RFA members with a depressed reader + how they would respond/try and support you

Zen:

• He’s actually really shocked
• Like, you’re so gorgeous and honestly the most amazing person he’s ever met and he can’t believe you’d ever feel that way about yourself
• He tries to reassure you CONSTANTLY
• Which kinda makes you feel a bit bad, like you’re a burden
• When he hears that he just tries to love you even more
• He doesn’t really know how to help you aside from reassuring and comforting and loving you
• So he tries to do research
• Invites you to go on walks with him for exercise
• Offers to pay for your therapy
• Tries to cook healthy meals for the both of you
• Wants you to get enough sleep
• All of the good habits that are supposed to help with depression
• They do, but you still end up feeling numb inside
• Especially at night
• He’s so kind and patient and understanding
• He’ll sit with you and hold you if you just wanna cry
• He’ll listen to your feelings and empathise but when you start talking about how you hate yourself he’ll cut in
• “Please, don’t say that about yourself, Princess.”
• Wants to protect you and make you happy

Jumin:

• Doesn’t really know what to do
• He isn’t that connected to his emotions and he especially isn’t that well versed and knowing how to deal with other people’s emotions
• But he really cares about you, so he makes some calls
• Provides you with the best therapists and psychiatrists (if you want to take medication for it)
• Makes sure that all his employee’s and guards and chefs and maids take really good care of you
• Kind of like Zen - he does his research
• When you tell him that you just feel really down today he’ll start offering all these solutions that are supposed to help - exercise, yoga, meditation, etc.
• But if you say you just wanna stay in and watch movies and cuddle he’s totally there for that too
• If you’re having a really bad day, where you aren’t really talking and you won’t get out of bed, he’ll bring Elizabeth the Third to you because he knows how much you like petting her fur
• And once he’s finished his work, he’ll come to you and hold you and whisper words of support and care and reassurance to you
• Will literally leave meetings if he finds out you’re really upset
• Jaehee doesn’t like that, but she won’t lie - she worries about you too
• On days where Jumin is on a business trip and you’re at home, you best believe you’ll be getting deliveries constantly with flowers or packages and Jaehee visiting you
• At first you’re surprised when Jaehee visits
• But she tells you that he’s worried and maybe you’ll confide in her
• But you guys just stay in and watch (Zen’s) movies and you guys become really close friends
• Bottom line, will stop everything to come and support you

Jaehee:

• Knows what it’s like to have deteriorating mental health
• So can easily relate
• So you guys talk a lot about your feelings to each other, usually ending up with you both crying
• But it’s not really a bad thing
• It’s nice to talk to someone who actually understands without being worried
• Both of you doing things to improve your mental health - a self care journey
• Supporting each other on your bad days
• 24/7 support
• Strongest couple ever omg
• You guys can tell when the other isn’t having the best day, so you’ll discreetly help them out

Yoosung:

• This poor boi cries when you tell him
• Because he’s been there, right in the depths of it
• He came back but…
• He would never want anyone to experience that level of pain and suffering
• And when he found out you had it he just felt so sad - he wanted to take all of your pain for himself because you deserved only the best and all of the happiness
• Especially since you’re the reason he managed to leave that place behind
• Will try and spend as much time making you smile as possible
• Cook for you, making little smiley faces and stuff
• He’s really sweet
• Like, the sweetest heart
• Tells you that he’s there for you, if you need to talk or anything like that
• Wants you to promise that you’ll call him, text him or talk to him if you ever feel like you’ll hurt yourself or…

Saeyoung/Luciel/707:

• Kinda figured it out when he did his background check on you
• Was kinda surprised based on the way you acted in the chat room
• When you weren’t allowed to leave the apartment, he made sure you got your medication (if you take any)
• Feels so guilty about pushing you away
• When you guys are together he tries to make up for it all with love
• Showers you with love and attention
• Partly because he knows how tough it can be to see anything good about yourself
• But it’s mainly because you’re his angel
• Which makes him even sadder because you can’t see how incredible you are to him
• Every little thing you do makes him fall in love with you all over again
• Will leave his work for you if you ask him to or if he feels like you need him
• Offers to find another job
• Tried to make changes in his daily life to support you
• If you decide that you wanna start working out or eating differently or going to therapy or literally anything, he’s doing the same thing too
• Sometimes dragging in Saeran too, just to show you how much support you have
• Maybe even the whole RFA lol
• Just wants you to know you’re loved

To celebrate one of your favourite holidays of the year (who’s gonna complain about all-you-can-eat chocolate?) you had decided to plan an Easter party for everyone in the RFA.

