dream in a dream - na jaemin

soulmate!jaemin

genre - fluff with a little angst

pairing - jaemin x reader (i try to make all my imagines gener neutral unless requested otherwise)

a/n - im back i love jaemin sm bye! i hope you all enjoy

lowercase intended! *not proofread*

jeno version        haechan version

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- everyone always has a different way of finding their soulmate.

- one of your friends was stuck in a loop until they found their soulmate haechan and another one of your friends had their soulmate voice in their head.

- out of all of your mini friend group you have it just a little harder.

- you know what your soulmate looks like and their personality, the problem was just you didn’t know where your soulmate was.

- you only know his name starts with a j and that he was really adorable.

- you were able to communicate in your dreams, almost every night you guys would sit in some unrecognizable area and talk.

- today you were extra tired, you and your soulmate agreed to go to sleep around 10 pm every night so you would get to spend time together but you couldn’t help it.

- after two ap test and your friends being constantly lovey dovey with their soulmates at lunch you couldn’t help but want to take a i’m lowkey bitter about not knowing my soulmate nap.

- you were in dreamland for almost two hours when jaemin finally popped up.

- “baby, how long have you been waiting for me?” he smiled going to kiss your cheek.

- “i’m not sure, it’s been a while though. i couldn’t help it though my test and friends were stressing me out.” you whined slightly as he pulled you into his chest.

- you laugh when he tickles your sides trying to brighten your mood.

- “what did your friends do?”

- “oh it’s nothing they can help, i just get a little sad and jealous when i see them with their soulmates at lunch. it’s stupid” you murmur the last part looking down.

- he lifts your chin up smiling down at you, “it’s okay baby because soon we will meet. plus we must be the coolest couple who else gets to meet their soulmate in their dream every night?”

- you couldn’t help the smile that blossomed on your face. he always knew how to make everything better and make you smile even when you don’t want to.

- you guys just sit holding each other for a while and you can feel the sort of melancholic atmosphere.

- you knew both of you were thinking, what if dreams were all you were gonna have for a long time.

- you know its time to go when you can feel yourself slightly stirring in your sleep.

- he gives you a sad smile, a smile nonetheless, kissing your cheek before you wake up.

- you still feel kinda sad but with a more determination to find your soulmate, wanting to prove dreams would not be the only thing you have.

- you ask your friends if they or their soulmates know a boy with golden brown hair and name starts with a j.

- they all say they know nothing and you feel slightly defeated but you promised yourself you wouldn’t give up!

- you started to go later and later into your dreams (which was bad because you guys only had a limited amount of time starting) because you would spend most of your time after school exploring new areas in hopes of finding your love.

- one night your mom requested you come straight home and you took a nice loooongggggg nap and you saw jaemin waiting there for you with an expression that is a mixture of annoyance and worry.

- you wrapped your arms around him but he didn’t return the hug and you looked up at him confused.

- “what’s wrong, honey?”

- “why do you keep coming into your dreams later? you know our time is limited already. i haven’t even seen you properly for a month.”

- well you didn’t really wanna tell him you were looking for him because he told you before he thinks you will meet when the time is right and that spending time together in your dreams was worth the wait.

- “i’ve just been busy is all.” you said softly trying not to upset him. unfortunately that didn’t seem to work.

- “you must mistake me for a fool. i’m your soulmate, you think i don’t know that you’ve been wandering around everywhere trying to find me again?”

- you kinda gasped a little but you knew jaemin had always been very perceptive and you aren’t exactly an expert in hiding things.

- he could see the sad look on your face so he tried to calm down but he couldn’t help the clear annoyance in his voice.

- “baby, you were too busy worrying about me that you didn’t even stop to think about yourself. what if your wandering lead you into a bad area, did you even think about the possibility of us not being close to each other?“

- before you even got the chance to respond you woke up because your mom was calling you for dinner and told you the next day you would be visiting your cousins for the weekend.

- so the next day, you guys pull up to your cousins house and shes like “omg i’m sorry if i knew you were coming I wouldn’t have invited friends over.”

- and you tell her it’s okay you’ll just chill in the living room and catch up with the babies and everyone else.

- so an hour later your cousins friends are walking through the living room and you look up and your heart drops.

- it’s him.

- you look down because you start to get nervous because i mean your meeting the love of your life.

