#loosing myself

I just start my new path, I thought I’d be really exciting and fun, and actually, it is, but it also scares me. I’m scared of loosing myself in the way of my dreams, not reaching my life goals, not being good enough in the things I do.

But with this scary thoughts the brave part of me came out, ready to fight any obstacle that comes in to my path.

I feel like someone else has taken over my body and I’m just watching from behind closed walls. I don’t recognize myself.

To really get better you have to want to change. And I, I need to get better. But sadly I don’t want to change. That means for me there is no getting better, even tho it’s devastating to watch me get worse.