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okay so i closed request because i was backed up. Also sorry if I hadn’t done your request yet, sometimes certain request just dont inspire me but i will try to get to it!

ANYWAYS! you guys can start requesting now again i would appreciate if you guys requested more johnny bc i wanna write for him! But yeah get requesting! love ya!

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so i uh posted three new imagines one soulmate!au with haechan, one doyoung fluff and one taeyong fluff. I will be getting to the request i have in my inbox and I’ve also reopened my request. Next should be cuddling with chenle, morning after with ten and coffee shop au with ten. thanks for all the support! send me in more request here or dm it to me on my Twitter on @/heavenlyjaehyun

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{More Than Friends Sequel}

Chairman!Jaehyun AU x CEO!Reader AU

Summary: You find yourself falling deeper and deeper in love with the former CEO after overcoming your fear of love. Although there were rough patches, both of you are now stronger than ever. However, you realize that maintaining a relationship and a company at the same time can be very difficult, especially if someone is out to destroy the both of you.

Masterlist

{Previous/Next}

“Bet. He’s going to beat Jaehyun up again.”

Mark rolled his eyes at Ten who spoke with certainty in the backseat of Winwin’s car as they waited for Xiaojun’s arrival at the parking lot of the airport. He turned next to him and countered, “Please. You knew him for longer than I did and you still think he’s just a violent lunatic?”

There was a pause, Ten stared at him blankly and then replied, “Yeah.”

Mark chuckled in disbelief and the two continued to argue as they placed bets on Xiaojun’s behavior upon his arrival. Behind the wheel, Winwin tried his best to ignore the two manchildren and shut his eyes for some rest before he had to start the long drive back. That was until Ten violently tapped his shoulders and begged him to take a stance. He let out a frustrated huff and turned behind his seat, “Can the both of you stop betting on every little thing already?” He continued, this time in a slightly less irritated tone, “And Mark’s right.” Ten looked back at him in a betrayed expression before Winwin clarified, “As psychotic as he may seem, he doesn’t always do things without his reasons.”

Ten’s sarcastic laughter broke out in the back seat and Winwin rolled his eyes. “Remember Jack? We can’t shame Xiaojun for being the protective brother he is when we preached him for protecting y/n from people like that douche.”

Mark and Ten nodded in unison as they came to realization and Winwin continued to justify, “It’s true that we know Jaehyun is a good man who will never hurt y/n like that but then again, Xiaojun wasn’t around here to see how Jaehyun cared for her or how he always placed his friends’ needs over his.” 

A moving shadow in Ten’s peripheral vision caught his attention as his eyes widen. He turned back to his two friends and whisper-shouted, “Oh my god, everybody shut up. Speaking of the devil, he’s here.”

He tried his best to act casual as the figure moved closer to their car with a heavy luggage cart. Mark and Winwin shook their heads at Ten who acted anything but normal, sprawled across the backseat as if he was asleep. The two left their odd friend to play pretend as they casually greeted Xiaojun and helped load his large luggage into the trunk. 

Mark grunted as he tried his best to pick up the last suitcase and forcefully shoved it into the small, empty space left in the formerly spacious trunk. “Shit man, since when did you have this much stuff with you? Don’t you usually just carry a backpack and a guitar case?”

Xiaojun chuckled at the struggling man as Winwin slung an arm around Xiaojun’s shoulders and walked him to the passenger seat. When everyone settled back into the car, he let out a relieved sigh. “It’s nice to see everyone in one place.” He turned to Ten and raised his eyebrow, “Since when did you want to come back to Korea? I thought you hated it here.”

Ten suddenly jolted out of his sleeping position, as if the three men didn’t already know he was faking a nap, and responded immediately in a victimized tone. “Since your little sis needed help. I mean I do hate it here and LA is so much better,” he emphasized the last words as he continued with his hands dramatically placed on his heart, “But who am I to ignore a friend in help when I know I’m more than capable of laying success wherever I go?”

Xiaojun rolled his eyes and then proceeded to talk to Winwin as he started the car. “So Winwin why’d you come back to Korea?”

Mark’s laughter shook the moving vehicle as Ten dramatically complained about being ignored and Winwin replied amusingly, “Well I’m not as self-centered as the boy in the backseat, but I did come here to help y/n as well. The company was short on models and any employees for that matter, so we, along with Soojin, took the earliest flight back to the place that kickstarted our career.”

The car stopped at a red light and he turned to Xiaojun with sincere eyes, “After all, without y/n, the three of us would have never made it big in the SoCal modeling industry.” 

Xiaojun shared a knowing smile, “Baby sis did always have a gift at capturing and marketing models. Even back when she was just a freelance photographer.”

Before Mark and Ten could throw a warning glare at Winwin, he proceeded to ask Xiaojun with a hesitant caution, “You know bro, Jaehyun’s company really helped y/n flourish. Not only as a photographer, but an entrepreneur.”

Xiaojun gave an indifferent expression and Winwin continued to speak with his eyes on the road as the light turned green, “Y/n told me how the SM internship gave her an eye-opening experience into the photography world and even right now, as a CEO of a fashion and modeling company. There were some bumps in the road, but she never once regret meeting Jaehyun and finding such a great opportunity for her future.”

Xiaojun didn’t respond to his praises of her efforts. Instead, he quickly changed the subject as he scanned the roads in front of him. “Let’s stop by y/n’s place first. I ought to tell her I’m here.”

Winwin silently obeyed as they continued down the road with a “calm before the storm” tension that filled the car. He pulled up to the street of luxurious penthouses and parked at a vacant spot in the underground parking lot. The moment his car’s engine died down, Xiaojun quickly got off the passenger seat and into the elevator lobby. The two men followed behind cautiously while Mark subtly sneaked in a text to y/n to give a heads up that the big, bad wolf would be coming up.

~~~

“I’m moving in with you two.”

You, Mark, and Winwin stared in shock at Xiaojun’s sudden notice. Ten chocked on his glass of water in the kitchen while Jaehyun sat beside you on the couch with an unreadable expression. He sat with his hands intertwined underneath his chin to prop it up as if he was planning the move in already. You tilted your face towards him and slightly nudged his arm. “You’re not really thinking about letting my brother stay here are you?” You whispered at your boyfriend through gritted teeth.

Jaehyun calmly replied to Xiaojun with a serious tone, “I’ll be more than happen to let you stay here.” He then turned towards you and asked, “You’re fine with that right baby?” You stared at your boyfriend dumbfounded and gave up. “I mean, even if I say no,” you turned to your brother with an annoyed expression, “it doesn’t seem like he will listen to me.”

Xiaojun stared back at you with a smirk and clapped his hands together, “Great! I’m heading down to bring my luggage.” Ten, Mark, and Winwin all got up, ready to help him before he stopped them with a smile. “You boys already drove me all the way here. Just relax. I’ll take Jaehyun with me.”

You rolled your eyes at your brother who acted as if everyone was at his beck and call. To your surprise, Jaehyun did not hesitate to get up immediately. He gave you a reassuring smile and headed out the door with Xiaojun.

You sighed, exhausted, as the three boys plopped beside you on the large couch. You zoned out as they bickered about the odd happenings of the past hour and started making weird bets.

~~~

“Any more suitcases?”

Xiaojun shook his head and slammed the trunk closed. He narrowed his eyes at Jaehyun as he swung the guitar case over his shoulders. Xiaojun immediately grabbed the case from him and warned, “Be careful. This instrument shouldn’t be flung carelessly like that.”

Jaehyun apologized immediately, “Sorry, I’ve actually never moved luggage before. But there was that one time I helped y/n carry her photography equipment.” He shook his head and chuckled at the memory, “But she scolded me even harsher than you for not being careful with the cameras.”

Xiaojun unconsciously laughed at the image, “That sounds like my baby sis alright.”

He then quickly wiped the smile off his face and replaced it with a serious expression. He stepped closer to Jaehyun with a dark expression, “Jaehyun. Listen very carefully to what I’m about to say.” Jaehyun nodded out of instinct as his body stiffened unconsciously. “You are one very lucky man to have all of y/n’s heart. And even after all the shit you have caused, I’m willing to go easy on you since you’ve took time to fly me back here and let me move in.” Xiaojun raised his pointer finger at Jaehyun and harshly reminded him, “But you’ve broken the only promise I require of you and you better show me you can amend it.”

As if it was even possible, Jaehyun stiffened his posture even more and quickly accepted his commands. Xiaojun fixed the guitar case behind his back and proceed to walk forward to the lobby. Once they got on the elevator, he informed Jaehyun in a firm tone, “From this moment onward, I better see how much you are willing to sacrifice for my sister.”

———

— AWESTRUCK!

pairing: jeong jaehyun x reader 

genre: fluff | wc: 0.15k | disclaimers: none

[ : ]

jaehyun looks up to see you in all of your glory. not too much makeup, but enough to accentuate everything about your appearance just right. jaehyun watched you in awe, no words came out of his mouth. he couldn’t believe that he was even close to lucky enough to have you here with him, walking away from this as a cemented team with a future ahead of you together.

you reach over to his jaw , grazing his jaw with a feathery touch. you stop your hand on his chin, slowly shutting his mouth closed.

“hey hyung, snap out of it!” you hear haechan exclaim with a cheeky smile.

you hear light chuckles from your families and friends around you, causing you to chuckle to yourself.

jaehyun clears his throat, ears slowly turning red as he realizes his jaw dropped over seeing his beautiful fiancée.. in front of everyone he knows.. lee donghyuck, you’re dead meat.

© jjaehyuk, 2021. all rights reserved.

renmnin:

[16:09]

taking on the busy streets of paris with jaehyun.