- but its too late because he’s already tackling you into a hug.

- “i’m so happy we finally met baby.”

- “honey, can you tell me your name.” you try to say with your normal voice but he’s hugging you too tight.

- “oh yeah i forgot we don’t know that about each other.” he laughs.

- “i’m na jaemin and i’m your soulmate.”

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// nct dream jisung dnyl edit

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room tour!!

hey guys. I’m sorry I haven’t been here at all, but summer break is actually super busy for me and I POSTED A ROOM TOUR of my kpop inspired room. please check it out and help me spread the video. tysm ily and i’ll come back with new edits soon! ❤️ thank you for always supporting me

[3.05 pm] Sitting on some random seat, close enough to be able to see Donghyuck MCing for this year’s ISAC, you couldn’t help but smile lovingly at the sight of your nervous boyfriend looking at the crowd in search of you and sighing when he finds you, sending you a small -and unnoticeable- wink.

[6.05 pm] Sneaking kisses with Jeno in between rehearsals, careful not to get caught by the other idols. His hands are on your waist, while he has pinned you against the janitor’s closet, his fingers caressing your sides lovingly, looking at you with his famous crescent moon-like eyes while he leans down to give you a small kiss on your lips, mumbling he loves you against your lips.

[12.05 pm] Mark finished today’s practice, covered in sweat and exhausted beyond limits. Being an idol had it’s ups and downs and some days were harder than others; today being one of them. Suddenly, a thought came to his mind and he couldn’t help but smile softly to himself when he pictured you as a small blanket burrito, sleeping on the bed, your cheeks cutely smashed against the pillows just like they always were when you were sleeping. He couldn’t help his heart from thumping a bit harder in his chest at the realization that soon enough, he’d be in bed, in the arms of the person that made his bad days bright, the person that made all of his worries go away, the person that was his home.

[3.04 pm]ghost!johnny purposely throwing things on the floor just so he can check out your ass when you bend down to pick them up.

[12.00 am] You and Mark chasing Pokémons in the middle of the night, both too competitive to stop, even if you knew that you’d be hearing it from your managers when you got back to your dorms.

[3.05 am] earlier in the day you had made lunch for the nct members since you knew that the hard hours of practising kept the boys away from actually taking care of themselves. it wasn’t easy to make a 21 people meal but your love for them and the smiles on their faces when they saw what you had prepared made it all worthy. soon enough all the boys had eaten and the oldest members suggested that you had a movie night, so there you were in between donghyuckandjaemin who were cuddling either side of you, johnny’s hands engulfing both you and jenowho was sat on his left side,whilebf!jaehyunpicked out a scary movie and sat, pouting that he didnt get to sit next to you, at the end of the couch. at the end of the movie everyone but jaehyunandtaeyong had fallen asleep and your boyfriend took a look at you, his heart swelling in content when he saw you sprawled in the couch, jisung asleep on the floor, clinging on your leg for dear life, while your one hand rested on his head and your other one held jeno’s foot who had somehow managed to place his body horizontally on johnny.jaehyunandtaeyong resisted the urge to laugh at the sight, fearing that they would wake you up, before jaehyun got up and carefully untangled you from the teenage boys, before carrying you bridal style. he heard taeyong whispering his name and turned around only to see the leader’s proud smile while looking at you two, before he muttered a small ‘well done’ to the younger boy. jaehyun blushed and took you away in his bedroom, placing you on his bed and taking a long look at your face, with your hair all tangled up and some drool coming out of your mouth. in this moment he had never loved you more. in this moment he thanked every god he could think of, for bringing you into his life and being not only an amazing girlfriend to him but an incredible friend to the people he called his family. he smiled to himself, placing a kiss on your forehead, before getting in bed and snuggling closer to you than ever, whispering an 'i love you’ and promising himself to love you more and more everyday.

