100% guilty

I had a meeting with my schoolmates, there was so much food and drinks. I ate, and I ate A LOT. It was a baby shower, I think my stomach has a new baby because of all the food I ate.

Lately being drunk has brought to my life many disappointments and trouble. My friend with benefits and I had been fighting a lot because of this problem.

The fact is that being with him is only pleasant and exciting when I’m drunk or when I get to smoke weed. But everytime this happens before, he tells me he doesn’t like me when I’m like this. He adds comments like: “You just look so stupid” “You become unbearable everytime you smoke or get drunk”. 

The thing is that the last time we saw each other I was COMPLETELY drunk, after a meeting party with my school mates. I can’t remember what happened that night, but he is really upset. He doesn’t want to know anything about me or even hear my name.

Summer is coming and I’m starting my new life as a “proana” so I just have to wait to be skinny for him to come back right?

Five days

From 62.2 kg (138lb) to 61.4 kg (135lb).

My goal: 51 kg

I have to be honest, I havent eat any food but I had a few drinks with some friends. I think this is the reason why I havent loose any weight.

This weight was from last friday until today (wednesday), during the weekend I had some beers, on monday too and also yesterday just one and I had rum and whisky.

I havent eaten any solid food but the alcohol is the most difficult thing to let go of. Any advice?

No food tomorrow

Only water or fruit juice from any type.

No food tomorrow, I promise.

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2nd and 3rd day

Yesterday was hard but I only ate because a guy asked me out and we order one drink for each other so I had to eat or probably get drunk as fuck lol (it was an amazonic drink). The rest of the day I try not to eat anything but tea and 8 water cookies.

Today was easier. I only had some chicken and a banana, until my grandma gave me hot chocolate and pannetonne but I threw it up an hour ago.

I dont do this very often but everytime I received bad news my anguish kills me until I do it.

Today bad news: One of my guys suddenly posted a photo with a girl that seems to be her new girlfriend. (We stopped talking on wednesday).

My first day

It was a bit hard. I really tried not to eat but I couldn’t. What I really did was taking small portions of food the whole day and I think day by day I will see results. And also, Im doing exercise in order to get skinny in less time. I only have two months until summer and I have to be ready.

This is my day two, I only took breakfast and in a few hours Im going to the gym. I really don’t want to, but I’ll do it anyway.

Ana didn’t wrote anything about exercise but I’m adding this into my new lifestyle. Food is the reason of my problems so I have to get rid of it, and what I really need now is support to be pretty and skinny again.