#im really sorry

“Sometimes people forget how hard it is to go about your day. How hard it is to just love someone who loves you. When depression hits you, you forget everything, you forget that you’re loved and you love someone. Because its this piece of shit that reminds you constantly that you are not worthy of the love. That whatever you set out to do won’t be enough because you are not enough. I feel this constantly. Some days I’ll be fine but days like today, breathing even crying feels like the biggest task in life. So, I want everyone to know, that this will pass and one day we will look back and realize that this had to happen, to let us become who we are today.”

- g.d (this will make us weak before it makes us strong)

Hello everybody! Some of you most likely noticed that I’ve been gone for a few months now. I have a lot of things happening IRL, and this week is also filled with exams, and quite frankly I’m only going to get more and more busy. There hasn’t been that much Baku content either. I’m kind of just… lingering around until season 4 arrives. I think it’s best if I take a break and come back around October. That way i can come back when MHA is coming back, and season 4 is going to be my favorite season, no doubt about that, so I won’t abandon my blog or anything. I’ll come back within 5 or so months. I love all of you so so much, and I’m more than grateful for each person who decided my blog was worth a follow! I’ll see you all when season 4 airs! 

Hey guys, its L here. I jsut wanted to apologize for two things. 1. Being the situation with the asterick. I didn’t mean to confuse anyone or make anyone feel like they are being left out. I’m working on a way to include everyone and not be problematic. 2. That rant I put up months ago. That was really not a response befitting the situation and not appropiate behavior for a mod. So again, I apologize.-L

deformititties:

MILF (Mutuals I’d Like to Formally apologise to after not responding to an ask or dm for weeks at a time. a kiss on the forehead for U)

I ACCIDENTALLY REBLOGGED A SANA POST- I BARELY READ IT I THOUGHT IT WAS A LUNA POST BC THEY SHOWED THE HEROINES COVER AND NAMI WAS LUFFY’S HAT ?? AND WHEN I LOOKED AT THE POST I REALIZED IT WAS A SANA POST- IM SO SORRY FOR PUTTING THAT ON YOUR FEED-

it took me so long to realize im so sorry

sana fans always have something to say abt lunami, just let us be happy please

!!! HUGE LIFE UPDATE !!!

So, I think I should reintroduce myself. 

Hi, my name is Redtomatofan and I’m addicted to alcohol and prescription drugs. 

I won’t go into much detail, it’s something that I’ve been dealing with for quite a while. So much has happened this year and it forced me to acknowledge that this really is an issue and I need to decide where I want to go in life - do I want to continue this slow suicide or do I want to get help. So I decided to get help. 

I’ve been attending individual therapy and NA support groups for a few months now. I’m alcohol clean, drugs not so much (I’m getting there) but the cherry on top of this whole recovery journey is me going to a rehab.

So yeah, my point is that I’m going to a therapy centre… next week (September 30th). Which is both amazing and gives me hope that I might get better but also it’s scary as fuck. I’m supposed to stay there for 4 months (till the end of January) and I can already tell it’s going to be one hell of an experience. 

Also this is where I really need to apologise. I’m so sorry to everyone who constantly keeps waiting for me to finish their commissions or Ko-fi requests. I have time until Tuesday next week (September 29th) so I’ll try my best to draw as much and as fast as I can but I can’t promise I’ll be able to finish everything. I have a shitton of stuff to take care of before I leave so I’ll be out quite often. On top fo that I sprained my ankle on Saturday so I walk extra slow too and it’s just the worst fucking timing.

I’ll try to be active on social media as well since being a part of this fandom, interacting with other people who love the same things and talking to all my friends is what keeps me going in all honesty. I’m probably not going to be posting any art however, I highly doubt I’ll have any privacy (I’m sharing room with other people) and I have no idea how much free time we have planned in our daily routines.

Again, I’m really, really sorry. I’m making this post to let everyone know I’ll drop in activity real soon but I’ll talk to everyone who is waiting for an artwork from me individually too.

Thank you everyone for reading and bless you all. Love you guys ♥️

Someone hacked my Tumblr and sent people messages asking for bitcoin. It wasn’t me. I’m sorry for the confusion since I haven’t been near a computer in several days…

Hey everyone. Just wanted to say sorry that I’ve been been quiet lately and not posting anything fun. I’ve been going through a lot of personal difficulties, including some mental health struggles. Don’t worry this blog isn’t going anywhere, I’ll be back to posting more regularly again before too long. I just can’t get my brain to work properly for me at the moment. I appreciate each and every one of you for following this blog! Even if we’ve never spoken, I still appreciate you for being you :)