#stopbeforeyoustart

When you tell people you self harm, and all they think is knife wrist and blood.

They don’t understand what happens behind the scenes.

They don’t realise the lengths that we go to just to hide it.

They don’t know how creative we are, when the need hits but there’s no knives around.

They don’t realise just how fucked up it actually is.

They say they want to know, yet they flinch, hesitate, show disgust,

At what is actually, the prettiest part of the whole damn show.

Christmas can be a hard time for some people.

Don’t judge people or get angry if they won’t come to your function, maybe they’re doing their best just to keep their heart beating today.

Don’t expect people to bring presents, it’s been a hard year, they might be struggling just to put food on the table, keep the lights on or buy their meds.

Don’t force the holiday spirit on people. Some people have suffered severe trauma through the holiday period. You still expect them to be jolly about it just for you?

Christmas is a time to love, to be kind and care for others. Not to force big parties, bankruptcy, meltdowns or flashbacks on others.

Fuck societies expectations. Just spread the love.

Merry Christmas!

I’m pretty sure we contribute to the whole vampyre myth…

So… got my autism diagnosis today. Didn’t expect that.

Can you tell I’m burnt out? No? Good that’s how I want it.

I’m going to die if I keep going, but society doesn’t give breaks, especially not for mental health. So….I’ve just increased my workload… because burning fast and bright is less painful than the slow burn.

Hate, sorrow, grief, anxiety, fear, trauma, depression, terror, uncertainty… you’ve been there with me through it all. Why would I give you up?

Don’t cut, don’t cut, don’t cut, don’t cut.