Update:

I only ate a little bit of indian lastnight, but it led onto a full binge and now I can’t stop. My boyfriends gone home so I’m just in a cycle of binging and purging right now.

Back on track tomorrow.

HELP MMM

My boyfriend is going to make me eat indian food and its going to ruin my progress, he’s gone to get it now and i’m panicking. I can’t purge because he’ll hear me.

WHAT

THE

FUCK

AM

I

SUPPOSED

TO

DO

I hate my thights sO GODDAMN MUCH.

Food diary #2

Breakfast:

1 caramel instant latte (no sugar or milk): 66

1 chocolate wafer: 100

Lunch:

1 pack of crisps: 132

Dinner:

¾ tin of minnestrone soup: 95

Snack:

1 pack of neo biscuits (4 in a pack): 176

Total: 569

Calories burnt walking/ light leg lifts: 110

Total: 459

It’s halloween tomorrow and my birthday, and my boyfriend is coming over so I might treat myself tomorrow, I know i’ll feel guilty but i’ll just purge whatever I eat when I go over 600 calories - thats if I do.

I’m pretty proud of the weight i’ve lost (2nd pic is me now) and sure there’s still like 15lbs to go but man i’m still much happier than I was (weight wise)

I’m 17 tomorrow (Halloween baby ayyy) and I still look like a chubby 12 year old, like, can I just look older n less fat pls, I’m trying my best here but puberty must’ve forgotten me

Food Diary #1 (29/10/18)

Breakfast:

2 apples (190)

1 caramel instant latte (66)

Snack:

1 small chocolate wafer (100)

1 small bag of crisps (132)

Dinner:

1 small potato (130)

1 cup boiled veg (44)

Total: 662 - 105

Exercise: 105 (I only did 500 crunches spread out over 30 mins)

Total intake:557

I was aiming for below 600 so i’m pretty happy with that, i’ve been stuck on a binge purge cycle for weeks and i’ve gained a lot but i’m sO ready to lose all of this goddamn fat already.

To have that bone on my wrist be more prominent than ever

I haven’t used this blog in forever since my last one (WitheringOrange) was taken down, but imma start postings tons of thinspo again! If you have any requests let me know and I usually get them done within a day or less❤

To look skinny in jeans

To not have fat poking out of my fishnets

To be that lanky ooo

1 year ago (128lbs) vs now (111lbs)

The goddamn truth

Me:*exists*

Friend: wow you’re looking small, here eat this chocolate bar lol it wont kill you it’s only like 300 calories

Me:

The FBI agent watching me on my computer google ‘how many calories does ….. have’ for the 59263th time.

Food diary #3

Breakfast:

2 energy cans (2kcal)

Lunch:

4 neo biscuits (176)

Dinner:

1 large sweet potato (163)

Snack (or drink lol):

2 ultra white monsters (22 cal for both)

Cals burnt walking: 67 (I didn’t move a lot today, depression is kicking my ass)

Total intake: 298

Does anyone else feel like they’ve eaten and completely forgotten when their intake is small? Like I still feel disgusting even with that.

hELp eEhh

I think my scales at home are broke, because mine say i’m 7st 2lbs which is 100lbs, but the scales in boots (a pharmacy) say i’m 7st 13lbs. The scales in boots also measured my height and had it COMPLETELY off by like 2 inches so I don’t know what scale to trust. Mine is one with the lil arrow but the one in boots is digital but honestly i’m so confused at the moment and i’m really unsure about my weight and it’s making me panic and I need to buy a new scale soon or I will genuinely go insane.

I love bony hands, mine are slowly getting there❤

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Weird eating disorder thought idk

Am I the only person who gets excited for food and that excitement helps me starve?

Like, i’ll plan a meal out (like a sweet potato or some frozen veggies) and i’ll think about it ALL day until it’s my designated time to eat.

I’ll be sat in bed drinking diet pop and smoking thinking “only a few more hours of fasting and I can eat that” and it’s like food is a motivator for me. It’s weird. It helps me not binge if I’m looking forward to a pre-planned low cal meal.

Am I the only person who does that or am I just a fat hoe lmao???

I have all the making for this outfit, but i’m too fat to pull it off

Me @ my morning sugar free 2kcal energy drink

Wearing my boyfriends pyjama pants makes me feel skinny bc they’re baggy as fuck lmao

Ana buddy search!

I’m looking for a friend to support and help me keep on track - don’t fret, the same goes on my end if you want any support and help!

There are a few lil guidelines just so that it’s easier for both of us (or whoever is down y'know:)

• Must live in the same time zone (UK, I live in Wales but the UK is the same time zone)
• Non-homophobic
• Willing to send meanspo or sweetspo sometimes (you don’t have to, it’s all good in the hood)
• Be 14-21, i’m 17 yo and i’ve had my fair share of creeps that i’d really not encounter again

If you’re willing to share numbers/social media that’d be sick too bc sometimes its easier to text and yanno it’d just be nice to have someone to talk to abt something other than weight sometimes:)

I really don’t mind what gender, or if you prefer to be neither thats neat.

So if you’re interested, just dm me yo, I swear i’m not scary.

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Me: I’m gonna eat under 600 calories today, I gotta lose this weight.

Ana: OR you could eat absolutely nothing, and lose it even quicker;)