“I don’t believe in love because every single person who has told me they loved me has left me”

-Day 571

“I will love you until that’s the only thing that I know”

-Day 570

“Garden

The butterflies you planted in my stomach are trying to escape

I feel their tiny feet crawling up my throat

The flutter of their wings

They want to be set free

We both want to be free

I fear that I will not die by the hands of old age

But by the hands of my lover

I told you i always wanted a garden

So you planted seeds in my skin

To watch me flourish

To become the one thing I always wanted

But what you don’t realize

Or maybe you do

Is that the roots have dug their way into my flesh

Draining the blood out of my veins to make themselves flourish

But at least they will be pretty

Will you pick the flowers growing from my decaying body to show everyone what a beautiful garden you can make?”

-Day 569

“You make me happy in ways I didn’t think could happen.”

-Day 568

“I fear I will not die by the hands of old age but instead by the hands of a lover”

-Day 567

“In the end, no matter what, we will always find our way back to each other”

-Day 566

“It’s the color of your eyes

The last time I saw you

When your face was stained with tears

Red rimmed eyelids

Highlighting your ocean eyes

It’s the color I felt

For days after you left

Gloomy days lead by storming skies

The gods cried with me too

It was the color of his hair

Matching the sky on a clear day

When he came into my life

It’s the color of his jeans

That were ripped at the knees

Blood staining his skin

From the skateboard under my feet

And the color of my nails as I held his hand

Laughing downtown under the colorful umbrellas

It’s the color he made my skies

Going from gloomy rainy days to clear skies

Blue is what you made me become

But blue doesn’t always have be sad”

-Day 565

One day. One beautiful hopeful day.

My girlfriend and I had broken up.

We broke up, nothing horrible but we ended up splitting. It was a mutual end and we’re friends. I continue to believe distance DOES work but we just hit a mark that showed we can’t do this right now.

Every fucking day I wish I had you.

Me