Hey y’all, it’s like 3am and I’m having a bit of a rough lil ride with my ✨trauma✨ and wrote this to calm myself down while I’m alone with my thoughts. I think it could maybe help some of you out there.

WARNING! This entire post is about sexual assault and how some of Karasuno would react to you telling them what happened. 

If you have gone through this please remember it’s not your fault. It never was and it never will be.

• Suga finds out after he notices you going through an especially rough day. The memories get too much so you end up telling him everything. Suga asks if he can touch you and when granted permission, pulls you in to a hug and doesn’t let go. He puts his whole heart into holding you and tries everything he can to make you feel safe again. 
• Tanaka gets angry. Not at you, at the person who did it. He gets so angry that he cries and punches a wall. He curses to himself about how he wishes he could have been there to help you.
• Hinata doesn’t know what to do, he starts shaking in a mixture of anger and heartache. He refuses to cry but tears still slip from his eyes as he tries to come up with ways to comfort you.
• Kageyama goes completely silent, his head down and staring at the floor. You feel scared at first, regretting telling him, thinking he’s mad at you. But he looks back up, eyes red and cheeks stained with tears. He wipes his tears with his sleeve and hugs you. 
• Nishinoya sits, shaking his head. Not wanting to even think about anything bad happening to you. He immediately asks for the name of who did it and swears to you that not just him but the whole team will make sure to hurt them just as bad as they hurt you.
  

Hey, take a bit of a breather before you keep reading. Have a sip of water and take a deep breath.

• Asahi uses all of his strength to hold back his tears. He feels a massive lump in his throat that limits his breathing. He holds your hand and does the thumb stroke thingy. He reminds you that “you’re never alone”, “it’s not your fault”, “it’s okay to be upset”
• Daichi freezes up. His fingers curl into a fist and he clenches his jaw. Yet, he sets aside his anger to comfort you. He says nothing, just holds you close to him and lets you speak for as long as you need to. You rest your head on his shoulder.
• Tsukki doesn’t know how to react. He feels an unusual need to protect you. He doesn’t hesitate to express his disgust that someone could sink so low as to hurting you, especially in that way. He sits with you and listens to music to help calm you. 
• You could almost see Yams heart crack in half. He stays silent for a moment, catching his breath as your story seemed to leave him as a loss for air. He can’t help but apologise for anything and everything. He holds your hands and presses his forehead to them. You feel tears drip onto your wrist. 
• Kiyoko holds you the entire time you tell her what happened, she rubs up and down your arm and rests her head on yours. She asks very few questions. She very quietly cries and hopes you don’t notice because she doesn’t want to upset you more. 
• Yachi the poor baby can’t fully comprehend it. In slight denial that someone could do something so awful. She offers to go with you if you decide to report it. She wants to make all of your pain go away but it kills her that she can’t do it.

Gotta sprinkle a little angst here and there I guess.
For real though I hope all of you are okay. I’m sorry if this post has made you go through some rough feelings, I know I certainly cried a lot while writing this. I’m sending all my love to you <3
I’m willing to write more of these if you guys have any comfort characters that you’d like some support from. 
Once again, it’s not your fault.
I urge you to please tell someone or speak with a hotline if you are struggling.

always around: wearing a monocle

ch 1

masterlist

-ima be real honest… this smau? trash.

-i haven’t even finished it yet but… i need to

-anywayssss enjoy?? or don’t..

Always Around

synopsis//hanahaki disease with a twist and love letters, what more is there to say?

warnings//pg13, angst?, emetophobia warning?, yachi is very ooc in this smau that’s all i’ll say…

updates//everyday unless said otherwise

status//ongoing

a/n // this might be my last smau SORRY ITS SHORT IM STILL GETTING BACK INTO THE GROOVE OF THINGS

note 1. wearing a monocle

note 2.

note 3.

note 4.

always around: therapist arc

ch12

masterlist

-how did we get here

-i don’t need a bf but boy do i sure want one!