[3.04 pm] you were sitting next to badboy!jaeminon the way back from school, when he suddenly took your hand in his, interlocking your fingers with his own. you took a look at him in surprise only to see him facing forward with the tiniest bit of smile framing his beautiful face and you swore you could see the softest tint of red painting his cheeks

[11.05 pm] you’re laying on jeno’s chest, the noices from the bustling city lulling you into a peaceful sleep when you feel a hand stroking your face. you look up to see jeno smiling fondly at you, before reaching forward and placing a loving kiss on your lips, a small grin finding its way on his face shortly after. he whispers an i love you, loud enough only for you to hear like it was a secret between you two. something precious enough to only be shared with you. you sigh in content, interlocking your one hand with his, while his other one plays with your hair and you place your head back in its original position hearing his heartbeat fasten, before giving him a sweet kiss. ‘you hear this?’ he says softly, 'this beats only for you.’

As long as you’re here || Jung Jaehyun

You couldn’t exactly pinpoint the moment you realized you didn’t love Jaehyun anymore, or the reason behind this but you were pretty sure your feelings had vanished somewhere along the line. Maybe it was the thousand missed calls, or his messed up schedule or maybe it was the fact that you barely saw him anymore but it felt like there was nothing connecting your hearts anymore. Those thoughts heaved your heart more and more each day but you couldn’t bring yourself to confront him about it, not until you saw him in person, even if that would be the last time. Jaehyun had really been an amazing boyfriend to you, your rock during upsetting days and the home that made you feel safe from the outside world, but the weight of his career as an idol had caused you two to drift apart in ways that broke both his and your heart.

He knew that you didn’t deserve this. The rushed minutes he gave you, the missed calls and the secret dates weren’t something a person like you deserved. Yet he loved you more than his entire existence and even if it was selfish, he couldn’t imagine himself being away from you. As hard as his days were, as stressful his job was, he pushed through just to hear your voice for those 5 minutes he had a break, or to take a glimpse of your face, for those were things that kept him sane. However he knew that with the endless tour dates, you would break at some point and his worst fear would happen; you’d leave him. That’s why on his 3 day vacation he booked the earliest flight to come surprise you. And that’s why he found himself ringing on your doorbell at 7 a.m waiting for you to show up anxiously, like he was afraid of what would happen.

You woke up to the ringing sounds of your doorbell, stretching and looking at the time. Who could be outside at this time of day? You groaned, ruffling your hair with one hand before you got up and reached the door. You opened it and what you saw made your gut drop and your feet to take a step back in surprise before you were engulfed in a huge hug by the person you called your boyfriend. You couldn’t hug him back, as much as your brain told you you should. It didn’t feel right. The hug you once called your safety net, now felt strange, unfamiliar as if you were being hugged by a stranger. Jaehyun noticed your stiffness and pulled away before placing a peck on your lips.

“W-what are you doing here?” you said, trying to smile, but what formed in your mouth probably looked more like a grimace because Jaehyun’s eyebrows furrowed at that.

“I came to surprise you.” He said quietly, “Is everything okay?” He reached for your hand and his fingers stroked the outside of your palm lovingly.

“Yeah,” you said, an unfamiliar feeling brewing inside your stomach, “everything is okay.” You smiled and led him to sit on the couch. You couldn’t decipher what you were feeling. You imagined how this day would go, how’d you feel, but the reality was not even similar to your imagination. Your insides were burning with feelings for the boy in front of you, making you even more confused than you were before.

You sat him down, taking a seat next to him, while his hand settled on your lap and you took a minute to study his face. He was even more handsome than he was when he’d left. The tour definitely had matured him in ways, leaving him looking more manly than ever. He was barefaced, with the sunlight dancing beautifully on his clear skin and his eyes were looking at you, painted with the loveliest shade, a mixture of the sun rays and his eye colour. He brought a hand to your face and stroked your cheek softly, tugging a stray hair that had escaped your bun behind your ear before smiling sadly.

“Love, we need to talk.”

You froze, your heartbeat stopping momentarily, before sighing sadly and nodding your head. Words didn’t need to be spoken for the both of you to realise you were talking about the same thing.

“I’m sorry.” He said suddenly, voice shaking, making you look up at him, tears in your eyes. “I know you don’t love me anymore and I’m sorry. I should have been here, I should have been the boyfriend you deserved but I chose my job instead and I’m sorry.”

“I-it’s not your fault. I knew what I was getting myself into when I said yes. It’s just.. It’s too hard.” you mumbled, “It’s too hard when the only thing I want after a long day is to fall into your arms or at least hear your voice. It’s too hard when I want to go out with you but you either don’t have time or we have to do it secretly. It’s not your fault, none of this is, but it’s just harder than I expected it to be.”