[23:54]

boyfriend!jaehyun presses tired kisses upon your forehead as he lies next to you in the comfort of your shared bed. you feel your eyes flutter open from his touch as he drapes his arms around you. he shifts closer to you until you can feel his heart pounding against his ribcage through the thin fabric of jaehyun’sshirt. “are you still awake?” you ask him softly in a sleepy daze, his gaze flicker towards you. a small smile graces his lips, letting the ever-so-slight mark of his dimples show upon his cheeks. “yeah,” he replies, letting his thumb brush the side of your cheek. you return his smile, enlacing his finger with yours as you both lie still with limbs entangled underneath the blanket. you feel yourself nuzzle closer to him as you lay your head into the crook of his neck, earning a soft giggle from your boyfriend. jaehyunfeels his breath hitch for a split second, his eyes admiring your every feature as you feel your face heat upon under his intense gaze. he places a gentle kiss upon your lips as he whispers.

“god i’m so in love with you.”

Meant To Be Series

Very loosely based off of the song Meant to be, in the musical Heathers. Also very loosely based off of the tiktoks I’ve seen of said song.

Authors Note: I am not in any way trying to romanticize the behavior portrayed in these stories, it’s purely for entertainment purposes. Also Idek when any of these stories are gonna be written. Hugs and kisses to anyone reading <333

I can’t make this alone! Finish what we’ve begun!

Johnny x Reader

Warnings: Mature themes, abusive relationship, toxic behavior,

Word Count:TBD

Synopsis: You and Johnny had been together for years, basically growing up together. The two of you grew very dependent on each other. Neither of you knew who you were without the other person. However, now you want to explore this. To be your own person, to be independent. To be someone without Johnny by your side. You wanted to try being single for a little while. Johnny didn’t like this though, threatening you with everything he had against you.

Release Date:TBD



You were meant to be mine! I am all that you need!

Jaemin X Reader

Warnings: Mature themes, abusive relationship, toxic behavior,

Word Count: TBD

Synopsis: Jaemin was confident, borderline cocky, but you could understand why. A guy that pretty, that charming, that good in bed, there wasn’t really any reason for him to be insecure. Jaemin was a complete package, and he knew it. He always used it against you, saying that he was all you ever needed. Even when you told him that you just wanted to have a girls night out, he said you didn’t need them. “I’m all you need,” was his words.

Release Date:TBD

You carved open my heart! Can’t just leave me to bleed!

Jungwoo X Reader

Warnings: Mature themes, abusive relationship, toxic behavior, mentions of suicide, mentions of self harm,

Word Count:TBD

Synopsis: Jungwoo was always considered a nice guy. He was kind, charming, sweet, and purely just the most sensitive person you had ever met. In the beginning it was very nice, Jungwoo wasn’t one of those toxic masculine guys. However now, it felt like you couldn’t even leave him alone for more than two minutes. He clung to you, never allowing you to go out alone. Even now when you tried to leave, Jungwoo wouldn’t allow it, threatening to hurt himself if you did.

Release Date:TBD

Can we not fight anymore’ Please, can we not fight anymore’

Jisung X Reader

Warnings:Mature themes, abusive relationship, toxic behavior,

Word Count: TBD

Synopsis: You and Jisung fell in love fast, so fast that it had to be destiny. It was written in the stars that you and Jisung were meant to be. You guys were made for each other. Jisung was made for you, so you could write the little things off. Like how he ignores all of your pleas for affection. Or how he chose to spend time with his friends over you. Or how he would never argue with you, just instead telling you to let it go. You could write all of those little things off, because Jisung was made for you. It’s written in the stars.

Release Date:TBD

Sure, you’re scared, I’ve been there. I can set you free!

Jaehyun X Reader

Warnings:Mature themes, abusive relationship, toxic behavior, gaslighting

Word Count:TBD

Synopsis: Jaehyun would chip away at your sanity little by little. Telling you that what happened, didn’t actually happen. Telling you all the sweet little lies that you wanted to hear. Jaehyun always did make promises, but then turned around and claimed he never agreed to that. He would always claim that you must’ve been talking to someone else. He was even doing it now, when you told him that he promised to take you out tonight.

Release Date:TBD

Don’t make me come in there! I’m gonna count to three!

Jeno X Reader

Warnings:Mature themes, abusive relationship, toxic behavior, mentions of domestic of violence

Word Count: TBD

Synopsis: Jeno always did have a bad temper. He always told you that he would work on his temper. That he would try better. That it was the last time, that he would be better. And it was, or at least it seemed like it was. He was being nicer, sweeter, he was being Jeno. But it seemed as this time he was really on edge. Locking yourself in the bedroom away from him didn’t seem to help either.

Release Date:TBD

☆ [nostalgic] summer romance!au jaehyun
exactly on time for the valentine boy!……..well…….
find others here: johnny|haechan|taeil|taeyong|mark|jaemin|yangyang|yuta|sicheng|chenle|kun|yukhei|doyoung

• how you end up here, you don’t know, but you blame johnny suh because when things get weird it’s usually his fault anyway
• johnny’s smile is a thousand and one watts - he reaches out to pass you the beat up guitar case and again, you don’t even take it by choice, it’s nudged into your hands before you can really even say a word
• “im not joining yourband.”
  
• “it’s not mine - it’s ours.”
  
• jungwoo twirls a drum stick between his fingers and grins from his spot on the garage couch
• “no johnny - we all know it’s yours.”
• your lips thin and the only reason you don’t fling the case to the floor is because you actually like the guitar that’s inside. 
• granted you haven’t seen it since middle school and it probably still has that horrible sticker on the back of it that you remember picking at until all the little pieces you got off were uncomfortably stuck under your nails.
• “guys - it’s summer. we have nothing better to do.”
• “says you, i got an engineering internship at samsung.” 
• jungwoo chirps again and you try not to roll your eyes
• we all know about the damn samsung internship dude.
• “yeah - and i have to work at the family bookstore.”
• mark lee walks in, holding as many redbulls as he can fit between his elbows, they spill out and onto the space beside jungwoo
• you listen to mark open one and johnny groan
• “ok you all have something to do, but we-” he motions behind him at you “don’t have anything to save us from the boredom that is about to take up two months of our youthful lives!”
  
• “hey-”
  
• you cut in and all three sets of eyes focus on you
• “i have something i want to do this summer.”
  
• johnny’s long figure straightens in anticipation while jungwoo cocks an eyebrow and mark gives you an encouraging smile
• “im not going to tell you what it is, but it’s definitely not starting a band with you guys.”
  
• you lean the guitar case against a nearby wall and add a half-hearted shrug
• “sorry.”
• the walk from johnny’s house to yours isn’t long, it takes about fifteen minutes if you’re really going slow. 
• plus you’ve done it so many times, you basically set your body to autopilot.
• you think about it - the thing you want to do this summer before you go away for university and home becomes a new place and a memory at the same time.
• you’re not known for being sentimental, johnny has even gone so far as to label you as a bit ‘apathetic’ . but still you know this is your last chance to really enjoy the place you grew up in.
• you turn the corner at the street that leads down to where you live and in the hot evening air you hear something
• it’s the sound of a bike, the pedaling is light but the frame must be old because it creaks a little when it slows down slightly to maneuver to the left and pass you.
• you look up and see a boy
• brown hair still wet from the pool or a shower maybe, dimples at the corners of his smile, the two sizes too big white shirt fluttering behind him in the breeze
• for what seems like longer than a second - you lock eyes - his match the color of autumn leaves and teddy bear fur 
• and for some weird reason can’t stop thinking about them even well after you get back home
• is he new in town? i’ve never seen him before?
• finally managing to shake off the curiosity, you fish the shoebox you’ve been keeping under your bed out and open it.
• inside there’s only three things so far: 
• a copy of your graduation photo, a copy of johnny’s graduation photo, and the prom invite ticket that has jungwoo’s chicken scrawl on the back (he was technically your date, because johnny got proportioned by half the seniors and mark was too nervous to ask if you’d take him)
• this is what you were talking about. this is what you want to spend summer doing.
• you want to spend it remembering, gathering fragments of your life so far in your hometown with your bestfriends, so that when you move on you have a tangible piece of the memories
• the reason you were keeping it a secret though was because…..even you had to admit…….this was a little much 
• and you had built yourself a little bit of a hard shell so imagining telling the people you knew that this was your summer plan 
• well, you could already hear johnny’s voice saying something like ‘hey, this isn’t a hallmark movie you sap and facetime exists. do you think im not gonna call you at 3 am from across the country like i do now anyway?’ 
• you close the box and tap your fingers on the top.
• tomorrow, i’ll start visiting all the important places.
• your phone pings and it sound echoes through the otherwise empty library. 
• a harsh shushing sound comes from the front desk and you quickly answer it, sliding down against one of the bookcases
• you’d come here to see if you could find that old series you loved as a kid, the magic treehouse, it’s the books you and johnny fought over when you first met each other years ago
• you abandon that though because poor mark sounds like he’s having a panic attack over the phone
• “hey, you need to get over here - johnny is holding auditions for a guitarist since you said you didn’t want to do the band”
  
• “ok, so what? it’s just auditions?”
  
• mark’s pleading gets louder, “it’s auditions with JOHNNY - he thinks this is eurovision or something i don’t know please i can’t reign him in and jungwoo’s at his internship - i am dying here!”
• you sigh, making it long so mark knows how annoyed you are
• “put him on.”
  
• mark’s voice drowns and johnny takes the phone from him
• “what did i say with conspiring with them? we are shunning them for quitting on the band! what do you mean you had no other options? what do you mean my egomania is coming out? - anyway hey whats up?”
  
• “stop torturing mark and all the poor kids that showed up to audition.”
  
• “first of all, im not torturing anyone. that would be illegal and distasteful, im just giving my constructive criticism. second of all, if you want to give orders like that then let’s make this a fare trade off. come over and help me judge - i mean hold the auditions and then i will cease my so called ‘torturing’ ala my ‘criticizing’.”
  