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always around: refried beans

ch11

masterlist

-not kiyo thinking y/n is a genius….

-i was taking shots like nobody’s business yesterday lorddd

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always around: eye twitches

ch10

masterlist

-well… this smau is a dumpster fire yawns

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always around: with each other

ch9

masterlist

-someone put me out my misery

-do some of u forget i’m a boy…

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always around: you can’t either

ch8

masterlist

-RUH ROH!

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always around: everything’s okay

ch7

masterlist

- everything was NOT okay

-SORRY FOR LATE POST IVE BEEN BINGING STRANGER THINGS ALL DAY AND OH. MY. GOD.

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always around: moon walks away

ch6

masterlist

-bye imagine bringing binoculars to school this smau is shit

-OOPS ALMOST FORGOT TO POST HAHA

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always around: yowai mo

ch5

masterlist

-gojo tease! (i’ve never watched jjk)

-sniffles,.. guys i really hate this smau

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always around: one red flag

ch4

masterlist

-putting movements lyrics into my smaus is a full time job n i’m dedicated!!!

-I TRY BUT I CANR SEEM TO LOOK AWAY N U DONT CARE INSTEAD U MEET MY STEADY GAZE N WE GO FROM THERE… STAY UP ALL NIGHT REAL LOVE FOR THE FIRST TIME

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This is the same as predicting that 2020 is going to be a great year:

kiyoko simp nation, this one’s for you

This has probably been done before but I’m going through an obsession and I have so many thoughts about this so I had to do my take on it! So like a trashy Harry Potter!Haikyuu AU that no one needs but me…

