I love the satisfaction i get when i find new stim songs.. then i know i will have something to stim to for the next 2-4 days.

That moment when you want to do all your special interests at the same time but can’t choose one.. cuz same!

When you do online shopping am i the only one doesn’t really like starting on top of the page and then scrolling down to the bottom? I like starting at the bottom and then scrolling to the top. I mostly do it when i play dress up games to look for inspiration for my drawings.

But it depends on how much i have to scroll thorugh to reach the bottom of the page… Does anybody else do this?

Also merry belated christmas or happy holidays if you don’t celebrate it.

Well.. i’m to the final step in taking my drivers lisence on thursday. Bc on thursday i have my driving test. I’m really worried that i won’t pass.. bc i get overwhelmed really quickly. Any tips and tricks to be less nervous during the test that i can do? I have worked for it since may and now it’s November.. already half a year has passed.

I have a huge fear of failing…. I’m usually very hard on myself when it comes to failure.

Damn i’m stressed.. i have my drivers test in 9 days and there are many things which i need to memorize. On top of that i also i have a 5-6 page assigment to write in danish-history… plus i need to produce a short film in media studies for an exam. We also need to film outside of school… It all just feels so exhausting. It feels almost impossible to get through. I’m so afraid of failing my drivers test.

I also started high school and the days are really long. Thats why i haven’t posted.. i just feel way too drained of energy.

High school party

P.s all the covid restrictions has been lifted in my country aka Denmark!

Sooo i went to my very first high school party today. It’s almost midnight as im writing this.. i got home earlier than i expected i would. The party started at 19:30 and should end at 24:00..
There were a lot of people, lights, loud noises, very loud music and i couldn’t hear what my friends were saying (who btw are all autistic too). It was party that were rave themed.

And i had a mental breakdown and got sensory overloaded. I started crying. Luckily my friends were there to help me :)). But honestly i also thought the party was kinda boring.. i already started considering going home at 21 because the party was so boring. It has to be the most boring party that i’ve ever attended. Even tho it was kinda boring, loud etc. i’m also kinda glad i went. I discovered something new about myself and my boundaries. I have always fantazised about high school parties… but i found out they weren’t for me.

Do you have any similar experience regarding parties like this? If so i would love to hear them.