• you huff - fine, it’s one day out of the whole summer.
• “ok. but you better have snacks.”
  
• “do you think i wouldn’t provide refreshments? what kind of monster do you think i am?”
• there’s more people than you expect showing up to audition for this band. half of them are just there to sweet talk johnny or mark,  but the others are all just. bad. 
• you never knew how bad someone butcher playing an instrument, let alone a guitar, but you’ve had that eye opening experience today
• “how many people left?”
  
• you mutter, face first into your palms and looking up with happiness when mark says only one!
• “hey, im jung jaehyun.”
  
• you turn and see the boy from the bike, the one with the softest eyes you’ve ever seen, standing in the entry to johnny’s garage
• he’s carrying his own guitar case - black leather and well worn but loved
• “well jaehyun dude, i hope you can at least play the damn thing because i feel like no one in this town can!”
• johnny groans and you straighten up a little as jaehyun comes closer
• he sets himself up and you feel something inside your stomach turn when he bends down and you see a bit of the tanned skin of his back
• “im not amazing, but i can play some of the classics.”
  
• “wonderwall?” mark asks and johnny snips at him as you try to think of something to say, but suddenly….your brain is fuzzy
  
• “play anything!” 
  
• so jaehyun does, he plays, and he even sings and the fuzziness in your brain turns to white noise and the little drop in your stomach is a whole bundle of butterflies
• you barely realize the johnny is already befriending jaehyun and mark is staring at him with those big, impressed eyes
• when you get up and jaehyun smiles at you
• “so what do you play?”
  
• johnny throws an arm around your shoulder older brother style and rolls his eyes before you get a word in
• “you’re actually taking their spot because they’re too busy to be in the band.”
  
• something seems to cast a sad shadow over jaehyun’s features - “oh, you’re not going to play with us?”
• words float through your head, none of which you can grasp onto, so you just shake it instead and let johnny ramble on about your so called betrayal
• you look at your phone and of course it’s nearing ten and there’s no way you can go to any of the other places on your list so you motion to mark that you’re going to head home
• “oh - i have to go too.”
  
• jaehyun slings his guitar case over his shoulder, “but ill come by tomorrow for practice?”
• johnny shoots him a big grin and then haggles all the social media jaehyun has out of him
• you don’t know why you just don’t start walking - but somehow you end up leaving with jaehyun, making that left turn where you first passed each other
• “do you live on this street?”
  
• you jump a little as you nod, “yeah - i think i actually saw you yesterday. you were on your bike so you probably didn’t notice me.”
• there’s a polite distance between you two, but jaehyun is smiling when he answers
• “oh no, i definitely noticed you.”
• you end up thinking about those words the same way you couldn’t stop thinking about his eyes 
• except this time, instead of it lasting a day, the thought lasts nearly two and a half weeks
• it seems jaehyun is doing a good job fitting in with your friends, considering you don’t get anymore calls from mark 
• and you actually start to make progress on your summer project
• you manage to get some ticket stubs from old movies, an old science project you did that’s still hanging on the walls of the highschool (open for summer classes), and pressed flowers from ontop of a hill where you almost break your elbow back when you were a freshman
• you’re plunging yourself into your past, but weirdly enough every now and then you’ll remember that 
• oh no, i definitely noticed you
• the six little words make you feel giddier than whatever memento you’re seeking out to tuck into your shoebox
• you try to tell yourself it’s just because jaehyun is new - he’s new and the memory of him isn’t old enough to try and find anything to represent him by 
• and he kind of represents everything you’re nervous about - new places, new people, new friendships …… the prospect of a new love
• love? 
• you look up at the sky as you swing back and forth on the playground you’ve come to collect something from for your memory box 
• that’s ridiculous. i’ve had one conversation with him!
• you swing your legs back and forth, slowing down and you think twice about jumping off when suddenly you feels someone gently push your back
• the swing goes a little higher and you turn your head in surprise to see
• “j-jaehyun?”
  
• he smiles and his dimples greet you before he does
• “i saw you on my way back from johnny’s.”
  
• he gives you another soft push and you hear that fuzzy noise that always turns the gears in your brain when you try to say something around him
• “is - is johnny being nice?”
  
• is all you can muster and jaehyun laughs, the sound melodic but low, just the way the baritone of his voice is when he sang
• “very nice, but he is a lot to handle sometimes.”
  
• you kick your legs down and dig your heels into the grass a little, jaehyun grabs the two chains of the swings to help you stop it
• when you turn you notice his bike is laying a couple of feet away and so is his guitar
• “what about the band stuff?”
  
• “johnny is trying to write songs and stuff, but actually mark is the one that i think has the talent for it.”
• you can’t help but feel the corner of your mouth lift up a little, he already knows the two of them pretty well.
• “what about you - do you write songs or music?”
  
• jaehyun lifts his bike back up and you take the guitar case to help him
• before you know it - you and him are walking side by side again 
• “a little, but it’s more about playing the guitar for me. that’s the part that makes me happy.”
  
• you play with your fingers behind your back, old nervous habits rising to the surface
• “by the way - why did you not want to be part of the band? johnny said you were busy with something but you didn’t say what.”
  
• you stop 
• i should lie, make something up.
• jaehyun stops too and the sounds of the bike wheels and footsteps float off into the air
• but for some reason, i don’t want to lie. not to him.
• “im……leaving after the summer, going to school in another place. so im spending my summer kind of…..im kind of cataloging this place. this town. i’m doing the whole put your memories in a shoebox thing which is so-”
  
• “awesome! i think it’s awesome that you want a part of your home with you, sometimes people are way too excited to get away from their roots.”
  
• you look at jaehyun, who returns the look with a comforting warmth you’ve never experienced before.
• it’s a different comfort than the one you get from your friends or your family, it makes your heart beat flutter - slow for a second, then so fast you think your body can’t keep up
• he starts walking again and you do too
• the silence isn’t weird. it’s a conversation in it’s own way between your two bodies.
• when you get to your house - you look at jaehyun again and you have two thoughts
• one is that you should kiss him. because he looks so…..kissable.
• the second, the one you ultimately choose, is to widen your eyes and go:
• “promise you won’t tell the others about it though, they would not let me live it down.”
  
• jaehyun laughs and hooks his pinkie with yours - his skin soft under the setting sun - “i promise.”
• and after being caught up in thinking about jaehyun’s eyes, or the way he speaks, you find yourself in the same repeating cycle again
• this time. it’s your regret. 
• you should have chose option one, because it’s looking like another opportunity to kiss jung jaehyun is not coming any time soon.
• and like the two times before, you throw yourself into your summer project to try and not think about it 
• (although you do, multiple times throughout the day, at one point blushing at the image of what could have happened if you DID kiss him and then getting snapped at by the angry man at the local deli)
• another couple of weeks pass and you swing by johnny’s because it’s a location on your summer memory list and also….
• you are curious about how the band is going …
• and you kind of a little want to see jaehyun again……
• you arrive and hear jungwoo’s voice to your surprise, followed by the sound of drums and johnny’s sharp “stop, stop, STOP!”
• “jungwoo, what is going on - did working at samsung make you into a robot who can only produce code and not drum to save his life?”
• “what do you know about drumming johnny? or coding? or anything in general?”
  
• “hey watch the attitude, you’re embarrassing me in front of jaehyun.”
  
• jungwoo snorts and you try to hide your own laugh but everyone turns to you just in time for you to hiccup it back
• “ah - the traitor is here!” 
• johnny sings and jaehyun gives him a soft elbow to the ribs
  
• “what’s up?” 
  
• mark smiles from his place at the keyboard and you cross your arms
• “nothing, hows it going - book any shows? write an album yet?”
• “actually, we did book a gig for your information”
  
• johnny waltz his way from the microphone and to a stack of flyers from his couch
• he hands you one and this time you do burst out into laughter
• the flyer, pink and way over the top, is an invitation to johnny’s end of the summer party
• well it’s actually his going away party his parents have planned for him, since he’s also leaving for school
• “johnny - you didn’t book a gig. you’re playing your own party.”
  
• “the parents are shelling out twenty dollars to each of us so money makes it a gig.”
  
• you look at jaehyun who secretly rolls his eyes
• “sure, sure. can i keep one of these?” 
  
• you fold the flyer and slip it into your pocket, this will make a good addition to the shoebox
• “oh are you going to put it in-”
  
• jaehyun starts and you rush over, hand flying over his mouth as the three other people in the garage stare
• “going to put it in……the trash. yes. going to throw it right out because really johnny did you use paint-”
  
• johnny flips you off in the kindest, best friend way possible
• you let go of jaehyun and throw him a look that he mouths an apology too
• somehow, instead of leaving, you end up staying and listening to them practice
• you consider it a break from your project and the day is filled with what you’d expect from all of them, laughter and jokes and banter that is only ok between the closest of people
• when they finally finish practice and jungwoo and mark accept a gracious ride home from mr. suh 
• you say you’ll be off too and jaehyun trots up right behind you, “ill walk with you.”
• this time, you hear less of the fuzz in your head and can actually keep up a decent conversation without staring at jaehyun’s lips
• you feel closer because of the time you spent today and you almost walk past your house until jaehyun points to the porch
• “oh by the way. can i see what you have in the shoebox?”
  
• you look over your shoulder at him, “like right now?”
• he gives a casual shrug
• “is that ok?”
  
