i don’t know what’s going on but my appetite is basically non existent right now, i mean i am not complaining what so ever. i became so picky with food and half of it now grosses me out - and even if i do start craving something i can easily turn in down or usually actually have it because i don’t eat much anyways. i don’t know how long will this last but if this is because of all energy drink that i’m drinking then at least i know what i got to do.

anyways, merry christmas to all of you who celebrate it!

stay safe

i binged two times last week, the first binge wasn’t that bad actually but the second one was way too much but i balanaced each binge with fasting, right now monsters are godly because they really help me out with not binging and cutting out my cravings. anyways, new week, new start and i’d really like to only binge once this week but i’m not sure how will that go as christmas is in a few days. if you have any tips on how to not prevent binges or things that help you out with cravings i would love to know.

Stay safe

(not me)

Hey lovelies, I know I stopped posting for a little while, my mental health has been shit and a way to comfort myself is obviously to eat a shit ton, because when I feel like I lost control I do everything that makes the feeling 10x worse, it makes no fucking sense - I know. Anyways, i’m gonna try and restrict as much as possible today, wish me luck!

It’s been a difficult night

Crying on Christmas, purging on Christmas, restricting on Christmas, it’s my first Christmas with an eating disorder and without my dog I loved him so much and still do. Anyway have a good sleep or day. And Merry Christmas. ❣❣

Yes

So I think I also have bulimia too…… and yes I failed at losing 5 kg in 5 days also how would I know, I don’t have a scale anymore? Thank God I have like 80 dollars and will probably get my own.