• A lot of people think Yamaguchi is a Hufflepuff and that makes sense and its REALLY cute, but gryffindor Yams has my whole heart! Everyone is confused as to why the gentle boy is there at first, but he soon proves to be one of the bravest Gryffindors when he shows a pension for self sacrifice and impulsive courage, especially when it comes to Tsukki
• Tsukki is a ravenclaw, there’s just no way around it, he could do well in Slytherin but when the sorting hat mentions this to him, eleven year old tsukki shrugs his shoulders nonchalantly and says “they’re kind of lame” , he meets Yams the next day and he’ll never tell anyone this, but he actually stopped thinking for the first time in his life the moment he saw him
• HINATA COULD BE GREAT IN SLYTHERIN!!1 I know he seems like a dead ringer for Gryffindor, but imagine him being desperate for Slytherine because that is where his hero, the famous quidditch star referred to as the “tiny giant”, was. Not to mention he has such an endless amount of determination, despite the odds being against him, he really just wants to be great and sLYTHERIN WILL HELP HIM ON THE WAY TO GREATNESS!
• Kageyama is also in Slytherin which isn’t a surprise at all, but Hinata discovers something very surprising during their fifth year when Kageyama drinks too much fire whiskey and let’s it slip that the hat almost placed him in-hufflepuff, it’s his greatest shame. Hinata thinks it’s awesome! This amazing boy is cunning and determined but he’s also secretly very kind and hardworking! He wont admit it, but he falls a little in love with him.
• Yachi is hufflepuff and I love her so much she smells like flowers and busts down in the green house everyday!
• Tanaka is gryffindor, he and Noya are veryyy reminiscent of a certain pair of ginger twins that once caused mischief among the halls of hogwarts much like they do
• Noya is a Gryffindor as well, and he loves three things, Tanaka, Quidditch, and his future husband, Asahi
• Ennoshita is a sweet ravenclaw who is a surprisingly strong tenor in the ravenclaw choir
• Ah! Asahi is a Hufflepuff Prefect and he wears his hair down a lot and he radiates this warmth and it’s just so wholesome its nuts. He will marry Noya one day, he just seems to be the only one who doesn’t know it at this point, but from the piggy back rides to the soft smiles, it’s pretty clear where his affections lie.
• Suga is really fun because he’s hard to sort, they call it a Hatsall, when even the hat is a bit stumped. He’s smart, kind, sneaky, and chivalrous, so the hat let’s him chose. After much deliberation he winds up in green, a slytherin prefect, and it’s a good thing, because hinata and kageyama should never be left unsupervised
• Daichi is a Gryffindor, and head boy which is also good because Noya and Tanaka are a lot, and need almost constant supervision as well. Suga and Daichi definetly have a “thing” but you’d have to pull their teeth to get them to admit it
• Kiyoko is the head girl for Ravenclaw and her greatest joy is reading up on plants so she can flirt with Yachi in green house
• Kenma is a very unimpressed Ravenclaw who gets along surprisingly well with Tsukki and spends most of his time flirtin-I mean talking with a slytherin prefect
• Kuroo is a slytherin prefect, and damn if people dont love a bad boy, but he’s only got eyes for one odd little ravenclaw, he just loves watching kenma blush
• Lev is a hufflepuff, who spends the majority of his school years pining after Yaku
• Yaku is a ravenclaw who spends the majority of his years pini-avoiding that annoyingly hot hufflepuff, Lev.
• Kyoutani is a gryffindor, Yahaba is a slytherin, they’ve been breaking up and making up since their first year
• Oikawa and Iwaizumi are a slytherin powercouple, though they also fight nonstop, oikawa is head boy and Iwaizumi is the stereotypical brooding scary slytherin, they are extremely dangerous together.
• Bokuto is a gryffindor, with a big thing for people who have the one thing he doesn’t, a level head
• Enter Akaashi, ravenclaw head boy, and an angel straight from Bokuto’s wildest dreammms
• Ushijima is a Hufflepuff mainly because he is hardworking and loves plants. He is the head boy and also Yachi’s self appointed big brother. That is all. He also loves Tendou
• Tendou is freaky observant snek boi, lowkey the most dangerous person in the entire slytherin house, knows Ushijima has it bad for him and feels the same, but also loves to play with him a little
• Aone is the cutest Hufflepuff prefect, and everyone is super confused as to why big spooky boys keep getting sorted into hufflepuff, but oh well
• BONUS:
• Ukai loves his gryffindor sons and is the coolest advisor EVER
• Takeda has hufflepuff and it’s really cute, he also likes plants
• Takeda and Ukai are definetly in love but they obviously have to hide it but everyone already knows. Tsukki and Yama once caught them in the room of requirement-it was terrible for all parties involved.

Tendo

• “What if they think I’m a monster?” The redhead mumbled to himself, pacing back and forth.

• He was currently alone in his house, trying to work up the courage to ask you out at the Shiratorizawa new years party. All he had to do was head down to the dorm lobby and he’d be there, so he couldn’t be late.

• He just didn’t want to make a fool of himself if you were to reject him.

• His hands are very sweaty and he fidgets with the bandages around his fingers which he had forgotten to take off from yesterday’s practice match.

• He runs a hand through his hair, god why was he so nervous? You were just some person, why did was he overthinking this so much?

• He’s snapped out of his thoughts by a knock on the door. He opens his eyes wide, slowly walking over to open the door. He stops in his tracks.

• It was you.

• Why were you here?

• “Hey y/n! Why aren’t you at the party?” He asked, tilting his head, he stepped outside so the two of you could talk in the hall.

• “I just hadn’t seen you around the party and thought I’d check on you” you spoke, looking up at him. You would have assumed he would have loved the atmosphere. Maybe you didn’t know your crush all too well..

• “Oh!! Yeah I was just about to leave. Let’s go y/n!!” He said, grabbing a hold of your hand and dragging you back to the party.

• You giggled as he dragged you back to where you once were with such excitement. He was so fun and happy. You wanted to spend every year of your life with him.

Goshiki

• This precious boy is nervous

• He’s shaking and he’s so jumpy

• You two are at a new years party with Shiratorizawa, you two were hanging out as friends.