• and now jung jaehyun is standing in your room. well he’s standing in it and then he’s sitting on your bed and rummaging through some of the most personal memories you have.
• his long fingers pulling out ticket stubs or notes you passed in class
• he chuckles at the graduation photo of johnny and dangles yours over your head when he refuses to give it back 
• you tackle him for it and he falls down against your sheets and you make the worst (or arguably best) mistake of your life
• when you straddle his hips and rich out to grab it
• only to look down and see him splayed open like the pages of a beautiful book
• and you remember your regret
• it makes your head spin, but you watch in slow motion as the photo falls from between his fingers and you lean down to catch it, but jaehyun presses up and catches your mouth with his.
• it’s sloppy, awkward - but only for the first few seconds - until you can both adjust yourselves from your position and do it right and then it is 
• astonishing
• because it feels like you’re kissing someone you’ve been kissing for years. decades. millennia’s. eons. 
• it feels like you and jaehyun have been doing this since the big bang.
• since humans first came to exist. 
• since, gosh you don’t know, since pangea freaking broke apart.
• you make out for so long that you lose track of time and it gets late to the point where the darkness of the summer almost makes you ask him to stay over
• but jaehyun is just so mannerly that he slips out the back door of your house with a final kiss and a promise to call
• which he follows up on earlier than you expect, showing up on your doorstep to take you out for breakfast
• only to end up with you two back in your room an hour later, kissing again, and again, and with more hands and less of his shirt or yours.
• the only thing that unglues you from him is his phone ringing for what must be the tenth time
• “it’s johnny”
  
• you breath against jaehyun’s neck finally
• “how do you know?”
  
• “only he calls ten times in a row.”
  
• and like your summer project, you don’t tell your friends about what’s going on between you two
• jaehyun says it’s kind of hard to hide the obvious evidence on his body - but you tell him to say it was your other neighbor, or someone from another town
• jaehyun agrees just because you pull the doe eye trick on him and he really is learning he can’t say no to that or to you in most situations
• but everytime before and after band practice - he’s with you
• sometimes he joins you on your little visits to the places still on your lists
• when you tell him the sentimental value behind them, you get a little fidgety because being vulnerable is hard 
• but jaehyun listens and he says that each memory of yours he gets to watch you relive, helps him learn something about you
• you don’t say it out loud - but hearing that makes you want to cry and kiss him and cry again 
• an other times, you two don’t do anything heartwarming or special, you just roll around with him, tangled up in one until he has to go
• with each day, summer comes closer to 
• and end but you fall deeper into each other at a pace that might be alarming if it was any other two humans but the both you
• and before you know it - it’s the day of johnny’s end of summer slash going away party 
• jaehyun is supposed to be there from like nine in the morning but he stops at your place before he bikes over
• kissing your forehead he drops something in your palm
• you open it to see his guitar pick 
• “won’t you need this for when you play?”
  
• “i’m using my backup. i just thought you might want to put that one in your shoebox……..since it could remind you of me……”
  
• he flushes and you bite back your lip, part of you is happy because he’s just so cute it isn’t fair but the other is coming to the daunting idea that 
• soon enough - im leaving too, will jaehyun just be another memory to me?
• instead of dwelling on it, you peck him again and ask, 
• “ill see you at the party?”
  
• the party is most definitely a johnny suh party
• the food is amazing, everyone on the planet is invited, and johnny is wearing something so bright it beats out the sun
• when you arrive, his mother spends half an hour asking you to take care of him when he finally leaves and you don’t remind her that you’re going to two different places
• you don’t see jaehyun or mark or jungwoo around - you assume they’re practicing somewhere for the performance while johnny is juggling both front lead singer and host
• the party is fun - it really is - but the words “going away” somehow still make you a little sick
• you’re about to escape to somewhere a little quieter, when you hear someone tap the mic on the makeshift stage in johnny’s backyard
• you see him - and the rest of the band - gather on as johnny introduces them and shouts excitedly that this song they’re going to perform, written by keyboardist mark, is all about new beginnings!
• jaehyun finds you in the crowd, a secret little smile on his lips before the music starts and to your surprise - and probably everyone elses - they actually do pretty good
• the lyrics are so very mark, but johnny brings a flare to the way he sings it
• jungwoo seems to have remembered how much he adores drumming again and the way jaehyun looks playing guitar is so enticing that you can’t help but feel a little pride in the fact that you’ve been tasting all of that for most of the summer
• the sick feeling in your stomach turns into excitement which turns into just pure enjoyment as you watch your friends and your boyfriend up there having fun
• when it’s over and they hop down to mingle back into the rest of the party, you really can’t help yourself and throw your arms around jaehyun
• you kiss him - which earns a gasp from mark, a half smirk from jungwoo, and a loud clearing of his throat from johnny
• you and jaehyun admit what’s been going on and when johnny just whistles you ask him if he’s not mad
• “even if i was mad, you would still keep liking each other right - so what’s the point?” 
• you hug johnny, and mark, and jungwoo, and like nothing has changed you all fall back into the swing of it
• the comfort of being around each other
• when you five are the last people in johnny’s messy background you finally decide to tell them all about your summer project
• “i knew you’d all say it was lame so i-”
• “hey hey hey - it isn’t lame. it’s not what i expect but i get why you’d want to do it.”
• johnny pats your shoulder and you feel jaehyun’s hand on the small of your back
• it’s the kind of moment you want to never end. 
• really, you just want this summer to never end.
• but when it does - when the day comes for the temperature to drop and for you to be on your way to a new place
• you feel the sadness come in a big wave
• johnny, mark, jungwoo, and jaehyun all come to say goodbye and you hold the shoebox in your hands - now heavy and filled to the brim with all your memories
• before you say it though, each of them adds something
• jungwoo drops his samsung internship ID into it
• mark places the paper he wrote the draft of the lyrics to the song they performed at the party into it
• and johnny chucks a burned CD version of it into the mix
• finally, turning to jaehyun, you take in a deep breath
• “i know the distance will be big so if you want to break up and-”
  
• he kisses you before you can finish your sentence and slips a small box that you don’t open until you’re already in your new dorm
• inside is a small bracelet, engraved on the inside are the words
• “i definitely noticed you. it was love at first sight”
  
• years later - jaehyun says those words again
• as he’s reading his vows 
• and you’re feeling the fuzziness, the butterflies, the comforting warmth, everything like a tsunami of all the things that are you and jaehyun
• and when johnny shows up to present the rings to you two
• they’re in that old shoebox 
• two little bands at the bottom of all those memories
• at the reception, you lean over and whisper to your now husband
• “where did you find that old thing by the way?”
• jaehyun nuzzles his lips against the cusp of your ear as you watch jungwoo and mark make fools of themselves on the dance floor 
• “under the bed, where you put everything you care about.”

☆ streamer!au jaehyun | *this post was commissioned 
warnings: catboy shenanigans, mildly nsfw (mostly power dynamic stuff)

that cocky, flirtatious, egotistical e-boy fevered sex dream jung jaehyun is actually just a worshiping, groveling, gratified by a sense of high humiliation and a single word from another person who treats him, to his own consent and want, like another nameless pick up in the dark.

there’s something almost risky about even being in the same room as jaehyun when he’s streaming. it’s not like anyone knows. not his obsessive fanbase that’s watching him through the webcam, not his other housemates - all professional esports players who secretly seethe with jealousy at the fact that all jaehyun has to do is flash a slither of skin and he gets more subs than they can even imagine to earn, sometimes maybe jaehyun even forgets because he’s trying so hard to play those stupid games of his. but you can easily remind him of your presence. not just in this room of course, but in his existence.

jaehyun is laughing at something, probably a donation message. he’s wearing the headseat - that pink one with those large cat ears he got as a gift. he’s even put that glitter collar on that was supposed to just be a joke, but that has become a signature. he lifts his large hand up, the palm open - leading down into strong arms and a wide chest - but then he curls it into a faux paw, looking into the webcam through his lashes and fucking meows. you almost laugh out loud, not because of how he looks, but because just that is probably driving troves of people crazy. all you have to do is search jaehyun’s name on twitter and its tweet after tweet: begging, imagining, manifesting thoughts that are far right of what you might call ‘morality’ or you know ‘general public friendly’.

you turn toward him, setting your phone down. he can’t see you over the monitors but you hear his phone ping a second later and his free hand that’s not on the mouse reaches for it. it takes maybe three seconds for him to read the message you sent and then you hear him start talking.

“gonna queue up the next game, but i gotta go do something real quick. mods can be in charge.”

he takes the headset off, which is a little sad, those ears on him are delightfully embarrassing. whenever you bring them up, whenever you bring up the whole catboy thing, jaehyun gets red down from his ears. “aren’t cats supposed to listen to their owners?” you’d smirk against his skin “i didn’t know cats needed so much attention. you shouldn’t be so desperate jaehyun.”

before he moves around his setup to come over to you - he stops and leans down - his shirt is loose and baggy and he winks into the cam.

“don’t have too much fun without my, right nya?”

with that he straightens up, stretches and makes sure the visible line of his hips shows fast enough that no one can clip it and get him banned - but that everyone can see it crystal clear. he finally turns and makes his way around the intricate desk where he spends most of his hours streaming to the bed thats hidden behind it.

“did you mute the stream?”

he nods, the edge of his pretty lips twitches and you think its a little fascinating how nervous he gets every time. you’ve been in jaehyun’s life for a while now, you think one day he’ll be acclaimed to you. to your voice, to your face, and to your touch. but he never seems to be - it’s like the first night whenever you decide he’s done enough toying around with his online audience and you are real and you are the one that makes the rules of the relationship thats blossomed between you and one of the most popular men on the internet.

you don’t get up, instead jaehyun gets down with his knees on the carpet and his face leveled at your hips - you put a hand out to hold his cheek, and although the room is dimly light, there’s enough that you can see something dull in the honey browns of his eyes. 

like he’s preparing himself for it - but he doesn’t know what it is.

you want to make a quip about how good he’s been already, this cat persona of his has already taught him where he belongs when he’s in front of you. you know, like this, at your feet. but at the same time you don’t want to jump right into all that. instead you take a moment just to hold his face still in your hand and then run your fingers up from the nape of his neck into his hair and tug at it slightly so his jawline tips up.

“what did my message say?”

“that i should come to you.”