You don’t know when Jaehyun’s hands wrapped around your torso or when he pulled you in his lap but you rested your head on his shoulder and you cried while he hummed a soft melody in your ear, trying to control his own tears as well. You cried until all the frustration left your body, before you realised that what was wrong wasn’t that you stopped loving him. You didn’t and you probably would never do. It was just that your love for him was so big, that being away from him killed a part of you. It was pain that made you feel this way.

“Do you still love me?” Jaehyun whispered softly against your ear while he drew circles on your back. “Please, don’t let me go.”

And that was when you looked up at him and seeing his tear-stained face and his puffy, red eyes made your own fill with tears all over again. You threw your hand around him, hugging him as hard as you could and you mumbled yes a hundred times until you were sure he heard you before pulling away and giving him a passionate kiss, conveying all your feelings.

“I’m sorry I ever doubted my love for you. I love you so much and as long as I have you, I have this, then I’m willing to fight for it.” You whispered, your hands now cupping his face, forcing him to look at you. Your lips gave his nose a small kiss, making him leave a tired chuckle before he once again nuzzled his face in your hair and exhaled.

“I’ll be better okay? I’ll fix this.”

You and him knew that your relationship was not perfect. It needed work and that would probably take a while, but as long as you were together in this, you were sure you’d come out of it alive.

Strawberries and cigarretes || Lee Donghyuck

A/N: photos are not mine, non idol!au inspired by a troye sivan song, probably kinda bad cuz i was in a rush but i couldnt get this idea out of my mind all day so here it is enjoy xx

Remember when we first met?

You said, “Light my cigarette”

So I lied to my mum and dad I jumped the fence and I ran

But we couldn’t go very far

Cause you locked your keys in your car

So you sat and stared at my lips

And I could already feel your kiss

You met Donghyuck, or Haechan as he preferred to be called, on a Tuesday morning in school. You knew ofhim and ofthe things he did and sometimes you talked to him in class, but you didn’t really know who he really was. You didn’t really have to know much about him to understand the kid was trouble, from his black leather jacket to the million broken hearts he was responsible for breaking, you were pretty sure you didn’t want to associate yourself with him. In fact, you didn’t really want to associate yourself with anyone. You were a pretty closed up person and you found making friends pretty difficult so for the most part you found yourself hanging out by yourself at the back of the school. So that’s where you were on that Tuesday morning, waiting for the lunch hour to pass while looking at the peaceful, blue sky when you heard footsteps from behind you and and someone plopping down next to you. No one really hung around the back of the school so you got startled at the sudden arrival and you turned to see who the person was, when you saw Haechan sheepishly grinning at you while mumbling “Sorry, I just needed a breather I hope that’s okay with you.”

You nodded quickly, too intimidated to actually say anything and faced the front again. None of you actually tried to break the silence that existed between you, both of you too consumed in your own thoughts and busy enjoying the peaceful environment. That was until Haechan spoke up, nudging you softly with his elbow making you turn and look at him once again.

“Hey Y/N, can you maybe light my cigarette?” He asked softly, taking you by surprise both at the request and at the sudden realization that Haechan was breathtaking. You of course, knew that Haechan was one of the most handsome guys in school, the number of girls swooning over him being the receipt, but you never had the chance to admire his face from up close. And with the way the light fell on his face, you could finally understand why he had all those girls following him all those school years. “Take a picture, it’ll last longer.” He said chuckling.

“What? Oh right, sorry. U-um I don’t actually smoke so…” You trailed off, looking at him apologetically, “You know, you should stop smoking though, it’s bad for your health and totally gross.” You said, furrowing your brows and snatching the cigarette Haechan had just placed between his lips, away from him.

“Oh? And who are you to tell me what to do?” He said, smirking, one of his eyebrows raised like he was questioning you. You scoffed and turned away from him again, blushing before mumbling, “I’m just stating facts.” You could hear him chuckling from beside you before he suddenly said, “This place sucks want to get out of here?”

“You mean as in skip school?” You asked shocked. “No way, first of all my parents will kill me and second of all I barely know you, why would I want to skip school with you?” You raised your eyebrow while crossing your hands over your chest. “For all I know, you could be a killer.”