Saeyoung/Luciel/707:

• He’d kind of been all pouty the couple days leading up to the party because you were so excited and preoccupied with planning for the party
• But he didn’t say anything because he loved seeing you all excited and smiling into your planning binder, scribbling down ideas whenever they came to you
• What was really strange was the night before, where you had made him go stay somewhere else for the night
• When he asked you why, you just winked, “it’s a surprise.”
• He decided he’d come early to see you on the day of the Easter party, since he’d really missed you a lot
• Plus he wanted to praise you for everything that you’d done to prepare - it was gonna be perfect, he just knew it
• So when he shows up early, he basically kneels over because it’s
• So
• Fucking
• CUTE
• You went all out with the little bunny and chick decorations, and yellow, pale pink and blue streamers all over the place and lots and lots of treats
• And then there was you, dressed up adorably as a little Easter bunny and when you turned around to see him, he officially died and went to adorable heaven
• “Oh! Saeyoung! You’re early!” You smile brightly, walking over with something behind your back and you lean up to kiss his cheek
• He can’t handle how fcking cute you look, he wants to tackle you with all his love - he’s about to kiss you when you pull what you were hiding out from behind his back
• It’s a small red felt bag with a little hand made clip of his glasses holding it closed.
• “I’m kinda glad you came early, I didn’t want everyone to see…”
• “You made this… for me?” He asks, slightly breathless
• You nod, smiling and beckoning you to open it excitedly
• It’s a series of little chocolates - chicks and eggs and bunny rabbits
• Based on the fact that they’re a little smudgy and wonky looking, he asks if they’re handmade and you nod a little proud of your efforts and he pops one into his mouth, humming with appreciation
• “Mmmm~ you should become a chocolatier, it tastes so much better than the store bought ones!” He praises, and you smile
  
• You guide him around the place and he helps you pin up the last of the decorations before deciding all that’s left to do is actually have the party
• “I hope they’ll like it.” You say softly, looking around at your work and Saeyoung is there, wrapping an arm around your waist and rubbing his nose against yours
• He loves affection, what can I say?
• “They’re going to love it.”
  
• When he kisses you deeper than you expected from him, you taste chocolate
• When he leans back, he winks at your blush

Zen:

• He was always really happy to see you planning parties, because you always seemed to really really enjoy it
• He was so happy when you were happy
• The day of the party, when he shows up with Yoosung (he didn’t have a ride lol), he wishes he had come alone
• Because there was so much effort put into this party - the decorations, the pastries that you had obviously baked and dear lord, your costume
• It wasn’t immodest at all, but something about you dressed up as a rabbit brought him back to his teenage years, where he fantasised about playboy bunnies
• He had to close his eyes and calm himself down before he could walk over to you and tell you about how amazing it had turned out
• Throughout the whole night, he was there, continuously praising your efforts and telling everyone about how amazing is she? Like look at all this work and –
• You getting embarrassed by his praises
• At first, it was just him holding your hand, but by the end of the night, his arm was around your waist
• Whispering naughty things into your ear as he got tipsy, making you blush and Saeyoung would tease you 
• You and Zen totally had some frisky fun time when you got home ;)

Jumin:

• He legit wanted to help you plan the party
• But you stopped him immediately, telling her that this is something I wanna do for you and the other members. I don’t want you to worry much about it, plus I want it to be a surprise for you.
• But this is Jumin
• He wouldn’t buy it
• So, he made sure you had more than enough expenses (even though you were hand making most of the decorations, but okay) and he even rented out a nice place usually booked for weddings in the park
• So, there went your plans for a surprise party for all of the RFA members
• He wanted to know all the details
• And when you’d try and regain control, siting this was going to be a surprise party he’d just say I’ll pretend I don’t know anything
• Right… because I’m sure everyone would believe that, considering you rented pretty much everything
• But when the day comes, and everyone is together and eating chocolate, he can’t help but feel a little (lot) proud of you
• You already had enough on your plate - big parties and a part time job and college (you wanted to get your PhD finally) and then this?
• It was a big hit with everyone
• He was so sweet, helping you clean up in any way he could
• Fed you chocolate ;)