“so why didn’t you do that immediately.”

jaehyun racks his brain, to most other people it would seem he did just that. but you’re referring to his flirtatious, don’t have too much fun without me, that he wasn’t obligated to pause to say. he finally figures it out and a small, breathy apology escapes his lips. you let ur hand slip back down to the nape of his neck and jaehyun swallows.

you realize he took the ears off, but the collar is still there. you reach out to slip your fingers through the glittering band and then tap your nails against his warm skin.

“get up.”

you let go and he stands, you follow suit and he’s definitely got some height and frame on you. it’s what makes everything so much more visceral for him. you might look like you shouldn’t have so much control over him but you do. jaehyun knows that if you were to tell him to fetch, he might as well get down on all fours and do it. 

“we should turn the webcam around.”

you put your hands on his shoulders and let your nails tap through the fabric of his shirt. it simulates, in jaehyuns mind, the urge to feel them on his bare skin. your nails, your lips, your teeth. he tenses though because his mind is inching toward the primal instinct of being touched and yet you also just offered to do something that could potentially ruin his career.

but jaehyun is at this point less a trapped fly in a spiders web as he is a willing and wanting participant in these mind games you spin around him. he swallows again.

“if you want to, i can turn it around.”

you look at him and jaehyun thinks he can see the magnetic pull in the middle of your iris that pushes all of his gravity toward you.

“you want your fans to see you? aren’t you hungry for attention.”

“if you think they should see me, if you give me permission then-”

one hand goes up to touch the collar again, tug at it, slip past it and rest on jaehyun’s pulse. your second hand is also already halfway down his arm. 

“i dont know, im asking what you think. do you want them to see? you basically offer yourself up to them everyday as it is. don’t you think they’d want to see something more?”

your hand wraps and unwraps around his wrist. you are not breaking eye contact with him and jaehyun’s mouth goes dry. 

“don’t you think they want to see their favorite catboy be treated like the pet he really is?”

you don’t change your expression or your tone. you don’t have to because the spinning mess in jaehyun’s mind is evident from how hot his skin his getting and you don’t even have to touch too much to know he’s excited and anxious, curious and terrified.

in his mind you imagine, and you imagine correctly, that there is a reel playing of him and you in front of the webcam - a little grainy because of the distance from the bed. 

his voice breaking in front of his thousands of viewers and your laughter is filling through the cracks of the sounds he makes. 

he thinks about how his body might look, a vibrant blush quilted over every inch. the way there are marks of contrasting blossoming colors on the dips of his ones and the lines of his muscles. 

how he looks flat against the sheets, eyes shut tight, spinning euphoria around his head and a flame from hells graces itself knotting lower and lower and deeper inside him.

his neck and your hand, his senseless and repetitive pleas for you that at some point sound like the ramblings of someone completely mad, slurring as spit roams down his chin because he’s become a mess and his body has given up all function to your whim. 

but then he thinks about how you would look - and then something in him flips. 

“i don’t want them to see-”

he almost says, i dont want them to see you. but he stops because its not his choice to make. if you offered to be in front of the camera with him, then he would abide by that wish no matter what kind of damage it would do to him or his job or his fanbase. because you’ve always been more than that. in one way because of the way he was infatuated with every little detail about you, but also because you were undeniably and inevitably a huge part of the reason he was even alive. some might see that kind of crazed devotion and say it was wrong, but jaehyun has given up on caring about what others might see and say. it is what you see and what you say and what you want to do - to him - forever.

you know what he had wanted to say and you know why he’d stopped himself. for that, you reward him with a small and chaste little kiss on his adams apple. he buzzes at the contact and you know he wants to envelope you in his arms. had you been out on the street or just enjoying some time together anywhere else you would have been happy to let it happen.

but in this little room, with that computer and webcam so near. the high tense situation of - what if the mute button isn’t really on? what if everyone watching could just see that im here, know that the precious idea of jaehyun that they jerk themselves off too isn’t the real him.

that cocky, flirtatious, egotistical e-boy fevered sex dream jung jaehyun is actually just a worshiping, groveling, gratified by a sense of high humiliation and a single word from another person who treats him, to his own consent and want, like another nameless pick up in the dark. 

you don’t think you can allow that. you let your hand snake from his neck to the edge of his mouth, you pry it open and let your finger graze its way inside. jaehyun leans forward a little and he could topple you backwards but he knows better and he wants when this all ends for it to be him pressed to those sheets with you overcasting him and every one of his five senses

when there’s a ping, its the sound of the message on his screen thats asking if he’s still there for the queue. jaehyun, with one look from you, would ignore it and leave his fans waiting for hours and his fellow teammates stuck without him, but you push away from him and say he should get back to it.

he hesitates, which only means he’s really considering disobeying, just to have you touch him again. but he ends up returning to his seat. and moments ago, half a second from breaking out into a needy, begging pant around the finger you’d placed at the edge of his lips for you to please start - please make him go back down on his knees - please just let him ….. please just let him get absolutely destroyed by you. 

he know plasters that inviting smile on his face, places the cat eared headphones on his head and pouts when answering what took him so long. oh an emergency in the house, it’s all good. 

“oh why did i mute myself? well i didn’t want any noises to bother you guys. the emergency might have gotten loud - but thankfully we avoidided that.”

you stifle a snort. from the way jaehyun has crossed his legs in his chair - his knuckles turning white on the mouse. you don’t think he’s all that thankful that an emergency between you two was avoided. but oh well, you can wait. you’re not in a hurry. jaehyun’s cute little job of prancing around the imagination of his fans is what makes him his money. and you smile to yourself because that’s all he does. he prances through their minds. for you, he’s readily available, cat ears, no cat ears, all those loose shirts and grey sweatpants …. or nothing at all. 

• pairing. prince! jeong jaehyun ✗ fem! reader
• genre. romance, royalty au, lowkey there’s some sexual tension
• warnings. implied smut??, not proofread

author’s note. wow it’s been a hot minute.

[ 10:24 PM ] “Tell me, my prince,” you traced along his jawline, eyes never straying away from his alluring lips. Countless times have you gained the liberty of feeling them pressed against your own, tasting his love. And that privilege went further beyond your lips. You felt them against the expanse of your neck, down the slope of your shoulders into the dips of your curves. He travelled north and high to south and deep on your body, and you let him. And even when you were apart from him, you could still feel the ghosts of his kisses on your skin. Enthralling, he was, for you could never get enough of it.

“To what do I owe the pleasure of your presence?” you asked.

You can feel his eyes on you, the corner of his lips lifts a fraction to which your eyes took notice of. You were already aware of his response to your question, having known him thoroughly in and out on the back of your hand. But you still wanted to hear him say it, to hear what your royalty has to say.

“Is it wrong for the prince to visit his lover?” he chuckles.

“Oh, forgive me, Your Highness. I was unaware of this relationship we had together.”

“Blasphemous, how unforgiving of you to say after calling me yourprince.”

“Your Highness, with all due respect, if I may say,” you jested, eyes filled with mirth, “you never once established the title you’ve bestowed upon me.”

“Oh, then I must beg for your forgiveness.” And with that, he lifts a hand to your cheek, thumb softly caressing your skin. You gazed back up to his brown orbs and, Gods, they were the prettiest browns you’ve ever casted your eyes upon. It would be a bitter injustice to call them any short of enchanting. Browns so deep, yet so warm—you could get lost in them forever.

He inches closer to you, closing the distance between your bared souls as his warm breath tickles your chin. You’re one step closer to salvation, your willpower holding you back from sinning you back to hell.

“In this lifetime, if you allow me, you are my lover, as much as I am yours. And in another life, I promise,” he whispers one last time before reaching solace in a place he craves so much, “… I will never forget you, for your and my souls are of the same.”

You’ve tasted the Gods and the heavens above, and you’re not planning on coming back down so soon.

[3.05 am] earlier in the day you had made lunch for the nct members since you knew that the hard hours of practising kept the boys away from actually taking care of themselves. it wasn’t easy to make a 21 people meal but your love for them and the smiles on their faces when they saw what you had prepared made it all worthy. soon enough all the boys had eaten and the oldest members suggested that you had a movie night, so there you were in between donghyuckandjaemin who were cuddling either side of you, johnny’s hands engulfing both you and jenowho was sat on his left side,whilebf!jaehyunpicked out a scary movie and sat, pouting that he didnt get to sit next to you, at the end of the couch. at the end of the movie everyone but jaehyunandtaeyong had fallen asleep and your boyfriend took a look at you, his heart swelling in content when he saw you sprawled in the couch, jisung asleep on the floor, clinging on your leg for dear life, while your one hand rested on his head and your other one held jeno’s foot who had somehow managed to place his body horizontally on johnny.jaehyunandtaeyong resisted the urge to laugh at the sight, fearing that they would wake you up, before jaehyun got up and carefully untangled you from the teenage boys, before carrying you bridal style. he heard taeyong whispering his name and turned around only to see the leader’s proud smile while looking at you two, before he muttered a small ‘well done’ to the younger boy. jaehyun blushed and took you away in his bedroom, placing you on his bed and taking a long look at your face, with your hair all tangled up and some drool coming out of your mouth. in this moment he had never loved you more. in this moment he thanked every god he could think of, for bringing you into his life and being not only an amazing girlfriend to him but an incredible friend to the people he called his family. he smiled to himself, placing a kiss on your forehead, before getting in bed and snuggling closer to you than ever, whispering an 'i love you’ and promising himself to love you more and more everyday.

As long as you’re here || Jung Jaehyun

You couldn’t exactly pinpoint the moment you realized you didn’t love Jaehyun anymore, or the reason behind this but you were pretty sure your feelings had vanished somewhere along the line. Maybe it was the thousand missed calls, or his messed up schedule or maybe it was the fact that you barely saw him anymore but it felt like there was nothing connecting your hearts anymore. Those thoughts heaved your heart more and more each day but you couldn’t bring yourself to confront him about it, not until you saw him in person, even if that would be the last time. Jaehyun had really been an amazing boyfriend to you, your rock during upsetting days and the home that made you feel safe from the outside world, but the weight of his career as an idol had caused you two to drift apart in ways that broke both his and your heart.

