The devastation, the pain,on Obi-Wan’s face and in his eyes upon learning that Anakin is still alive has come for my fucking heart, gutted me, and left me broken. This is what I wanna see, the utter despair that these two men have caused each other. I hate them. I love them so much.
listen remember that one clone wars ep, and this scene happened? at first i thought he was talking about himself and this just came to mind okay dON’T EVEN LOOK IN MY DIRECTION
In this Short, easy Essay I will talk about how accurate this is to AniObi’s relationship starting now,
Obi Wan lost so many people throughout his life but still went with his Jedi Code and let them go..
Until Anakin’s betrayal happened.
Yes, he didn’t cradle Anakin’s body (ignoring Anakin’s body was burning alive) because he didn’t want to let go of Anakin. Ever.
He could move on from his Mentor dying, he could move on from his “girlfriend” dying, he could even move on from the person that hurt him the most! But he couldn’t move on from Anakin. No. The young man he loved the most. The young man he fought side by side with in battle. They both needed each other (minus the fact they don’t talk about their feelings. Because they’re dumb.)
He knew how to cope with the grief with Qui-Gon and Satine but he didn’t know how to cope with Anakin’s loss. He just didn’t want to let go of the single thread of hope that maybe, just maybe Anakin would walk in one day and grin at him again. Or scowl. He’d take anything. Just to see him again.
I just hurt for Obi Wan just thinking about it :( I could write more but I forgot how to from words right noooowkskdfjfnggldllwls.!;;!!;;:$$
Here are some passages from Jude Watson’s “The Last One Standing” that give me psychic damage!!!! This is the beginning of the short story—it opens with the fact that Obi-Wan is ruminating on Anakin:
He’s having conversations with him in his head, constantly consumed by rehashing old arguments and figuring out the perfect sequence of words. He believes he is dead at this point, Luke is still a baby so he hasn’t learned about Vader. He literally thinks he’s arguing with the man that he loved and killed, like:
Engaged with him so intensely… Grin or scowl, he’d take anything, any mood, any defiance, just to see him again. He’s aware that he’s violating the Code, not accepting what happened, not accepting the the man he knew and loved could have done the things that he did. This results in a depression so profound that I recognize it from personal experience lol:
He didn’t want to appreciate anything, a place of no color, flat light, dark shapes. It suited him now. Like fuck, dude, I want to forcefeed him some of my wellbutrin. When Ewan says that at the beginning of the Kenobi show, he feels broken and faithless? If he is feeling like the above? It is going to break my heart to watch Ewan do that. I cannot watch him self-flagellate and pine:
His longing for the past is so palpable you can almost taste it. Flying together, wingtip to wingtip, relying on each other, Anakin made him feel more daring. He’s consumed with how entangled their lives were, how much they shaped each other, how Anakin made him feel. He’s violating the Code again, clinging to those memories, that old identity, wondering what he did wrong, and never able to find an answer.
To have no one by his side, ever again. Master to none, life linked to no one. Coexist with memories he could not live with. His memory of Anakin like a living fire in his gut. Like, this is so painful lmao. I just ache with him and his grief, his loneliness without Anakin, without the rest of the Jedi. I cannot believe Anakin did this to him, and neither can he. CANNOT WAIT for the show to dramatize this all and ruin my life ✌️
Hi hello good morning tumblr, I was just thinking about how the Open Circle emblem was on like EVERYTHING:
…and how Vader had to watch the Empire gradually paint over it everywhereand OH GOOD BECAUSE VADER IS SO MAD AT AND HATES THAT LOSER WHO EVEN CARESVADER WILL PAINT OVER ALL OF THEM HIS DAMN SELF IF HE HAS TO.
But you know that there was a teeeeeeeeny sliver of Anakin that was upset about it. (To be honest 50% of the items probably ended up at Vader’s Lava Castle of Dramatic Bullshit “by accident”).
the best thing about obiwan and anakin is that despite enduring EVERY SINGLE trope of utterly delicious yet soul-wrenching literary star-crossed agony, is that somehow, on top of ALL that, we know in irrefutable CANON they are happy together for all eternity in the force
a week ago i had a dream with these two, obi-wan was wounded and he had to fly away from the battlefield, and anakin kissed him on the cheek and forehead as a goodbye, but i couldn’t finish what i started i’m sorry i’m weak.. just imagine anakin gently kissing obi-wan just– k bye.