Yoosung:

• Yoosung wanted to help you out, so you of course said yes
• It was just the RFA members, so you didn’t really bother making it a huge deal
• You just invited them over and shared food and drink and a shit ton of chocolate
• You decide to put on some rabbit ears and face paint
• You manage to convince Yoosung to copy you - he does, but only because he can’t deny you when you’re begging him with those doe eyes
• You always get what you want ;)
• Once the RFA leave and it’s just you and Yoosung, you get you both a glass of wine and bring the left over chocolate with you
• So you guys eat and drink until you’re tipsy and in a food coma and you’re giggling and he’s talking and you’re both snuggled up together on the couch
• You watch Hop pretty much three times, because you both get distracted so quickly, but you’re so determined to watch it completely through
• But after the third trial, you both just give up and play some LOLOL together
• You even dressed your players to look more festive!
• You guys were the dream team
• It’s even better than the party, but neither of you say that
• You kind of end up making out and it tastes so sweet that you can’t really stop (so addictive)

Jaehee:

• Jaehee finds it so endearing when you’re planning a party
• Like, you value her opinion so much
• “What do you think of this design?” “What do you think of doing this?”
  
• She loves how much you include her - unlike her old job *cough*C&R International*cough*
• She offers to do things for you, but you make sure she won’t do too much because you know she can kind of get carried away
• So you let her prepare the food, since she loves to make sweets
• You join in with her and you both end up having lots of fun, seeing the reward of delicious looking pastries for your hard work
• Having to remake the food because you both ate it all
• You getting dressed up for the party and Jaehee finding you so cute she can’t really say anything
• You finding that adorable, so you kiss her cheek and tease her gently about it
• Lowkey having more fun preparing for the party than actually having the party
• Oh, the party works out really well

mystictober day 9: theater + hourglass

zen + theater + hourglass

words: 1546 (don’t ask why it ran long…)

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There is an hourglass on your bedside table that you got from the last flea market you went to with your best friend. She was looking for a certain book that her boss sent her to find, and you had poked around and looked at what else they were offering. The owner said that it didn’t work anymore, but you thought it looked cute- especially since the sand was a pinkish red color that seemed to shine gold in the light and its frame had these diamond shapes that made it unique. So despite what the owner said, you still went ahead and bought it.

You figure the owner must have been mistaken, because when you got home that day and placed it in its spot, you saw the sands trickling down to the bottom half of the hourglass- albeit at a rather slow rate than usual. Whether it measured a week or a month or a year, you weren’t exactly sure. But you paid it no mind, simply content to use it as a decoration.

Most days you never spared it a second glance, but over the course of the year, you’d find that a noticeable chunk had gone missing from the top and fallen into the bottom of the hourglass. You weren’t exactly waiting for the sand to run out, but you wondered when it would finally happen.

Hands blindly search around the table, the hourglass shaking a little when you bump into it on your way to shut off the alarm on your phone. Sighing, you sit up and rub your eyes, blinking them open and awake. As your feet pad their way to the kitchen, you try to remember why it is you set an alarm today when you had no work- but your phone ringing all of a sudden again reminds you why.

“Good morning,” the voice on the other end of the line chirps. Your best friend is rarely this cheerful this early, and despite how groggy you feel, you manage to make your voice sound alive.

“Hey, Jae!”

“I wanted to make sure you were awake,” she laughs. “And you are! Will you be ready soon?”

“Mhm! Just let me eat and shower and all that,” you reassure her as you begin to prepare your breakfast.

“Alright, alright…oh! Did you listen to the-” Jaehee begins to ask you excitedly before you cut her off.

“Yes, yes! I’m ready. A hundred percent ready for the show, all thanks to you!”

“Okay,” you can hear the sheepish smile in her voice through the phone. “Sorry, I’m just really excited…”

“You should be! Now, let me finish up and we’ll meet at the theater soon okay?”