He knew that you didn’t deserve this. The rushed minutes he gave you, the missed calls and the secret dates weren’t something a person like you deserved. Yet he loved you more than his entire existence and even if it was selfish, he couldn’t imagine himself being away from you. As hard as his days were, as stressful his job was, he pushed through just to hear your voice for those 5 minutes he had a break, or to take a glimpse of your face, for those were things that kept him sane. However he knew that with the endless tour dates, you would break at some point and his worst fear would happen; you’d leave him. That’s why on his 3 day vacation he booked the earliest flight to come surprise you. And that’s why he found himself ringing on your doorbell at 7 a.m waiting for you to show up anxiously, like he was afraid of what would happen.

You woke up to the ringing sounds of your doorbell, stretching and looking at the time. Who could be outside at this time of day? You groaned, ruffling your hair with one hand before you got up and reached the door. You opened it and what you saw made your gut drop and your feet to take a step back in surprise before you were engulfed in a huge hug by the person you called your boyfriend. You couldn’t hug him back, as much as your brain told you you should. It didn’t feel right. The hug you once called your safety net, now felt strange, unfamiliar as if you were being hugged by a stranger. Jaehyun noticed your stiffness and pulled away before placing a peck on your lips.

“W-what are you doing here?” you said, trying to smile, but what formed in your mouth probably looked more like a grimace because Jaehyun’s eyebrows furrowed at that.

“I came to surprise you.” He said quietly, “Is everything okay?” He reached for your hand and his fingers stroked the outside of your palm lovingly.

“Yeah,” you said, an unfamiliar feeling brewing inside your stomach, “everything is okay.” You smiled and led him to sit on the couch. You couldn’t decipher what you were feeling. You imagined how this day would go, how’d you feel, but the reality was not even similar to your imagination. Your insides were burning with feelings for the boy in front of you, making you even more confused than you were before.

You sat him down, taking a seat next to him, while his hand settled on your lap and you took a minute to study his face. He was even more handsome than he was when he’d left. The tour definitely had matured him in ways, leaving him looking more manly than ever. He was barefaced, with the sunlight dancing beautifully on his clear skin and his eyes were looking at you, painted with the loveliest shade, a mixture of the sun rays and his eye colour. He brought a hand to your face and stroked your cheek softly, tugging a stray hair that had escaped your bun behind your ear before smiling sadly.

“Love, we need to talk.”

You froze, your heartbeat stopping momentarily, before sighing sadly and nodding your head. Words didn’t need to be spoken for the both of you to realise you were talking about the same thing.

“I’m sorry.” He said suddenly, voice shaking, making you look up at him, tears in your eyes. “I know you don’t love me anymore and I’m sorry. I should have been here, I should have been the boyfriend you deserved but I chose my job instead and I’m sorry.”

“I-it’s not your fault. I knew what I was getting myself into when I said yes. It’s just.. It’s too hard.” you mumbled, “It’s too hard when the only thing I want after a long day is to fall into your arms or at least hear your voice. It’s too hard when I want to go out with you but you either don’t have time or we have to do it secretly. It’s not your fault, none of this is, but it’s just harder than I expected it to be.”

You don’t know when Jaehyun’s hands wrapped around your torso or when he pulled you in his lap but you rested your head on his shoulder and you cried while he hummed a soft melody in your ear, trying to control his own tears as well. You cried until all the frustration left your body, before you realised that what was wrong wasn’t that you stopped loving him. You didn’t and you probably would never do. It was just that your love for him was so big, that being away from him killed a part of you. It was pain that made you feel this way.

“Do you still love me?” Jaehyun whispered softly against your ear while he drew circles on your back. “Please, don’t let me go.”

And that was when you looked up at him and seeing his tear-stained face and his puffy, red eyes made your own fill with tears all over again. You threw your hand around him, hugging him as hard as you could and you mumbled yes a hundred times until you were sure he heard you before pulling away and giving him a passionate kiss, conveying all your feelings.

“I’m sorry I ever doubted my love for you. I love you so much and as long as I have you, I have this, then I’m willing to fight for it.” You whispered, your hands now cupping his face, forcing him to look at you. Your lips gave his nose a small kiss, making him leave a tired chuckle before he once again nuzzled his face in your hair and exhaled.

“I’ll be better okay? I’ll fix this.”

You and him knew that your relationship was not perfect. It needed work and that would probably take a while, but as long as you were together in this, you were sure you’d come out of it alive.

[22.00 pm] Roadtrips with Jaehyun where he doesn’t let go of your hand throughout the entire drive and you guys spend the night in your minivan, in each other’s imbrace, gazing at the stars whilst talking about anything that comes to your mind, with slow music playing in the background.

This is from Y/n point of view and what they are going through now that they have ended things with Jaehyun. After this I promise things will start to get better for these two.

Part of the long term couples series. 

“I want you Y/n. There is no one else that I want but you.” Jaehyun grabs your hands trying to pull you in closer to him, but you won’t let him and pull out of his hold.

“You say that now but there will come a time when you won’t want me anymore.”

“You don’t know that. There is no way to know if that will happen or not. Why are you ending everything on a maybe?”

“Let me go Jaehyun, just let me go. We both know that this isn’t going to work,” you cry as you angrily wipe away at the tears that are falling down your face.

Curled up in one of the most uncomfortable chairs known to mankind you shake thoughts of Jaehyun out of your head and work on updating one of your patient files. Your butt had gone numb a good half an hour ago and your neck was cramping but you didn’t move from your spot. One of the reasons was because you were determined to get caught up on all of your files and to be the best grunt that had ever worked at this hospital and two because you were punishing yourself. You deserved to sit in this uncomfortable chair, doing paperwork, and being miserable. Then there was reason three because this chair was facing your hardest patient’s room.

You wanted to be close to them in case anything happened which was silly because everyone including them knew that they were dying and that it was only a matter of time. There was nothing that anyone could do to change that outcome. Yet here you were sitting outside their room like just your presence alone could stop death itself from coming. The reason you felt you had to sit here for them you couldn’t figure out and you didn’t want to dig to deeply into why you felt the need to sit here. You figured that if you did you wouldn’t like the reason why.

“How long have they been sleeping?” Jumping in your chair you look up at your patient’s girlfriend. She comes every day to visit. Today is no different expect for the part that she looks worn. There are dark circles under her eyes and her clothes are wrinkled like she has either slept in them or grabbed the first thing her hand touched and didn’t care what it looked like.

“He’s been sleeping for a few hours now.” You tell her. “How are you doing?”

You pat the chair next to you encouraging her to sit next to you. She drops into the chair her eyes never leaving the man sleeping in the bed across the hall from you two. You look back over at him and then her. She loves him so much you can see it all over her face.

“Alright, he tried to break up with me yesterday or… or he did break up with me,” your eyes widen in surprise. “He said that he didn’t think it was fair that I date someone who was just going to die. That it would be better now to just end things before I get hurt.”

“Can’t you see that I’m trying to end things before you get hurt,” you shout. “We were only supposed to be fuc…”

“Don’t!” Jaehyun almost shouts. “don’t finish that sentence because we both know that we have never been that. We may have said that is all that we would ever be to each other but from the first moment we spent together we have been anything but that.”

“Jaehyun I’m trying to save you from being hurt.” You plead with the man who claims that you have always been more than just a hook up to him. Everything is going wrong you were supposed to avoid all of this. Neither of you were supposed to get feelings.

“To late Y/n, the only ways that you can stop me from being hurt are by not ending things with me or by us never of starting this thing in the first place. And it’s a little too late for the second one.”

“You’ll get over me. You think that you are hurt but by tomorrow you’ll realize that you don’t even miss me.”

“Stop telling me how I’m supposed to feel. You can tell yourself that if it will make what you’re doing to me easier. But I’m telling you that if you walk away from me tomorrow, I am going to wake up and feel pain.”

Biting your tongue, you swallowed the words you wanted to say and push back thoughts of your conversation with Jaehyun. You want to say that you understand where he was coming from. That he thought it best to break it off now while she could still walk away before things got worse, before she got even more attached to him. He was saving her from the pain that he knew was coming, that is unavoidable. But before you get a chance to say anything the girl continues on.

“The thing he doesn’t understand though is that it’s already to late,” she bitterly laughs, “from the moment I met him it was already too late. It doesn’t matter that he ends things now us being together or not isn’t going to make his death hurt any less. And shouldn’t I get a choice in the type of hurt I’m going to go through?”

You didn’t know what to say to that. The fact of the matter was that there was no way he was going to come out of this alive. It is only a matter of time for him. The only question is when will he die. There is no chance for a happy ending for them. There’s no chance of them walking out of this hospital hand in hand. One of them is leaving this place no longer breathing and the other is going to have to go on living. You both hear your name being called and look to see that your patient has woken up. You leave the chair and head over to check them over. You feel the girl’s presence behind you and don’t stop her from coming into the room as well. Once you are done checking him over you leave them alone and return to your chair.

You watch as they talk and your heart squeezes. The conversation doesn’t look like it is going well, and you are about to get up and walk in there when suddenly the boy sits up and pulls the girl into the bed with him. He wraps his arms around her. Her face is pressed tight to his chest and her body is shaking. He runs his fingers through her hair, and you can see tears streaming down his face too.  He kisses the top of her head and must be whispering something to her as you see her head nodding occasionally. Eventually she sits up and kisses the boy before curling back up into him.  

“Looks like the two of them worked things out,” Tilting your head back you see the head nurse watching the two of them.