“Oh c'mon Y/N. We’ve known each other since elementary, I’m pretty sure you’d known if I was a serial killer. Plus you’re a teenager dude, live your life a little.”

“Correction, I really don’t know who you are besides all the rumors who may or may not be true and I won’t be able to live my life if my parents find out and murder me.” You saw Haechan falter a bit at your words, like what you said hurt him a little, before regaining his posture and playfully pouting at you, “C'mon pleaaase. I promise they won’t find out a thing.” He said and you don’t know what came over you but you muttered a soft “fine” and that’s how you found yourself jumping over the school fence with Haechan on a Tuesday morning and run the streets until you both got out of breath, so you stopped and opted for sitting at a nearby park.

“Sorry, I locked my keys in my car so I walked today.” He muttered apologetically, while walking next to you.

“Don’t worry, it’s okay, I walk to school everyday so it’s not a big deal.” You shrugged and turned around to take a look at his face, only to realize that he was already staring at you with a look in his eyes you couldn’t really understand. You blushed at the sudden proximity, before you started running and shouted “Hey whoever reaches the benches last, buys the other one ice cream.” Haechan laughed and quickly followed you, purposely losing and buying you ice cream, before you both sat down and started talking like you were friends forever. So that’s how, you spend your Tuesday in the park, having the best time you’ve had in a while, getting to know aspects of Haechan you didn’t know existed. And when your parents asked you later in the evening how school was, you looked them in the eyes and smiled, lying to them by saying it went great.

Long nights, daydreams

Sugar and smoke rings, I’ve been a fool

But strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you

Headlights on me

Racing to 60, I’ve been a fool

But strawberries and cigarettes always taste like

Blue eyes, black jeans

Lighters and candy, I’ve been a fool

But strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you

After that day, you two found yourselves reaching for the other’s company more often each day. Haechan felt like he could be his real self with you and he really enjoyed hanging out with someone who he knew wouldn’t judge him based on what the others said. You also found yourself enjoying his company, the once assumptions you had of him, thrown out of the window from the first day you started hanging out with him and you were really thankful that someone actually took time out of their day to hang out with you. At first, your friendship was restricted at the back yard of the school, were you both sat next to each other, many times not really talking yet enjoying the endearing silence, while other times none of you could stop talking. After a few months though, Haechan found himself calling you at any time of the day, just to hang out with you, whether that was stopping by your house, or taking you out for night drives. The later normally happened when he had a lot in his mind and he just wanted to see you. And soon, that became a part of your day. He became a part of your day. He would pick you up to go to school and drive you back because he didn’t want you to walk on your own and after a few hours he would probably call you up to go on a night adventure. On a cold winter night, while you were sleeping you suddenly heard your phone go off. Alarmed at the sudden noise, you shot up and reached for you phone picking it up, not bothering to look at the caller’s ID, already knowing who it was.

“Hyuck?” You said, calling him by a nickname only you were allowed to call him, “Are you okay? It’s like 3 am.” You said, a yawn escaping your lips.

It was silent for a while before he answered. You could hear his ragged breath through the phone, making your eyebrows furrow and your heartbeat increase. “Can we please go for a drive?” You heard a whisper, making your heart break a little. He wasn’t okay.

“I’ll be down in 5.” You said, “Arrive safely yeah?” You heard a small yes and then he hung up.

You sighed and plopped down into your mattress again. To say Donghyuck had now a firm place in your heart now, would be an understatement. You loved him and not only in a friendly way. Somewhere along the laughs, the hugs, his jokes and his stories you had developed a stupid crush on him and your heart broke at the realization he would never love you the same you loved him. However, you promised yourself you wouldn’t tell him anything, too afraid of losing what you had, even if it wasn’t what your heart wanted the most. That’s why, you wore a pair of sneakers and sneaked out of the door quietly, running to his car and slipping in before he drove away. At first it was quite, but that was until you reached for his hand with your own and he stopped the car near a cliff turning around and looking you with glossy eyes.

“Why am I never enough?” He said, voice breaking and you resisted the urge to reach out and hug him, chosing to listen to him instead. “It’s like, whatever I do, my parents don’t really care you know? Even after all this time, after all those things I’ve done to gain their attention they still won’t acknowledge me. I-I have no idea what to do goddamit. They only care for their money, like it’s the only thing in the world. They’re so caught up in their jobs that they can’t even see their marriage is failing. They can’t even see what a failure of a son they have.” He said, raising his voice and he hit his hand on the wheel, startling you.