• Little did you know the wannabe ace had feelings for you, and at the moment Tendo was hyping him up so he could kiss you at the stroke of midnight.

• Grabbing yourself a drink and sitting down, you look down at your phone and smile as everyone has fun, you looked around, yet couldn’t find Goshiki.

• A sigh escaped your lips, your hand running through your hair as you looked around.

• Looking down at the clock you glance at the time

• The clock read 11:56pm, four minutes until the new year. God, would some stranger try to kiss you? Ugh, sounds awful.

• You look up to see a very stiff Goshiki, a pink tint on his face as he slowly sits down next to you.

• A smile greets your face. “Hey Tomu, where have you been?” You asked

• He jumped from hearing your voice, “I uh, I was talking to Satori-san!” He explained, which wasn’t wrong but he may not have given you every detail.

• You chuckled, looking over at him, “okay, just don’t leave me for such a long time, I got so bored without you!” You said extending your arm over the couch.

• “Yeah, I won’t do it again, I promise” he said, you noted how stiff and uncomfortable he looked.

• Roughly 3 minutes passed and you noticed it was 30 seconds until midnight, wow time really does fly by.

• You look at Goshiki, he’s twiddling with his thumbs, and he keeps glancing at you.

• You hear people start to count down, mostly Tendo shouting just to keep things entertaining

• 10!

• 9!

• 8!

• 7!

• 6!

• 5!

• 4!

• 3!

• 2!

• You feel lips crash against yours, your eyes widen looking to see who had just kissed you. And.. it was Goshiki.

• You were speechless. You had never considered dating him, but, he was always so sweet to you, and he hadn’t done anything wrong. Plus he was pretty cute. You smile into the kiss, playing with his hair. You could hear Tendo snickering from across the room.

Ushijima

• Today was the day

• It was the perfect opportunity to ask out the head of Shiratorizawas volleyball team

• That’s right, Ushijima Wakatoshi, the man of your dreams

• Sure he wasn’t normally your type, but there was something about him that made him special. There was something to him that made him seem special. He was so.. cool? You never knew how to describe him.

• The Shiratorizawa dormitory was hosting a new years party in the lobby, you put on one of your best outfits, you felt confident in your charisma to speak to your crush, which the male lacked.

• Glancing at the time, you read the clock.

• Shit

• 11:58 the clock read

• Oh shit, you spent so much time getting ready, you had completely lost track of time.

• You rushed outside of your dorm, you were so stupid!!

• As you rushed out to the party, you felt a sudden thud as you collided into a large mass.

• You fell to the ground, looking up you saw him, Ushijima. He stared down at you, an almost unapologetic look on his face.

• “Oh. Are you alright?” He asked, extending a hand, which you eagerly took, he hoisted you up back to your feet.

• “I.. yeah I’m fine, why aren’t you downstairs with everyone else?” You asked, looking up at the tall man, you were confused as to why he could possibly be here.

• He was about to answer before you remembered your purpose, “nevermind, what time is it?” You asked.

• “It’s 10 seconds until midnight, what is the significance of wanting to know the time so late at night?” He asked.

• “Okay listen Ushiwaka, I need to tell you something. I really really like you, and I’d like to start the new year with you” you spoke, looking up at him. You were embarrassed, but proud of yourself.

• You watched him kneel down to your height, placing a kiss on your lips, he pulled away slowly, but made sure it wasn’t too long.

Asahi

• Homeboy is stressed

• Currently Noya is trying to hype him up outside of the gym, since that was where Kurasuno’s volleyball team wanted to have a party, and though it wasn’t actually going to be a real party at midnight since most had to spend time with their family, they would still have a fun time during daylight.

• He definitely dressed way too formal for this, it was supposed to be casual but he showed up in a fancy suit, his hair all fancy, trimming his beard.

• He was ready to ask you out physically, but no where close mentally.

