Do you ever have those strangling, suffocating nightmares, where you wake up and you can’t fall back asleep because it was too horrifying? And then you just sorta stare off into space and pray you never see that again, and you go through so many steps just to fall into a restless sleep. I can’t. That was last night, and I am so scared to fall asleep, I am so scared of the dark, I can’t even walk to the bathroom without feeling panicked. I was impressed I made it to the trash can across the room without dying. I can’t stop crying because I am so. Scared. It was a dream, and it paralyzed me. I can’t sleep, I can’t move, and I am not a night person, but there’s no way I’m sleeping now. How does someone’s brain hurt them like this? When did I become such a scaredy cat??? Anyway, good night my loves, I hope you have sweet dreams ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Only a few hours left, I still have hope for Amelia appearing in book four.

lotuswhim:

i have a really important exam tomorrow to get into uni and my stomach already hurts. the worst part is that i have to go on my own by public transport and it gives me even more anxiety

i’m at uni waiting to start the exam, i feel like i’m about to pass out

i have a really important exam tomorrow to get into uni and my stomach already hurts. the worst part is that i have to go on my own by public transport and it gives me even more anxiety

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❤️My beloveds❤️

WHY

WHY IS IT RED

I can’t believe that I graduate tomorrow morning.

I’m actually so scared to move out of the state in 5 months

I’m so scared on what’s going to happen to King in the s2 finale :(

MARK YOU BASTARD

Eef i would die for you, there is nothing you could ever do wrong

If Unus Annus sees this before they go away pls know that you have done wonderful things for the world, and for me and a bunch of my friends and our mental health, I’m still vibing in denial rn

Sat outside to do some work yesterday because it’s finally nice here! Today’s the last day of classes for the semester (though I have a dress rehearsal tomorrow and no classes today) and it feels like there’s a lot to get done

I’ve been putting things off because every time I turn something in it makes the fact that I’ll be graduating in just over a week more real and that’s very scary but everything’s due so it’s time to put in the work and get ready to be done!

“It keeps me awake the look on your face the moment you heard the news.”

I can’t help but tear up every time I think about the survivors of the martial law.

The families who did not even find a body to grieve for.

The old activists that are forced out of their golden years by the same evil they thought they defeated decades ago.

The people under poverty who desperately need good governance.

I feel like we failed so many of our countrymen. How betrayed they must feel.

If i died, would anybody really care?

I just, i have so many urges to hurt myself, to end my life. The people around me have told me, they love me, they’d miss me, I’m worth more than i believe, life is worth living. But i can’t help feeling like they’re lying to me. I know that’s stupid, i think I’m just trying to convince myself they hate me so i have an excuse to end it all. It hurts so much, and it’s so hard to keep going. I know other people have it worse, and i know I’m being selfish by thinking like this. But i can’t help it. I’m scared I’m going to do something bad, I’m scared i won’t be able to stop myself. I’m so sorry.

today is my results day wish me luck pls