You knew of his family problems, from brief mentions in the past, but you didn’t know it affected him so much. Suddenly it all clicked. Now you understood, why Lee Donghyuck was the person he was, why he never let anyone else know the real him, why he caused problems. He was just a kid, wanting to get love and attention. You cupped his face with your hand, your fingers wiping the stray tears that escaped his eyes and he tilted his face to the touch of your palm sighing in content at the feeling.

“You’re not a failure. You’re one of the most interesting people I know. The smartest. And if your parents can’t realise that then it’s not your fault. You’re an amazing person Hyuck. It’s not fair to you to hide behind a mask. I know who you can be and who you are. And I’m proud of you for pulling through all this time. It’s time to prove to yourself, who you are too.” You said, voice barely a whisper while Donghyuck’s hand found it’s way towards your own free hand and held it like his life depended on it. And before you could even mutter another word, he reached out and gave you a bone crushing hug, mumbling a soft thank you before kissing your temple. You sighed at the familiar scent of cigarettes and strawberry gum, his favourite flavor, before sneaking your hands around his waist to hold him closer. And you stayed like that for what it seemed hours, comforting one another.

That night you went home and cried until you fell asleep, because what you felt for him was so strong yet so stupid because you knew he would never feel the same way.

Remember when you taught me fate?

Said it’d all be worth the wait

Like that night in the back of the cab

When your fingers walked in my hand

Next day, nothin’ on my phone

But I can still smell you on my clothes

Always hoping that things would change

But we went right back to your games

“Do you believe in fate?” Donghyuck had asked you one night where you both laid in the park, your head on his chest while he played with your hair, while you were gazing at the stars. Over the span of your friendship, Donghyuck had in fact fallen in love with you as well, but he was too scared to act on it, both from the trauma of his parents broken marriage and from the fact that he could lose you. That didn’t stop him from doing anything he could to feel as close to you as he could in that way, confusing both you and him at the progress.

“Hm?” You said, looking up at him, only to see him looking at the stars above you. You took the time to admire his face and the way his features were painted silver by the light of the moonlight and there was nothing you wanted more in that moment than to softly kiss his lips. But you knew you couldn’t so you just looked at him, grateful for the fact that you could at least share those moments with him.

“I don’t know, fate, soulmates, do you believe in all of that?” He said, taking his eyes off the night sky to admire your face and the way your big eyes looked at him.

“I mean, it’d be pretty cute if that was true. Imagine having a person made to be with you. Your person. Like the universe came together, just to find two people that were made for eachother. That shit’s romantic.” You chuckled and raised your eyebrows and him. He grinned and caressed your face with his hand, making your heart almost leave your chest and you prayed he couldn’t feel how hard it was beating.

“I should get you home.” He whispered, still looking at you, his fingers brushing against your lips, “It’s getting late.”

That night, he had forgotten his keys again. So you took a cab back to your house together, him not wanting to leave you alone until you were safe inside your house. His hand never left yours the whole ride, his fingers walking in your hand, while you rested your head on his shoulder, listening to him humming a sweet melody. That night, before he left you to go to his house, Donghyuck couldn’t resist you anymore. That night, he kissed you for the first time, in your doorstep, hands softly holding your waist as if he was afraid he’d break you. That night you slept in bliss, hoping that finally things would change, that he actually felt the same about you, while he went home mortified at the thought that he would ruin something as pure as you. That’s why the rest of the days, he did anything in his power to avoid you. He stopped picking you up, stopped picking up your calls, stopped hanging out with you. He’d see you at the halls and would change direction, breaking your already broken heart even more in the process and making you wonder if all this was just a game to him.

And even if I run away

Give my heart a holiday

Still, strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you

You always leave me wanting more

I can’t shake my hunger for

Strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you

Yeah, they always taste like you

Long nights, daydreams

With that sugar and smoke rings

Always taste like you

Running away from you and his feelings had to be the most stupid thing Haechan had done so far and he had done a lot of stupid things. He was aware of that yet he didn’t know how to fix what he broke. Ever since he stopped talking to you, he wasn’t able to eat, he wasn’t in the mood to do anything and he had pretty much returned to the person he was before he met you, which he absolutely hated. Most importantly he missed you like crazy, he missed your laugh, he missed the way your face scrunched when you were confused, he missed listening to you talk, he missed the way you cared for him. The quick holiday his heart had taken away from you made him realise the one thing he already knew but was too afraid to admit. He was hopelessly and utterly in love with you. He wanted to be your person, the person you share your happiness and your struggles with, the person that you feel closer to you than anyone.