• Meanwhile you were inside the gym speaking to Yachi and Kiyoko, chatting about your new years resolutions and what you had planned for family. You guys agreed to all spend some time after the party and go out and have some extra fun.

•  Soon, everyone had arrived, music was playing loudly around the gym, cheap colorful lights for decoration, Takeda and Ukai actually weren’t there, they were getting drunk together somewhere in town.

• The time was roughly 4:30, a pretty good time for teenagers to enjoy themselves at a party. Asahi was standing in the corner, Sugawara was helping him this time.

• You glanced at the two, Asahi was looking more.. intriguing today, he looked nice, but nervous, was he planning on asking someone out?

• You pondered this though, glancing over at the two, Asahi had a bright blush on his face, and Suga seemed confident in what he was saying.

• Asahi was soon pushed out back into somewhere close to the center, Suga laughed as he watched the male walk timidly in your direction.

• You tilt your head in confusion, but before you had time to process what he could ever possibly be doing, he was already right in front of you.

• “Y/n, I need to speak with you in private.. is that alright with you?” He asked, you nodded, allowing him to take you to a more secluded area of the gym.

• “I..I really like you y/n! I’d like to spend my life with you! If.. that’s okay of course.” He spoke.

• You chuckled. Kissing this tip of his nose, “Asahi, you’re really sweet, ya know that?” Accepting his confession.

• You swore his face was red for a whole week

Suga

• Oh boy he’s cocky.

• Not cocky in a way that he was bragging, but he was definitely confident in his charismatic ability to woo you.

• At least that’s what he said to Daichi

• Don’t get him wrong, he wasn’t scared like Asahi

• Confidently walking into the Kurasuno Gym where a party was being hosted for the team, he noticed you were off more to the side.

• As Suga entered, you were thinking about how you would ask him out.

• A face dusted in pink once you both msre eye contact, Asahi had dragged the grey haired male off to the corner as he spoke about his crush, giving him some advice he pushed the taller male towards his crush.

• He laughed as he watched Asahi stumble towards his crush, he went off to do his own job.

• Walking up to you, he extended a hand towards you, “care to dance?” He asked, as a very spunky song started to play.

• The two of you danced around, laughing together, people watch, and though no one joined in, no one seemed to laugh or make fun if you.

• After the song was coming to an end, the male leaned in close, mumbling a quiet, “can I kiss you?” You nodded, your lips colliding into a passionate yet caring kiss.

Kiyoko

• Oh my god

• Can I just say

• This woman is the definition of gorgeous

• Btw in this story you’re a girl because I think the only man Kiyoko could get with is Tanaka and otherwise she loves women.

• I love her so much

• And so do you, she is the light of your life. She’s so pretty, and kind. She inspires you to do things you’d never do.

• The two of you were leaving the Kurasuno party to go to the sauna for an hour, though Yachi had to cancel because her mother was finally home for the day, the two of you decided to enjoy yourselves and have some girl time alone together.

• Once arriving at the sauna, you two rented out a personal bath, undressing yourselves you two got into the warm water.

• A sigh of relief escaped Kiyokos lips, she was definitely stressed due to having to deal with a whole team of volleyball players.

• You noticed her legs were pulled up to her chest. “Your legs, they’re covered in scars. I heard you used to do track and field but I didn’t think they’d leave that big of a mark.” You said.

• The females ears perked up as you spoke. “Oh, yeah. I fall quite often, I used to be so clumsy back then.” She giggled, tucking some stray hair back from behind her ear.

• “Well, whether you like them or not I think they’re beautiful. Scars make people unique.” You said with a smile.

• Kiyoko smiled, looking over at you. “Thank you, y/n. Your way with words really amazes me.” She said, turning to face you.

• Time passed, the two of you spoke, laughing and enjoying yourselves. Once you two were about to leave, Kiyoko stops you.