“For how long though. He’s going to die, it’s not like they know things are going to work out,” you didn’t mean for that to slip out, but it was something that you have been thinking about for a few days now ever since you ended things with Jaehyun. How could they stay together knowing that it was going to end? How could anyone be with someone knowing that it might not work out in the end.

“For someone who is extremely bright you are dull when it comes to relationships,” If it was anyone else talking to you like that you would have said something but this being the head Nurse and someone that you respected you stayed quiet.

“There is no way to know if a relationship is going to work out. There is never a guarantee. You just have to ask yourself if the person you are with is worth the risk and the possible heartache. Those two seemed to have decided that it’s worth the pain. That all the happiness they can have now is going to be worth the eventual pain that is going to come. And who knows maybe it won’t hurt as much as they think it will.”

The nurse walks away from you leaving you alone once again. You look back over at the couple who are holding tightly onto one another and have tuned everyone else out. Leaning your head back against the wall you close your eyes and let the last moments with Jaehyun wash over you.

“Stay Y/n, stay with me and let me prove to you that we are something worth fighting for. I can’t promise you that you won’t get hurt or that we won’t end. But I can promise you that I will do everything I can to prove to you that I am worth the risk of getting hurt because you are that to me. I want to be with you that I don’t even care that I could get hurt by you.” A sob breaks out and you cover your mouth to stop it. Your body is shaking from trying to keep the sobs in. You’re shaking your head at Jaehyun.

Jaehyun’s shoulder slump and he drops his head in defeat and you know that he gets it now. That he realizes you are not worth it. When he lifts his head back up there are unshed tears in his eyes and he locks eyes with you before speaking again.

“You can walk away. I understand that this is something that you think you need to do, and I won’t stop you. But Y/n just know that even though I am letting you walk out that door I am not giving up on you, on us. I will be here waiting for you, but you have to be the one to come back I won’t chase you. I need you to come back because you want to and because you believe in us.”

“Trust me Jaehyun you won’t want me to come back.” Somehow you manage to say the words without your voice breaking.

“I’ll always want you to come back,” Jaehyun replies without any hesitation. It doesn’t stop you from leaving. You still walk out the door and away from Jaehyun.

A tear runs down your cheek and you quickly swipe it away before anyone can see you crying at work. Pulling in a deep breath you focus on gaining control of your emotions again before you get up from the chair and make your way back into your patient’s room. You thought that the both of them were sleeping but as you’re adjusting one of the monitors you hear the soft deep voice of your patient.

“Can she stay the night? She didn’t get any sleep last night and I don’t want to wake her.” He watches you with hopeful eyes, you give him a small smile and nod.

“How are you feeling?” It was meant to be about his health, but he doesn’t answer it that way.

“Better now that she’s here. Yesterday I thought we would both be better off without each other. I was wrong, I’m better with her by me.”

“I’m glad you’re doing better,” you give his arm a squeeze before walking out of the room. This time you don’t even try and stop the tears. You let them silently fall down your face as you gather up your things to find a quiet place to finish your work where no one will see you in all of your misery.

Jaehyun and Y/n break up and Jaehyun is trying to deal with the fact that you left but he’s finding it difficult. 

Part of the long term couple series

Waking up to his alarm Jaehyun reaches over for his phone to turn off the alarm before rolling onto his back to stare up at the ceiling. For the past two days Jaehyun had slept like crap, and he can’t get the thought of you out of his head. When he had returned to South Korea two days ago, he was happy and excited to see you. Now he was laying in bed trying to figure out how everything had gone wrong. He replayed your conversation again in his head trying to figure out if there was something that he could have done differently.

“Jaehyun, we need to talk,” those words made Jaehyun freeze. He could tell by the sound of your voice that it was something serious and fear was gripping him. Ever since he left for his concert in Japan and returned you have been different towards him and now, he was going to find out why.

“Okay,” Jaehyun turns back towards you but keeps a few feet between the two of you. It felt like you wanted that, needed it and he was afraid that if he got to close you would take off on him. “What do we need to talk about?”

He watches as you take a deep breath. Your eyes close for a moment before opening again and it looks like you are fighting back tears. He starts to take a step towards you but stops when you hold up your hands telling him to stay where he is.

“I want us to end things between the two of us.” The words hit Jaehyun like he has been slapped. He knew that you were hesitant about relationships, but he didn’t think that you would end things with him. Not when they had been going so well. Well, they had been until his recent trip.

“Why do you want to end things? I thought things were good between the two of us. But ever since I got back from Japan you have been acting weird and now you want to end things?”

“I think that it would be best if we just ended this  now.” Jaehyun can’t understand why you want to end the relationship you keep avoiding the question and he needs to know why.

“Tell me why. Give me a reason why you think we should end this.” Jaehyun demands.

             “Because we’re not going to work out!” You shout. “We both know that you are eventually going to meet someone else and want to be with them and me being with you is only going to hold you back.”

             Jaehyun couldn’t believe what he was hearing. How could you possibly think that he would want anyone else when he has you? Don’t you get that you are all that he has ever wanted. You are someone who doesn’t hesitate to tell him the truth. You don’t care about his looks, talent, or money. You are the only person besides his members who understand when he needs time to himself or silence. How could you possibly think that he would want someone else?

“I want you Y/n. There is no one else that I want but you.” Jaehyun grabs your hands trying to pull you in closer to him, but you won’t let him and pull out of his hold.

“You say that now but there will come a time when you won’t want me anymore.”

“You don’t know that. There is no way to know if that will happen or not. Why are you ending everything on a maybe?”

“Let me go Jaehyun, just let me go. We both know that this isn’t going to work,” you cry as you angrily wipe away at the tears that are falling down your face.

“Jaehyun are you up? We have to be at the studio in an hour.” Jungwoo voice pulls him out of his thoughts. He hears the quick wrap of Jungwoo’s knuckles on the door before he walks down the hall to knock on the next persons door.

Pulling himself out of bed Jaehyun runs his fingers through his hair and sighs. He doesn’t want to go to the studio. What he wants to do is go to your place and try to get you to see reason and get back together with him.  Jaehyun knew that you had doubts about relationships that was obvious from the very beginning when you told him that you didn’t believe in relationships. But stupid him he thought you were changing your mind about relationships. Who didn’t believe in relationship and yet spent almost every night either at his place or let him come to theirs?

Walking out of his room and heading downstairs to get into one of the cars that would take him to the studio Jaehyun saw Yuta and girlfriend walking hand in hand to the elevators. Yuta was smiling down at her as he leaned down to take a bite out of the bagel that she was holding up for him. She then rests more of herself against Yuta as the continued to walk towards him. Going back inside his place Jaehyun waiting a few minutes until he was sure that the two of them were gone. He couldn’t handle riding in an elevator with the two of them.

Jaehyun was jealous of Yuta. The two of them had started seeing their significant others around the same time. The funny thing was that both of them had started to fall for people who claimed they wanted nothing more than casual hook ups. If anyone could understand what Jaehyun was going through it was Yuta. That was until things changed for Yuta, his supposed fuck buddy admitted that they wanted more and the two went from keeping things casual to a full-blown relationship. At first it had given Jaehyun hope that that would be where the two of you would end up. That all came crashing down when he returned to South Korea, and you told him you wanted to end everything.

Finally making it downstairs and into the van Jaehyun noted how everyone in the vehicle was looking at him but no one said anything. Then again what was there to say? They all knew what happened between him and you. Some of them had even heard the two of you arguing and then him asking for you to stay, begging you to let him prove to you that he was worth being in a relationship with. Closing his eyes Jaehyun leaned his head back. When there was a nudge into his side Jaehyun peeked open one eye and looked over at Johnny who was watching him with concerned eyes.

“She’ll come around she just needs some time,” Johnny whispers to him so the others won’t hear. Nodding to get Johnny to leave him alone Jaehyun closes his eyes again and tries to keep thoughts of you out of his head.

“Stay Y/n, stay with me and let me prove to you that we are something worth fighting for. I can’t promise you that you won’t get hurt or that we won’t end. But I can promise you that I will do everything I can to prove to you that I am worth the risk of getting hurt because you are that to me. I want to be with you that I don’t even care that I could get hurt by you.”

The car comes to a stop and Jaehyun doesn’t wait for the others to move before he is sitting up and exiting the vehicle. He has to get out and move. Once out of the vehicle he takes some large gulps of air and tries to shake off the memory that keeps haunting him. A hand lands on his shoulder causing him to jump. Taeyong stands next to him holding him in place letting everyone else file inside before he speaks.

“Go check on her. Maybe it’ll help you relax or just take a walk but don’t come inside. You’re out of it and there’s no point in you trying to record today.”

“I’m sorry,” Jaehyun starts but Taeyong stops him.

“Don’t be. We all have had times where we couldn’t work. Go do what you need to and if your ready we can record your part tomorrow.” Taeyong gives his shoulder a squeeze before leaving him.

He doesn’t mean to go to your place of work. When Taeyong had suggested that he go check on you he didn’t think it was a good idea. He was going to just walk back to their dorms, but he found himself walking towards the hospital that you worked at. He found you easily, he had hoped that he wouldn’t be able to find you and then could walk away with the knowledge that he tried but that it was pointless for him to come here. But there you were in the hallway sitting in one of the chairs, with charts stacked up next to your chair.

You weren’t looking at the chart in your hand but at something across the hallway from you. Whatever you were looking at it was causing you to look upset and you were about to get up when something in the room must have changed. You lowered yourself back down into the chair and a look he wasn’t sure how to describe crossed your face. It looked like you were sad but also happy. You jump when one of the other staff stops next to you and the two of you talk before looking back at the room. When they leave you get up and walk into the room that you had been watching.

When you leave the room, your shoulders are slumped and Jaehyun can tell that you are crying. He wants to walk up to you and pull you into his embrace. To hold you close to him and to tell you that it’ll be okay, that whatever is making you upset will pass and that you can let it all out. That he’ll be right here to support you, but he doesn’t. Because he told you that he would let you go, that he’d let you go but would be waiting.