You weren’t much better actually. That week without Hyuck was probably the worst of your life. He had made himself such a constant in your life, that you still waited for him to call you up in the middle of the night to drive you places, resulting you in not sleeping for the past week. You couldn’t do anything other than sleep to ease the pain, seeing as literally anything else reminded you of him and your heart couldn’t take it. The worst thing was that you literally felt played and humiliated. How could he get so close to you only to toy you like that? How could he show you this side of him and then play you like he played all those other girls? All those thoughts were occupying your brain, yet you still felt the same way about him. You still loved him and that upset you more than anything.

On a Saturday night, you were moping around the house, watching a sad movie and eating ice cream when you heard the doorbell. You looked at the time confused, seeing as you weren’t expecting anyone but nonetheless you still went ahead and opened the door. And the minute you opened it, you wished you had just pretended to be asleep because there in front of you stood Donghyuck, his hair disseveled like he’d run his hands through it too many times, dark circles decorating his beautiful eyes and a regretful look on his face. You tried to close the door but he stuck his foot in the house, blocking you from closing it before he entered the house and threw his hands around you, engulfing you in a desperate hug. You stood there frozen, not knowing what to do, wanting to hug him back but knowing you shouldn’t. He took you out of your dilemma by pulling away and taking your face between his hands making you look at him.

“Can we please talk?” He said softly, his eyes searching your whole face. You unfroze from your position and took a step back, your hands crossing in front of your chest defensively.

“I don’t think we have anything to talk about. You’ve already made it clear Haechan. It was your game. You’ve won, you got everything you wanted.” You said, your voice breaking, making him know how upset you were. You saw the hurt in his face, when you called him by the name everyone else called him, like you didn’t know him.

“Please Y/N. I swear what you believe is not the truth.” He said desperately, taking a step towards you while you took one back.

“Oh and what do I believe then? Tell me Haechan, what do I believe? You kissed me, you asshole, you made me fall for you and then what? You ignored me? Like we never meant anything to eachother?” You said, your voice accidentally raising, while tears you didn’t know had found home in your eyes fell down your cheeks.

“I got scared okay?” He said, throwing his hands in the air, “I’ve never felt this way about someone Y/N and I got scared. God, I’m stupid, I know that but I’m also utterly in love with you and that mortifies me.”

“Y-wait what?” You whispered, looking at his face and saw that his eyes were as well glossy with tears. “You do what?”

“I. Love. You” He said and took a step towards you, reaching out and taking your hand in his, putting it on his heart. “Feel this? You’re doing this to me. And I- I didn’t know how to handle it. You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me and I felt that if I was with you, I’d ruin you somehow. But at the same time, I just can’t get enough of you. And I don’t know when you took my heart and made it yours, but as much as I know that I’m bad for you, I can’t stay away from you. I-” You cut him off by placing your lips on his, softly while your hand found a place in his hair softly tugging it. He froze at first, but soon deepened the kiss, resting his hands on your sides, lips softly moulding together with yours.

You pulled away and looked at him before slapping his head playfully. “You idiot, stop making choices for me. I love you and I can’t imagine a better person for me than you. I love you so much.” You grinned, happy tears falling from your eyes before he wiped them and kissed you again.

“I love you so much. I’m sorry I’m such an idiot and I’m sorry it took so long.” He said and smiled sheepishly with the same smile he had when you first met him when he joined you at the backyard. “Can we go cuddle and make up for the lost time now?” He pouted and you laughed while hugging him.

“Sure, come on.”

And that’s how you spent the whole night, wrapped up in each others embrace, talking and laughing, happy to finally belong to one another.