You both say your goodbyes and you finish up your business in the kitchen, staring at the sink for a moment after you put away your dishes. With a deep breath, you exhale and shake your head, walking towards your bathroom to prepare for the long day you knew you had ahead of you.

It doesn’t quite sink in that you’re going to have the full experience of this show, stage door and dressing room tours included, all thanks to Jaehee. You didn’t know how to repay her- getting her to accept your share for the tickets was hard enough.

But now you stood beside her underneath the giant marquee, flashing wide grins as Jaehee’s phone snaps a selfie of you two. The fangirl squeals excitedly and quickly uploads it to the messenger accompanied by some of her emojis before she pockets her phone.

Even though Jaehee had showed you the cast recording and you’d watched a few potato-quality videos on MeTube, nothing could have ever prepared you for the live performance that was happening before your eyes. Your friend was right, and you understood exactly why her adoration and support was so strong and unwavering.

Your eyes are glued to Zen the entire time he’s on stage, his voice absolutely captivating you with every note he sings. Each time he moves, it’s a sight so heavenly- the lights and smoke giving you the illusion that he was dancing on a cloud. And he might as well have been, with the way he glided across the floor. By the time the cast took their final bows, you found yourself wiping at a few stray tears that had escaped as you clapped rather loudly, you and Jaehee joining the others who were giving standing ovations as well.

It takes you a minute to collect yourself, sitting and chatting with your best friend as the rest of the people made their way out of the theater. Fortunately for you, Jaehee had already insisted on buying merchandise during the intermission, so there was no need to rush in line. You both made your way to stage door, the fangirl bouncing rather excitedly on her heels beside you. Swallowing, you turn to face her.

“So, Zen…”

“-Was so amazing, right? Did you see how beautiful his hair was? He didn’t even need a wig for this role! It’s actually that nice, and did you notice…”

You chuckle at your friend’s enthusiastic rambling and nod along, blushing a little as you remember all the details about the actor and his performance that Jaehee brings up again. Before you can chime with any of your own comments, though, a smooth, baritone voice interrupts the conversation.

“Aha, I see Jaehee here has already put in a good word,” the actor chuckles as he places a hand on her shoulder, squeezing it lightly. She bashfully stops mid-speech, turning to face Zen.

“I couldn’t help it,” she shrugs, giving the man a look. “You just did so well!”

To this, you nod, endeared at your friend’s display. You also try to drown out the screaming that has suddenly surrounded you.

“I did my best,” he says humbly before turning to face you. “Now, I don’t believe we’ve met. I’m Zen.”

He flashes his signature smile and reaches his hand out. You go to shake it, but he gently maneuvers his palm underneath to catch yours. Raising your hand, he presses a gentle kiss to your knuckles.

Somewhere in your darkened apartment, the final sands in the hourglass trickle down to the bottom of the timekeeper as you manage to tell him your name.

“I’d love to get to know you more and catch up with Jaehee, but I have some things to sign,” he gestures to all the people waiting. Zen speaks again before you can even begin to feel bad about holding up the line.

“Will you guys wait for me over here? I promise I’ll be quick!”

“Of course! It’s no trouble at all, right?” Jaehee answers before you can as she turns to you, waiting for your input.

“No, it’s not! We’ll wait,” you smile, linking your arm with hers.

“Perfect!” is the last thing Zen says, then he uncaps his marker and quickly makes his way down the line.

It looks like he’s shining. You’re not sure whether it’s just the sun hitting his alabaster skin, or stage makeup he hadn’t properly taken off yet, or the way he flashed his pearly whites- but he looked almost golden in his element. Jaehee catches you staring, but who was she to say anything if she was doing the same?

Once he’s out of good earshot, your friend speaks up.

“I think he likes you,” she says as nonchalantly as she could, pretending not to observe your reaction.

“What?”

Zen chooses this perfect moment to spare you a glance, to spare you a smile. Of course Jaehee catches this, too.

“He kissed your hand,” she tells you knowingly. There’s a look on her face you can’t quite read.

“He was probably just being a gentleman,” you quickly jump to his defense, swallowing slowly before smiling back at him.

