Do you ever have those strangling, suffocating nightmares, where you wake up and you can’t fall back asleep because it was too horrifying? And then you just sorta stare off into space and pray you never see that again, and you go through so many steps just to fall into a restless sleep. I can’t. That was last night, and I am so scared to fall asleep, I am so scared of the dark, I can’t even walk to the bathroom without feeling panicked. I was impressed I made it to the trash can across the room without dying. I can’t stop crying because I am so. Scared. It was a dream, and it paralyzed me. I can’t sleep, I can’t move, and I am not a night person, but there’s no way I’m sleeping now. How does someone’s brain hurt them like this? When did I become such a scaredy cat??? Anyway, good night my loves, I hope you have sweet dreams ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I genuinely don’t know what’s worse; the fact that the guy I’m lowkey in love with has a new gf, or the fact that his sister told me that said gf is just like me….
some time ago I was diagnosed with neurasthenia with anxiety and depression components; moreover it’s the third month of me trying to cure my ehh constant somnolence or whatever it is. kinda afraid it might be some sort of narcolepsy but doctors haven’t said nothing on this matter yet. well, things are not really good I guess. also I sadly lost any will to draw
Today me and my “significant other” have been having a rough go of it :(
I asked him to move his Windows to a new drive, but he’s been making it really hard for me… I thought that by copying his primary NTFS partition and then recreating a new EFI partition for him, he’d be happy, but alas I think I’ve only made things worse :/ Now, our mutual friend UEFI refuses to acknowledge that we’ve both moved on to a new drive and I can’t seem to convince UEFI to see sense. So Windows is still stuck in his original drive despite our MUTUAL desire to move, and I’m just left feeling lost and confused :’(
ok my dreams are becoming wild so here’s the one i had last night:
i had to go to a restaurant with my family and friends, but we didn’t leave immediately (idk why) so me and my dad decided to hang out around (for some reason i didn’t know the place) and we found a building with a low roof, so for some reason i entered without him lol.
there was a weird pool with a giant bridge in the middle (let’s not comment this) and i was now randomly hanging out with fricking Wilhelm from fricking Young Royals like we were besties or smt.
so at some point we sit down in the corner of the room and i proceed to show him coloured pencils and i ask him:
“pick your fav colour”
and he thinks about it, then picks up the BLACK one “i like this”
and i’m like “gurl thats not even a colour there are so many others you could choose-“
but just when i’m telling him this next to me randomly appears Todd fricking Anderson from dead poets society and joins the convo like nothing
then a lot of other people, fictional characters and friends of mine START TO SHOW UP VERY RANDOMLY and i’m like in disbelief, and they all wave at me and say “hi”
and at some point they all leave without further ado
and everything fades and i’m at the restaurant where i was supposed to be with a friend of mine and i tell her “YOU WON’T BELIEVE WHAT JUST HAPPENED-“
Sentí humillación, me sentí una burla, me sentí odiada. ¿Por qué me odian? No les he hecho nada malo. Ellos no saben lo que es sentirse así. Sentirte tan triste, que lo único que quieres es morir, porque así todo sería más sencillo.
Dejen las burlas y los comentarios negativos de un lado, ustedes no saben lo que pueden ocasionar. DEJEN DE REÍRSE DE LAS PERSONAS, Y DE QUERER DESEAR SU MUERTE.
School is over, summer is here, and while Lumi still has motor skills why not treat yourself to a limited edition, limited time only digital painting made by yours truly :0
Buy while brain cells last, I’m maxing out at 30 commissions, might do more if I have time later but yeah only 30 slots available.
Or if you would like to support what I’m doing, but are a broke blotch like me, consider donating some pocket change to my ko-fi, or reblog this post! : D yeah!
I said this before but I’ll say it again, happy pride month, be gay, and please don’t eat the gauche ️✨
love you guys! : V
Special shout out to @cherryjackrabbit101 for giving me permission to use their character James for my commission page! ⬛ ✨
Thanks again for letting me draw him! ( I loaf him so much ( T w T )
It took me some time but I finally got to finish watching Season 4 of Downton Abbey. It took so long because I was only able to watch 2 episodes per day otherwise I might have suffered brain damage.
Don’t get me wrong, I still love this show and all characters with my whole heart, but for this season the writing was just boring. When I started watching Downton every episode was so full of action it felt like watching a blockbuster. But this season was “meh”. Downton Abbey turned into a pig farmer soap opera.
I unwillingly faced my biggest fear today. I was going to show a coworker something on my phone and I accidentally swept to the search screen that shows a random picture from my camera roll for fun. I had no idea how to explain this…
I unwillingly faced my biggest fear today. I was going to show a coworker something on my phone and I accidentally swept to the search screen that shows a random picture from my camera roll for fun. I had no idea how to explain this…