“You can walk away. I understand that this is something that you think you need to do, and I won’t stop you. But Y/n just know that even though I am letting you walk out that door I am not giving up on you, on us. I will be here waiting for you, but you have to be the one to come back I won’t chase you. I need you to come back because you want to and because you believe in us.”

“Trust me Jaehyun you won’t want me to come back.” To him it sounds like you are lying more to yourself than to him. That you’re trying to convince yourself that there is no possible way that he could ever want you.

“I’ll always want you to come back,” Jaehyun replies without any hesitation because he means it. No matter what he knows deep in his bones that he’ll always want you.

It’s Christmas Eve and Y/n is not expecting Jaehyun to be home until Christmas day. But it seems that Y/n is going to be getting an early Christmas present.

Part of the long term couples series but can be read as a stand alone.

           Jaehyun quietly unlocks the door to your apartment and toes off his shoes in the entryway before he silently makes his way down the hallway towards your bedroom. He had told you that he wouldn’t be back until Christmas day but him and the rest of his members had been able to wrap up the video shoot early and were back in Korea by Christmas Eve. Jaehyun had thought about calling you and letting you know that he was going to be back sooner than planned but he had decided to wait and surprise you instead.

           As Jaehyun makes his way down the hallway he looks into the living room and sees your Christmas tree with the lights on and a few presents sitting under the tree. Jaehyun remember when you had dragged the fake tree out of your closet and told him that the two of you were going to decorate the tree together and you didn’t want to hear any complaining from him. When he was about to open his mouth to protest you quickly shut him down by saying “We are doing this as a couple, and I know it’s lame, but I want to do this.”

           That had gotten him to shut his mouth and help you set up the tree and decorate it. Once the tree was done Jaehyun had to admit that he enjoyed decorating the tree and he had a strong feeling that the reason had to do with the person who was standing next to him admiring the work that they had done together. Jaehyun adds his present for you to the rest of the gifts before he turns off the lights and continues down the hallway.

           Gently pushing open the door to your room Jaehyun sees you laying on your side, legs tucked up close to your chest, one of your hands is tucked under your cheek. Jaehyun found it cute that you slept like that whenever he wasn’t next to you. As much as you liked to claim that you weren’t a cuddler in sleep you were. Once you started to drift off to sleep you would turn into him and thrown a leg and arm over him. There had even been times when he had woken up on his side with you curled around him face pressed into his back.

           Moving to the bed Jaehyun sat down on the side and reached out towards you. He ran the back of his hand down the side of your face causing you to stir. Your face scrunched up in annoyance and your eyes started too slowly open. You looked up at him and blinked away the sleep and confusion at seeing him earlier than you had planned. Jaehyun smiled down at you letting you wake up and get your bearings.

           “Hi,” you whisper your voice filled with sleep. “When did you get back?”

           “Landed about two hours ago and came here as soon as I could.” Jaehyun told you. You nodded your head in understanding still not fully awake. You scoot over in the bed making room for Jaehyun.

           “Lay with me,” you tell him. Jaehyun smiles at you before he crawls into bed with you. The two of you lay on your sides facing one another. You waited about two seconds before you moved right into Jaehyun space.

           “I didn’t think I’d be seeing you until tomorrow.” You tell his chest. Your hand starts to trace up and down his side. The touch of your fingertips is so soft Jaehyun can barely feel it and he finds the motion calming.

           “We finished early and were able to convince management to let us go home early to be with those we care about for the holiday.” He tells you his voice starting to fade out as he starts to let the tiredness from work and traveling set in.

           “I’m glad that you’re here,” you whisper as you notice that Jaehyun is starting to drift off.

           “Me too. I was worried that I wouldn’t get to spend Christmas with you,” Jaehyun admits. You snuggle in closer to him and kiss his chest.

           “You made it, with plenty of time to spare,” Jaehyun nods his head in agreement.

           “Made it in time to spend Christmas Eve with you and then wake up and do Christmas day the right way. Now sleep Y/n otherwise Santa won’t come, and you won’t have any presents to open on Christmas day.”

           “You can just tell me that you’re tired Jaehyun you don’t have to make up stories about Santa coming. I’m an adult and know the truth.” You inform him.

           “Shh, let’s just pretend for tonight that he’s real and embrace all the magic that Christmas brings with it. Now close your eyes and dream of sugar plums.”

           You’re about to tease Jaehyun and ask him when he became such a knowledgeable man about Christmas. But you can see the exhaustion that is written all over his face and how he is fighting to stay awake and talk with you and while you want to you talk more to him and enjoy having him back home you know that you’ll have all day tomorrow with him which is more than what you were originally going to get.

           “Alright, let’s sleep and dream of sugar plums,” you stretch up and gently touch your lips to Jaehyun’s “Merry Christmas Jaehyun.”

           “Merry Christmas Y/n.” Jaehyun tells you before he drifts off to sleep. You snuggle into him with a smile on your face, eyes closed, and instead of dreaming about sugar plums you dream about yours and Jaehyun’s first Christmas together.

Genre: fluff-ish(?) | street racer!au

Member: Jaehyun

Word count: 960

Note: I guess you know by now about how bad I am at making titles. And this is a two part fic just because my imagination wouldn’t work anymore and I just really wanted to post something after a long time. I hope you enjoy!

You were born with a weak heart. No, you don’t have some sort of illness or anything. It’s just that you were very sensitive when it comes to risky things. Street racing was one of them, so now you’re wondering why you’re here with your friend Mark beside you, watching the very thing you don’t want to see.

Oh, now you remember. Mark had promised to buy you ice cream for the whole week and that he’ll introduce you to a guy. You were actually immediately sold because of the ice cream but being introduced to a guy was a bonus so why not. There you were, clad in a grey sweater with black ripped jeans and worn out sneakers, half watching and half wincing. Everything was just so scary, what if the racers missed a turn?

Mark kept glancing at you every time you yelped at the bikers’ little actions and laughed when you actually jumped when the biker almost missed his landing.

“Shut up, Mark. It’s your fault I’m here and suffering,” you said as you hit his arm.

“Your presence here is completely voluntary, though! You clearly said okay.”

“That’s because you didn’t tell me we’d be watching street racing! I wouldn’t have come even if there was ice cream involved. Why did you invite me anyway?”

“Well… I had a fight with Hyuck so I had no one to go with,” your mouth formed an ‘o’ at the revelation. “Also, you’re my best friend.”

You flashed a wide smile at Mark, feeling touched. He smiled back but his attention shifted to the race when the Johnny, one of Mark’s older friend, spoke.

“Now we have Jaehyun against Sehun!”

Jaehyun’s black and gold car was covered with stickers and scratches, showing how long he’s been doing this. Only his silhouette was visible through the car window but you could tell that he was a good looking fella. Just the aura around him and the way he revved the engine screamed handsome (how is that possible, you thought).

“Stop drooling.”

Your hand flew to your mouth but found no drool. Mark laughs as you hit him on the shoulder.

Soon, the race started and you couldn’t help but keep an eye on Jaehyun’s car, heart almost stopping every time he makes a sudden turn.

You didn’t know how long you held your breath until you found yourself gasping for air after the race. Jaehyun had won. You finally had a chance to see his face when he steps out of the car, pulling down his jacket’s hood as he accepts the cash.

His dimples were mesmerizing especially when paired with the way he smiled so widely at Johnny. His looks didn’t fit the scene. He looks like someone who would be in the library, studying for finals or in a dog park with his golden retriever.

Mark snaps his fingers in front of your face as he calls your attention.

“I said let’s go, I’ll introduce you to my friend,” he said with an amused smile.

You followed Mark with eyes on Jaehyun the whole time. Well, that is until a crowd covered your view of him. You pouted a bit. Seeing a cute guy was rare for you.

Kicking dirt off the ground as you walk, you continued following Mark until you bumped on his back when he stopped.

“What the hell, Mark Lee?” He completely didn’t hear you though as he was too busy talking to the guy in front of him.

“Yeah, this is my friend y/n. She’s the one I’ve been talking about,” was all you heard before you were pulled onto Mark’s side rather painfully.

“Ow, Mark,” you quietly complained while rubbing your arm. You then faced the man in front of you and was surprised to see no other than Jaehyun, the cute guys you’ve been ogling on for the whole night. He gave you a smile and reached out his hand.

“Hi, I’m Jaehyun. I don’t see you around here,” he said as you shake his hand.

“Street racing is really not my scene. I have a weak heart, you see.”

He nods his head in understanding before wrapping an arm around your shoulders.

“I’m sure if you experience it first-hand then you’ll get used to it.”

“Oh, no no no. I don’t think so. I might just die on the spot,” you protest. “Plus, I can’t drive.”

“Who says you’re driving? Chivalry is not dead, princess,” He pulled open his car’s door. “Hop in.”

“Look, you’re cute and all. But my heart literally won’t be able to take that.”

He laughed then approached you. Like, really approach you, you could feel his breath on the side of your face.

“Tell you what, you ride with me then I’ll give you a reward. It’s a win win situation, you get to drive with me, someone you’ve been staring at, and I get to drive with you, someone I’ve been staring at.”

You felt embarrassment wash over you as you listen to him speak. He noticed that?

“Of course I did. You’ve got quite a heavy gaze, I could feel it.”

You thought of what to do as to not look like a flustered fool in front of him.

“Well, deal then,” you reached up to whisper to him. “As long as I get to pick my reward.”

He smiled, “You got it, princess.”

“And drive me home. Just because I’m pretty sure Mark would dump me if I make him wait for like 10 minutes. He just-” you stopped. “I’m rambling. Sorry. Let’s go.”

You both hopped into the car, Jaehyun opening your side for you, uttering a soft 'milady’.

You sigh. This is going to be a long (ass) ride.