• “Before we depart, we should definitely hang out together a lot more. I like spending time with you alone.”

Lev

• Oh boy

• This man

• this stupid lanky man, doesn’t even realize he has a crush on you.

• Yaku literally had to spell it out for him and he still didn’t understand

• “Wait.. I’m in love with y/n? That isn’t possible, I mean sure I get really happy when I see them, and they’re really fun to be around! But I don’t like them like that.”

• Yaku had to go through so much to get it through his thick skull, “that idiot, those two of you are so dumb neither would even notice.” He mumbled.

• Now as Yaku mentioned earlier, the two of you are actual idiots, two dumbasses who keep eachother somewhat out of trouble.

• Kuroo was hosting a party at his house for the team, and being their manager you were invited as well.

• Knocking on the door, you were one of the last to show up to the party, as Kuroo opened the door, you walked inside and saw him.

• “Lev!!!!” You shouted excitedly, jumping into his arms, wrapping the Russian in a hug as if you didn’t see him yesterday.

• “Y/n!!!” The male cheered, picking you up and whirling you around. He was happy to see you, barely even thinking about what Yaku had said about the two of you both having mutual feeling which neither of you even knew about.

• The Nekoma party was going well, Kuroo was chatting with most of the team, Kenma was sitting in Kuroos room avoiding people, Yaku kept to himself, sometimes glaring at lev when he was being an idiot.

• The sun had set long ago, and the team was preparing to count ten seconds to midnight.

• As the countdown began, you and Lev shouted and cheered the numbers in unison, but just as soon as everyone was about to shout “1” you felt a small palm grip the back of your head and push your lips into the silver haired males.

• Pulling away with a laugh, you noticed that Yaku had a grip on both of your heads, the shorter male had forced the two of you into a kiss, which unsurprisingly both of you enjoyed.

• “That was fun y/n! Let’s do it again!” He cheered, a large smile on his face.

Aone

• Similar to Asahi, my homeboy is nervous

• He struggled to show it, but he does love you, he just doesn’t know what to do about the growing sickness in his stomach when he sees you.

• Luckily he got some help from the internet, telling how to flirt with his crush.

• Though date tech wasn’t hosting a party or anything, you had invited him over to your house to hang out for new years. Since your parents were out of town, you two had the night to yourselves.

• You heard a knock on your door, upon opening it you looked up to see the tall male which you had invited.

• “Oh! Hey Takanobu, come inside. You arrived later than I had expected, I didn’t think you’d even show up!” You laughed, walking him up to your room so the two of you could relax.

• “I’m sorry, should I have.. shown up sooner?” He asked, and before he could let you answer he remembered he had brought you something. “I brought you flowers, is that okay? I heard most people enjoy them on occasions like this.” He spoke in such a soft tone, needing reassurance for his actions. He was stiff, standing awkwardly at the door of your bedroom.

• You smiled, reassuring him that you were very thankful. You gestured him to sit on your bed with you, you hoped he’d make himself comfortable in your home.

• As he sat down, you smiled. The two of you spoke for hours, never once was it awkward for either of you. I guess that’s why Aone loved you, you were so easy to talk to, and you could always hold a conversation with him.

• As time went on, neither of you seemed to realize just how late it was, you had spoken for so long that you lost track of time.

• In a small break of silence, the larger male spoke up.

• “Y/n, I’ve.. known you for quite some time and though I may be scary, and you might hate me, I wanted to say that I like you a lot. I’d like to see you as more than a friend.” He spoke, a furiously red blush coating his cheeks as he sputtered out the words that came to his mind.

• You giggle, looking up at him you kiss him on the cheek, “I could never be afraid of you, Aone, you’re one of the sweetest people I know. I like you too.” You spoke with a smile, looking down you checked the time.

• “That kiss was right on time I guess. It’s exactly midnight!”

forgot to post kiyoko over here oops

I don’t know what it is with Haikyuu characters who’s name starts with a K but I love them