2nd and 3rd day

Yesterday was hard but I only ate because a guy asked me out and we order one drink for each other so I had to eat or probably get drunk as fuck lol (it was an amazonic drink). The rest of the day I try not to eat anything but tea and 8 water cookies.

Today was easier. I only had some chicken and a banana, until my grandma gave me hot chocolate and pannetonne but I threw it up an hour ago.

I dont do this very often but everytime I received bad news my anguish kills me until I do it.

Today bad news: One of my guys suddenly posted a photo with a girl that seems to be her new girlfriend. (We stopped talking on wednesday).

How can I not even have the decency or energy to at least write a proper, timely response to a compassionate note of moral support from a friend? And when did these insipid, literally-every-damn-day thoughts like “I’m cold/lonely” and “I need a hug” gain the power to alter my physiological ability to function??