already having doubts about the president not trusting her. this thought has been embedded into her ever since kirari left without telling her anything, and now, she is sure.kirarinot saying anything to sayaka as ririka, solidifies that fact in sayaka’s head. in the anime, she says something completely different that lessens the impact of sayaka’s internal struggle: “How long has she been in our midst?” which is a lot different from what she’s thinking here. i guess you can infer in the anime that sayaka is having doubts, but in the manga it’s crystal clear that she is freaking out and not okay about the whole situation.
another big difference was the build up to the ending of season 1, right after the yumeko/manyuda gamble. the main difference is, in order for the yumeko/kirari gamble to happen in the anime, sayaka had to be more passive and not have that emotional/mental ourburst that led to Tower of Doors in the manga, which was already being set up by the previous helicopter scene and the realization that the president doesn’t trust her:
unfortunately, this also means we miss out on some more of sayaka’s dialogue in the manga that made her a more interesting and relatable character (imo, anyway). more on that later.
next, in the same scene, there was an exchange between yumeko and kirari that didn’t make it in the anime. @castleoflions already made a post about that.
there’s also another exchange that didn’t happen in the anime where kirari brings up the aquarium again, when sayaka asks why they can’t just expel/make people stop gambling with yumeko:
which leads to sayaka freaking out even more about not understanding the exchange between yumeko and kirari, and wanting more answers:
ow. again, poor sayaka, being refused an answer again from the president, not being trusted by the president. which leads to… more sad sayaka, when sayaka initiates the gamble with yumeko and what each person would bet was being discussed:
oof. i wish the anime kept these scenes with sayaka, it just gives us more insight into what’s going on inside her head besides the angry/jealous, obsessive, tit-grabbing (lol) secretary. sayaka was hurtby kirari,(multiple times! with no explanation!) and wants answers, and when she stilldoesn’t get them, she breaks. which leads to the all-or-nothing gamble with yumeko at the tower of doors. it makes more sense to me than the slow buildup between two seasons in the anime, but i get that they wanted to add in an original scene (the yumeko/kirari gamble) and therefore a lot of sayaka’s internal struggle had to be dampened and spread out over another season. what do y’all think?
that’s it for season 1 ish. (Ch. 1-29). i think i’ll make a separate post for (more) season 2 stuff, since this is long AF
Found some time in the day to get back to this series, so let’s go
Entombed – this is an original 1989 shirt originally available from the band via mail order along with their demo ‘Drowned.’ The frontman of Entombed was the late LG Petrov, if you’re interested Tobias once wrote an article for Sweden Rock Magazine where he reminisced about Petrov & his other band, Morbid
Iron Maiden – 1982 shirt from The Number of the Beast world tour 82-83, on the back has a list of countries which were part of the tour
Iron Maiden – Purgatory, featuring cover artwork from the single under the same name, shirt is from the early 80s probably sold on the 1981 Killers tour
Celtic Frost – To Mega Therion, the cover art is a 1977 painting by H. R. Geiger titled “Satan I” picturing Satan holding the crucified Jesus in one hand and a string with a host wafer in the other. Pretty eye-catching.
