#love letter my true feelings

I’m in love with female senpai so haaaa

Shes so cute, Fact.

I love her

go to sleep. he isn’t thinking of u & that’s his loss. don’t lose sleep over someone that’s dreaming of someone else.

sometimes i wonder if you’re missing me too, even though you claim to be in love with her.

The letter I finally sent.

I shouldn’t be writing this but i will for my own well being because all i want in this life is to be happy and live a meaningful joyful life. I wanted you to be a part of my life and i wanted to be a part of your life. Because i know for a fact that me and you together are the most iconic duo to ever exist i know that very well. If only you treated my heart well we could’ve been the rarest we could’ve been fire, unstoppable and i was patient i have been patient with you i had faith in you i never gave up on you i stood there by your side through all of the struggles. I was put through hell but still managed to never let go of the inner faith i had in you but you are not making any effort to heal my heart on the contrary you are adding more to it by treating me this way by calling me names by making misconceptions about me. I wanted to see you only to tell you that “ i do not want to lose you at all lets fight and fix this “ i wanted to tell you lets face everyone and everything because me and you are once in a lifetime duo. I made a list of all the places i wanted to go with you. I wanted us to have laughter and only laughter together. I wanted us to have our secret code conversation, to be each other’s best friends to be each other’s “ go to “. I wanted us to be so powerful, successful, extraordinary. To be there for each other to lift each other up to not let go of each other. I wanted you to leave that not good life and create a beautiful life together. Because this is what life is about life is about fighting it is about laughter and joy. Everyone is after mutual connection everyone is after that. Everyone is after having one real thing and we had that. I don’t know if you are on the same mindset but your actions are telling me the opposite and this is the reason i am writing this. You were the man in my life i was seeing you as a shield as a backbone as my man through thick and thin. I don’t know who is the one that you’re hurting me for i don’t know who is that person that pushes you to be this far from me but i know this for sure that no one around you wants the best for you i am excluding your family by all means. But everyone around you is very controlling and has or still is leaving a bad mark on your life and if you pay a close attention all of them is living their lives and their choices. All of the people around you without exception have hurt me and you supported that i will keep the pain i was put through and all of the things i was forced to live inside my heart and will not talk about it. I will try to forget the fact that you stood by them while they were hurting me i will try to forget that you supported them and was a major factor to the pain i was put through. I only had one wish and it was living the life i dreamt of with you the life that was full of laughter and connection and adventure and bonding i wish you let me be myself with you. I wish you never let anyone hurt me i wish you stood up for me i wish you faced everyone who was not supportive of this. I wish those negative words never came out of your mouth towards me. I wish you left everything and came to me to live the life i talked about i wish you were open to me i wish you never left my arms which were your safe place. I wish you never built this huge wall between us, i wish you fought for this. I wish the idea of letting me go was never there. i wish i was not this hurt and heartbroken. i will keep every unuttered words inside my heart this was a small portion of the things i wanted to tell you i don’t like it when i express too much and i sure as hell don’t want to keep having these kind of talks. I want to be happy and live joyfully. You are the man and i see you that way it is your job to fix this to heal my heart to be my hero I hope you do it i hope you make a decision and fix everything and not let me go but if you did not, that will explain everything that will explain if it was real and be an answer to me because i do not want to live this kind of life.