Better man ll Haechan

short haechan fluff, kinda suggestive idk????? i was feeling like it so yeah here is is

You were laying on the couch mindlessly watching a tv show while waiting for your boyfriend to come home from practice when you heard keys and the door opening and closing. Donghyuck wasn’t supposed to be back for at least 5 more hours so you were startled at the sound and you peaked your head over the back of the couch only to see your boyfriend tiredly coming through the living room door, running a hair through his freshly dyed hair, his bag on one shoulder and his sweats hanging low from his hips. You looked at his face, noticing how dark his circles had become and how thin his face had turned, from all the weight loss and you couldn’t help but furrow your eyebrows in worry, quickly collecting yourself and standing up to go greet him. Upon noticing you, his lips twitched upwards into a loving grin and he dropped his bag on the floor, opening his arms to welcome you into his embrace. You sneaked your hands around his waist and kissed his lips before nuzzling your head in his chest. You could feel him exhaling in your hair while he rubbed your sides, before pulling back to take a look at your face.

“You are back home early, is everything okay?” You asked, bringing one hand to cup his cheek, while your fingers softly caressed the smooth skin.

“Yeah, we did well today so they let us leave.” He sighed and tilted his head pleased at the way your hand felt on his skin, “The guys went drinking but I wanted to get back to you. I’ve missed you.” He said and brought his hand on your neck, pulling you closer and settling his lips on yours. The kiss was soft at the begining but it soon got deeper and Donghyuck put his hands on both of your sides, rubbing the skin over your shirt while your hands got lost somewhere in his fluffy hair. He bit your lip making you leave a soft moan at the sensation and you let your hands wander on his body, feeling the heated skin of his stomach under his shirt. You could feel him smirking while he backed you up towards the wall, his hands finding your butt and giving it a small squeeze as a signal to jump. You slightly squealed, making Donghyuck pull away and laugh at you before he continued by attacking your throat with kisses reaching all the places he could. You slightly pushed his chest and he looked up at you, his plushy lips now swollen from kissing you and his hair ruffled from you tugging at it.

“Babe, you haven’t even eaten yet.” you said while you tried to fix his messy hair.

“I can skip lunch and go straight to dessert though.” He said winking at you, while a smirk found the way to his face. You laughed and playfully hit his shoulder while taking your legs off his waist and straightening your clothes.

“C'mon you can eat some food now and then you’ll have as much dessert as you want.” You said poking at his chest and escaping the arms that caged you on the wall, taking his hand and dragging with you.

“Ugh, fine but you promised.” He said, pouting, while he patted your butt with his free hand.

You prepared the table for him, making him some noodles while he sat on the kitchen isle and later sat down with him, doing him some company while he talked about his day, how he aced today’s choreography and laughed at some story about how Taeyong chased Jaehyun around the practice room because the later ate his cherry pie. You couldn’t help but admire the way his face lit up when he talked about the things he loved and how his smile made your heart flutter at the sight. Dating Donghyuck was never easy, seeing as the time you spent together was minimal and he always had schedules he had to attend, so you never had the chance to be a normal couple. You knew he loved you and he would do anything to be with you though and you did ,as well, love him more than anything, so the thought of leaving him never ever crossed your mind. You enjoyed and cherished every moment you got with him, whether that was small, secret dates by the park, sleeping and waking up with him, seeing his face even if it was only for an hour and you wouldn’t trade that for the world.

Donghyuck noticed you had zoned out of the conversation when he asked you how your day was and you never replied, so he looked up at you and he met your full of concentration, scrunched face and he mentally uwued at the sight, so he took your face his hands, startling you before he asked you if you were okay.

“Yeah, I just, I love you so much.” you said, softly putting your hands over his and holding them, while you brought your face closer to his so that your lips barely brushed his. “So, so much.”

“I love you. Thank you for being the best girlfriend in the world even if I can’t be the best boyfriend for you.” He said, voice barely a whisper while he lovingly looked you in the eyes.

“You’re so much more than that.” You said and finally connected your lips to his.

No matter how hard things got for the both of you, you and him knew that as long as you were together nothing else mattered. Donghyuck felt like you were his home, the person behind everything he is right now, because if he didn’t have your support and your love, he wouldn’t be able to come this far. And he would always be thankful to you for that.

[22.00 pm] Roadtrips with Jaehyun where he doesn’t let go of your hand throughout the entire drive and you guys spend the night in your minivan, in each other’s imbrace, gazing at the stars whilst talking about anything that comes to your mind, with slow music playing in the background.