Okay

So I gained all my weight back 《43 kg》 but I’ve lost 3 kg !!! 《40 kg》 I might sleep now it’s 12:01 and I usually wake up at 9 or 10 and that’s a good amount of sleep and if I sleep more than 8 hours I usually feel good and burn more calories so look thinner yay. Also I’ve been trying my new diet 《2 weeks in it》 and oh my I’ve failed so bad so far. Anyway gonna watch asmr goodnight :D

It’s been a difficult night

Crying on Christmas, purging on Christmas, restricting on Christmas, it’s my first Christmas with an eating disorder and without my dog I loved him so much and still do. Anyway have a good sleep or day. And Merry Christmas. ❣❣

Me after a binge

Shit. Summer is coming and I’m N O T R E A D Y

haha i’ve been trying to recover for a while and it simply isn’t happening. now i hate myself even more

Weight loss/gain seems to always be noticable in my hands first before the rest of my body, which is kinda bittersweet because on one hand it’s shown my progress but on the other hand I literally don’t care if my hands get skinny or not ‍♀️

I got mega triggered today because my friend (who’s thinner than me) pointed out how I ate an apple in one sitting and how she was shocked… I mean it was a pretty big apple, BUT COME ON ITS FUCKIN FRUIT JUST LET ME HAVE THIS

That moment when all you’ve eaten today is straight up garbage, but you’re ok with it because it’s under your calorie limit