#jtkchu is a loser

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How can I not even have the decency or energy to at least write a proper, timely response to a compassionate note of moral support from a friend? And when did these insipid, literally-every-damn-day thoughts like “I’m cold/lonely” and “I need a hug” gain the power to alter my physiological ability to function??

#not trek #personal log #depression #fatigue #spoon deficiency #ships intercom #nice people #tumblr friends #responses to tumblr asks wips #im sorry im like this #writer problems #emotional exhaustion #no self worth #early morning thoughts #being cold #bad feelings #being ugly #loneliness #sleeping alone #forever sleep #forever alone #unlovable #touch deprivation #intrusive thoughts #soul sick #jtkchu is a loser #jtkchus brain #stfu jtkchu 
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Mon, 23 May 2022 06:35:37

can’t believe life peaked for me when an alleged Shatner/Kirk lookalike anonymously offered to hug me through the internet

no, that checks out… what I actually can’t believe is that I turned them down because I have no self worth

#im an idiot okay #pathetic behavior #life lessons #when a gorgeous person selflessly offers to hug you #just say yes thank you #dont be me dont be a moron #billy dont be a hero #not trek #not really #william shatner #bill shatner #shatnerkirk #jtk anon #low self worth #low self image #low self-esteem #low self confidence #low self everything #depression #self deprecation #soul sick #personal log #for reference #early morning thoughts #touch deprivation #jtkchus brain #jtkchu is a loser #stfu jtkchu #regrets #insomnia 
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Sun, 01 May 2022 04:45:51

would captain kirk PLEASE report to jtkchu’s quarters with a phaser set on vaporize or obliterate or whatever and just get rid of them already?

#personal log #jtkchu is a loser #stfu jtkchu #i just told my one irl support person im sorry im like this #response was i am too #please just make me go away #put the universe out of its misery #not trek #soul sick #jtkchus brain 
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Sat, 19 Mar 2022 10:13:51

I’m sorry for being such a naïve and irritating buffoon

#not trek #personal log #please disregard me #jtkchu is a loser #stfu jtkchu #soul sick #jtkchus brain 
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Wed, 16 Mar 2022 19:30:36

do you ever just feel like such an idiot

#not trek #not really #personal log #being annoying #being a generally unlikable person #the cloud minders #star trek #star trek tos #captain kirk #james t kirk #im such a moron #self loathing #really want to hurt myself #soul sick #feeling like a burden #being a burden #sorry for being such a pain #jtkchus brain #jtkchu is a loser #stfu jtkchu 
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Fri, 04 Mar 2022 19:30:33
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