#depressing

i think about killing myself everyday.

They want me to live life like I had a choice

guess I have no choice but to comply

Bohdyna

“They want me to live life like I had a choice

guess I have no choice but to comply”

“I do my best to wash away the sight of you

I do my best to clean my slate

And make it better

But the damage, the mistakes

Are still there

No matter how much I delete

No matter how much I remove you from my life

The memories are there

The mistakes, the regrets still remain

People won’t forget what was and what happened

I am still accountable for things I wish I didn’t do at all

I am no longer that naive, idiotic girl

I’m trying to remove you from my life

But remnants of your remain

I can’t erase people’s memories

I can’t even erase my own

I’m better than I was then

I stand taller than I ever did

But my mistakes are still on me

I hold a throny rose for every mistake

Beauty came from them in making me grow as a person

But pain resides within

And they are there for all to see

Will people ever look past my mistakes?

Past my scars?

Past the times I thought I had to when I had a choice to not?

I am a mistake that no one will ever look past

Aren’t I?”

“Removing in my life”

-D.S.

3/27/2018

“I don’t cry much anymore; I just hold my breath and try and suffocate the feelings before they can suffocate me.”

—Kaelin Carmel. A