“He doesn’t really do that to begin with,” she quickly responds. Mentally, Jaehee goes over all the times she’s seen Zen kiss a girl’s hand. Sure, the man was a flirt, but if she didn’t count all the times he did it to a stranger for the sake of formality, well… there was nothing else to count.

Before you can say anything else, Zen jogs back up to you, several gifts in hand. How can he carry all that in one hand?

“Alright, I gotta put these away before continuing. You guys can wait in my dressing room instead, I’d hate for you guys to get cold out here.”

Jaehee is surprisingly silent. She nudges you.

“Ah, that’s alright! Yeah, we can wait there,” you reply, shooting Jaehee a look after he takes the lead.

“After you,” he says, holding the door open.

“Thanks,” you mumble with a blush.

As you pass him by, his scent tickles your nostrils and you think another whiff will make you absolutely intoxicated. Your shoulders brush, and for a moment, you lock eyes- both of your faces falling into soft smiles.

You don’t know what it is, at all. You just met this man. Sure, he was devastatingly beautiful, but there was something else that was there.

The hourglass would never tell its secrets, but you had a feeling you were going to find out anyway.

zenwife:

Zen x GN!READER

General relationship headcanons

No this wasn’t requested but it’s spring break so I’m playing it again and mys mes brainrot <3

Warnings: mentions of smoking and drinking (briefly)

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anon-drabble:

the start to my new angst series. first up is zen. i hope you read and enjoy, even if you aren’t a zen fan. and please stick around for the others. there will be one for everyone.

(also fair warning, everyone voted for maximum angst so you brought this one yourself)

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requested: by anon

a/n: i feel rusty in terms of writing but I hope its alright lol

warnings:n/a

- “it’s almost 5 in the morning and I can’t shut off my brain” mod alex

Jumin

-it doesn’t register with him at first

-he’s unsettled but doesn’t make a big fuss out of it 

-refuses to call you Jumin

-perhaps Han, but that leads into uncomfortable Han Solo jokes from Seven 

-he’d rather just not address you by your name

-honestly is weirded out by it, but will never admit it

-crinkles his nose when he hears someone refer to you by name

Jaehee

-she think’s it’s pretty neat that you have the same name…at first

-a twinge of disappointment that finally there’s a new female member and she has the same name as her

-it honestly triggers some deep rooted abandonment issues for her

-sees herself as replaceable now that there’s someone there with her exact name, someone who is clearly more popular with the boys and is taking up what Rika did

-no longer thinks it’s neat, please give her a hug

Yoosung

-think’s it’s so fun

-not much to say about it, but he gets very giggly when he hears someone call you by his name,, or your name technically

-his head shoots up any time someone says Yoosung, not knowing which one he’s referring to

-out of two people with the same name, he’s definitely the one who’d say “which one?!” first

Seven

-panic

-goes through all seven stages of grief,, he added a few stages

-at first think’s it’s a prank, then that you’re a secret operative sent to torment him, then finally after doing an extensive check on you realizes that.. no that’s … just your name

-is sort of disappointed that you’re not something cooler, just a dude with the same name as him

-as his name isn’t well known in the chat at first, he’s incredibly uncomfortable suddenly having everyone saying it, and has to remind himself that it’s not him they’re referring to

-once he gets more comfortable with it, he’s definitely one to make many “twin” jokes, including “the second unrelated twin” references 

-will call you everything except for Saeyoung, but as a joke, he resorts to inanimate objects at one point

Zen

-uncomfortable with it at first, he hasn’t heard his real name in a while and having to address you as his old name was odd to say the least

-a lot of “how doesn’t it feel to have the best name” jokes

- “sharing is caring, I must care about you a lot to let you have my name”

-it doesn’t bother him too much

- “it shows your parents had good taste when naming you” “I wasn’t named after you” “but they had good taste no?”

Mystic_Messenger_Masterlist

Rules and other masterlists.

Hyun Ryu

romantic

none

platonic

none

.

Jihyun Kim

romantic

none

platonic

none

.

Jumin Han

romantic

none

platonic

none

.

Saeran Choi

romantic

none

platonic

none

.

Saeyoung Choi

romantic

none

platonic

none

.

Yoosung Kim

romantic

none

platonic

none